Trauma, Drama & Fear

Trauma, Drama and Fear, Oh My! Trauma, Drama and Fear, Oh My! Trauma, Drama and Fear, Oh My! These are the programs the matrix infuses us with from birth. Trauma, drama and fear keeps us locked in the mundane, always on fight or flight and stress hormones raging through our bodies. These influx of stress hormones keep us in a constant state of fear. To scared to look up, look around or get in tune with ourselves. Everywhere we turn the matrix is bombarding us with trauma, drama and fear. If it isn’t the news, it’s TV shows and movies. If it’s not coming from the tv, it’s coming from bullies, abusive parents, teachers, social media and your so called friends.

Earth is a locked down world and most beings that come here know the risks of entering this particular realm. But nothing ever prepares us for the constant bombardment of things to make you feel like an outcast and not from here. Most beings that come here automatically have a X on their back and the trauma, drama and fear programs are ramped up for them. Majority of the most gifted and phenomenal souls are tortured by society. Treated so badly from the TDF programming that they develop “mental issues”. A course many will question their sanity when they know who they are, the gifts and abilities inside of them, and the undeniable gut feeling that there’s more to life and to them than the crap their life keeps throwing at them.

Mental issues are spiritual attacks on a persons psyche and the programs trauma, drama and fear are groomers to impose these attacks. I’m not just making a general statement just to stir people up, I’m speaking from experience. My childhood was a terror, high school was a panic attack around every corner, college was the most loneliest time of my life, adulthood was a traumatic roll coaster, parenthood was and still is a never ending challenge and I could go on but I won’t.

The TDF attacked me as soon as I came out of the vagina! As soon as I was born I started having a seizure and was whisked away by the nurses, so I never got the mother -infant bond that is detrimental to forming as soon as a baby is born. My very first moments here were traumatic. Then, the trauma continued with an older brother that would beat the crap out of me in my crib and that developed into me being his torture doll every chance he got.

If I wasn’t getting TDF at home, I was getting it at school. I was picked on for being smart, being pretty, and being athletic but most of all for being so different. I absolutely loved animals, science and digging for crystals. I’m an animal whisperer and have a strong connection to nature. So, yes I was deemed weird when I would talk to peoples dogs and cats, respond to bird chirps or show a sheer fascination with big cats, especially tigers with my “friends”. I put friends in quotations because almost all the friends I’ve ever had did me dirty in some shape or form. Makes you question your character and your friend picking radar for sure.

I briefly mention some of my TDF moments to show that I’m not an outsider speaking on mental issues, because I was once diagnosed with many. I was told in high school I had depression and anxiety. And not knowing what I know now, I didn’t question it because I definitely had the symptoms. At times the loneliness and sadness was too much to bare and I would think about suicide and ending the pain. So, overtime I accepted my fate, popped pills and played happy. And a course life would through TDF every chance it could and I would backslide into depression once again. This cycle continued way into my 30s until I got with a therapist that knew her shit. I ended up finding her after I was diagnosed with bipolar by a different therapist. I was in an abusive marriage (blog for a later time) and I really felt lost and all over the place emotionally and mentally. After answering specific questions to figure out what mental issue I had, because you know they hand those diagnoses out like candy, my results chimed bipolar. When he told me I refused to accept it and found a different therapist.

Now with my new therapist and 3 sessions in, she stops our convo and tells me that I’m not bipolar for sure and yes I have the symptoms of depression and anxiety but my life has been a complete hell so why wouldn’t I. She further explains to me that these symptoms are just surface symptoms and the cause of them is PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder. And I’m like WHAT! That’s what soldiers get. She then further explains that everyone experiences trauma in their life and everyone reacts to it differently. And for me a lot of traumatic events have shocked my system so badly that I’m constantly in a state of fight or flight. Riding the rollercoaster of life constantly worrying and stressing about what someone is going to do to me next. But the next thing she tells me over the course of our sessions of finding and releasing the traumatic experiences I was holding in my body and my psyche was life changing! My therapist never talked spiritually at all and she never asked me my beliefs. But one session she stops me in mid sentence and says, I’ve been listening to you and all these moments where you don’t acknowledge your greatness. People and events have beat you up to the point where you now hide who you are. You will continue to have these “mental issues” as long as keep playing small and denying who you truly are. In that moment it was like someone else, someone that really knew me channeled through her. I didn’t take her statement as her just talking to me, I took it as I was being chastised for not coming to this conclusion sooner.

From that day forward I took the lead in my life and started finding my way back to my true self. I no longer accepted that I was depressive or had anxiety and researched my “symptoms” and discovered I was an empath and that’s why I would get mood swings for no reason. I was picking up on other people’s energy and feelings around me and mistaken them for my own. The anxiety was necessary to protect me and keep me on guard, because I’m a warrior spirit. Always ready to fight and defend, so I had to learn how to relax, ground through meditation and develop my magical practices to release the pinned up energies within me.

Trauma, drama and fear is the program we all are bombarded with but with all things we can change how it effects us. Plus, with age I gained wisdom and was able to see TDF as a necessary catalyst to help many sleeping beings awaken. Through the toughest trauma, the strongest will survive and thrive. Diamonds are made under pressure and the enlightened are way more precious than a diamond, so our pressure has to be even heavier!

Fearmonger

The fear is real and it’s very disheartening. I was on a call today with a few black mothers and unfortunately the conversation took a turn to the dark side. The dark side being the never ending topic of the year…..CVD. When asked why I wanted to be in the discussion I mentioned wanting to talk to other black mothers about the pressures of motherhood, working and trying to weigh my options regarding the mandates. That statement sent us straight to the dark side. The entire conversation from that point on was about everyone’s feelings about CVD. It got to the point I had to message the convo leader and apologize because I did not want this convo to be about CVD.

But an interesting thing happened during the conversation. A lady interrupted us stating she was being triggered by our conversation. When she started to talk and explain her reasoning, I was annoyed and disheartened by her responses. She described how since CVD hit she refuses to go outside unless it’s to the store, how she took her children out of daycare to keep them safe, and she and her family took the shot as soon as it was available. The fear in her eyes and in her voice was so real. And within that moment I checked in with myself and I was triggered. Triggered by the fact that this lady had succumb to the fear the media has been pushing in our faces about CVD. Triggered by her admittance of getting CVD even after getting the shot and her justification for still supporting the shot was that her viral load was less than what it would have been if she didn’t get the shot. WTF! How would know that? Just regurgitating shit a doctor told her with no proof. If you got the shot you’re not supposed to get the disease the shot was for! So, if your main reason for getting it was for your child and everyone in your household still got it…..what was the point?

All things start in the metaphysical/spiritual and then manifest in the material. The physical attack that’s occurring here started in the spiritual first. And the spiritual implications of the shot is being started in the physical. People are out here throwing away their spiritual nature and their divine make up out of fear. Even spiritualist are out here claiming sovereignty, love and light, positive vibes while sliding through the quick stick drive thrus. You can’t be a true sovereign being, know who you truly are, know the importance of protecting your genetics, mystical marvelous shaman priestesses or whatever you want to call yourself and still get the shot. It’s a hypocritical move and shows that your live according to the matrix and fear rules you, not your sovereignty.

It really does sadden me to know so many people are throwing away their sovereignty for vacations out of the country, going to concerts, money, etc. But as I write this, people are already devaluing themselves for these “freedoms” so why would it be any different for a shot. The illusion of freedom, because even though they took the shot they still have to where a mask, get tested or screened to go to any of these events or to leave or enter the country and so on. You got the shot to still be treated as if you didn’t! Once again, what was the point?

Don’t Talk About It, Be About It

“Sa Sekhem Sahu”

This week has been a hectic one to say the least. I’ve been dealing with a neighbor issue and it escalated to the point where I went out and got a bat, pepper spray, stun gun and cameras. See, I know who I am and the power that I hold. But never once do I ever forget that I still have to function and make moves in this 3D mundane world. Accepting who and what I am has heightened me to no longer stand for anyone’s bullshit against me, my kids, my family or the things I value in this life. I’ve tapped into several past lives as a male warrior, military ops marksmen, warrior priestesses, warrior princess and several assassin runs on this realm, other realms, planets and dimensions. All I have to do is allow that fury and rage to rise and all I need to know and do will activate.

You may wonder if all of my blogs are about metaphysics, estoteric knowledge, spirituality and magic, why did I run out and get physical things to deal with my neighbor? Oh good question and the answer is I handled it in 2 ways! Firstly, I handled it metaphysically with magic then like I stated, I know I have to function in the 3D mundane, so I got some tools to throw down in the 3D if need be. Best believe I covered my bases. I don’t typically work with the dark arts, but if I have to due to being threatened I will. Threw they asses in a shit and piss jar and been shitting on them ever since they brought this mess to me!

The only reason I’m writing this blog is to let people know that claiming who you truly are spiritually, magically, etc isn’t for fakers and wannabes! You know the ones that as soon as some real shit come up in they life they completely forget who they are, their ancestors, the protection work and the tools they naturally have access to to take care of their problems in the unseen. Not once did I think “oh no, what am I going to do, or should I take their threats seriously or not, or maybe I should just call the police and let them handle it, or maybe if I ignore them and act like their words don’t hurt me they’ll stop”. Man Fuck That and that’s the same thing I told my husband when he didn’t want me to get all gangsta on they ass lol. I’m no punk in the higher realms or on this one. I cast first and ask questions later!

So best believe before I left my house today I stood in front of my altar and asked my ancestors and dragons to be with me as I put on my Eye of Ra necklace, put pepper spray in one pocket, and the taser in the other. Had my bat in the front seat of my car and my gun on the car door, because I am licensed to carry. Chitty, chitty bang bang only if my life and others are depending on it. I Don’t just Talk About It, I Be About It! Even though, they didn’t try me today doesn’t mean I let down my guard and not be ready to get down tomorrow or the next day. But even if they never step to me again, my workings are still doing their job in the unseen. Once again, bases covered!

Hail Sekhmet!

Karma Breaker

Coming into this world all knowing then losing yourself, your value, your path, your purpose is traumatic.

Being told from outsiders, seers, shamans, priestesses, and elders that you’re here to break rules, break karmas and bring back truth in your ancestry and in this world sounds awesome and empowering. To know that I have a dual duty of empowering myself and my lineage with the knowledge, wisdom and power I contain, sounds like some superhero shit.

But in reality it’s depressing and hard. It’s like knowing beforehand what’s going to happen and being cool with it. Thinking you can prepare for it and tell yourself to not lose sight of who you really are as motivation is cute. But when the chaos hits, the karma comes and the emotional rollercoaster comes roaring, it’s hard to feel like a powerful being. All that makes me human rises up and takes over. Heartache, pain, emotions, crying and crying, anger, defeat, giving up, running away and more crying.

Makes me wonder why me? Why do I have to be the one to the clear the crap out of our bloodline? A course when you ask questions like that you get answers. It’s because not only am I clearing out karma for myself and my ancestors, I’m also unleashing our birthright, power, ancestral practices and gifts, and reforming our direct link to abundance and prosperity our lineage on this earth have been disconnected from. All the things that were taken from us through murder, assassinations, witch hunts, slavery, brainwashing and our people erased from books and the memories of all people on earth.

Being reminded of what I and my lineage will be gaining from what I as an individual have to go through, helps me focus and pull myself together to push forward. Yes, these karma moments suck but I will get through them and be even stronger in my power and my will at the end of them.

Making my earthly and galactic ancestors proud!

Shadow Work is Subconscious Work

A person bumps into you and you have hot coffee in your hands and it spills all over you and it burns bad. Reacting to the pain of the burn is healthy. Reacting to the anger you have towards the person who caused this to happen to you, because it caused physical pain is healthy. Allowing healthy responses to this incident is a must! Acting like no physical pain occurred and you are not angry is unhealthy. People need to understand that allowing an emotional response to occur is healthy. Eventually, being able to break the incident down to the core emotions so you can feel them, react to them, and forgive yourself for reacting to them is a key factor in doing Shadow Work, which I call Subconscious Work. Forgiveness also includes the person that caused you harm or pain, but only if they acknowledge what they’ve done. Because forgiveness is for your healing not theirs. Subconscious work is for the real spiritual people, not the love and light folks, so if they don’t apologize or acknowledge their fault, f*** them and keep it moving.

I included forgiving yourself, because no matter how spiritually adept someone becomes, we will still be human at the end of the day. And being a human being includes being emotional and ignoring our emotions is harmful and unhealthy. It doesn’t help that society frowns upon emotional people, specifically women, and that’s why emotions and being emotional gets a bad rep. But as humans we are composed of 4 bodies, which are the spiritual body, mental body, emotional body, and the physical body. The saying “stand on your square” directly relates to the acknowledgment of these four bodies aka four points.

4 bodies: Spiritual, Mental, Emotional and Physical

I mentioned above the term core emotions which correlate to our core beliefs. People only have 5 emotions that we experience on a scale of extremes or as a combination of the core 5 emotions. Disney put out a great movie a few years back that explores human emotions and their complexity called Inside Out. I highly recommend watching this movie if you want to start Subconscious Work and fully understand core emotions and beliefs.

Unfortunately, because a lot of people including myself at one point, see 4 of our core emotions anger, fear, disgust, and sadness as negative emotions, but they’re not. They are absolutely needed and need to be expressed to be a whole and healthy human being. These emotions that are associated with being dark and negative are the key emotions you focus on in Subconscious/Shadow Work. These dark emotions have dark positives, which I see as positive aspects to that emotion when its acknowledged and transmuted. For example, fear can be transmuted into rage when a woman is attacked by an attacker while walking at night. She can use that fear turned rage to defend herself against her attacker. Another example, fear can be transmuted to strength when a mother see’s her child get trapped under a car and she lifts the car up off of her child so she can get them out.

To fully understand how the subconscious works, you must correlate it to how the body does voluntary and involuntary actions. Voluntary actions are conscious actions and involuntary actions are subconscious actions. So, for example, conscious breathing is voluntary breathing. You are purposely making you lungs inhale and exhale air. Subconscious breathing is involuntary breathing which is your normal moment to moment breathing that happens without any guidance or will of your own. Without involuntary actions of the body, we wouldn’t be alive because involuntary actions run our entire body. From breathing to blood pumping to digestion. All actions we don’t have to tell our bodies to do. So, guess what, if involuntary aka subconscious actions run our bodies then the subconscious mind runs our mental and emotional bodies. Need proof, here’s a perfect example, zoning out while driving a car to work. When, you get to work and don’t remember driving there at all. You don’t remember seeing the typical sites you see during the drive in or anything. It’s because your subconscious got you there and your subconscious always gets there but when you zone out and come back to consciousness you become aware of the subconscious actions.

Furthermore, the subconscious is the involuntary mental and emotional actions that drive our core emotions and beliefs. When we push “negative” or “dark” emotions and experiences “deep inside” so we don’t have to deal with the feelings that arise or even acknowledge them at all is unhealthy. When you push those emotions “deep inside” you’re pushing them into your subconscious. Which is where they turn into involuntary actions that attach to core emotions or core beliefs, which the subconscious runs them. So, now you have that one horrible moment that happened when you were 5 years old running and controlling your life when anything that feels like that experience or emotions happen. You’ve created a circular habitual response in your life that will continue till you deal with the emotions attached to that experience. Dealing with those emotions includes revisiting that event in your mind or even the place, allowing the emotions to rise, feeling those emotions play out, releasing the emotions, then forgiving yourself for allowing yourself to feel because “You’re human and you’re allowed.”

Love Spell

Being apart of several “witchy” groups, I’ve noticed the main thing girls in these groups want to do is cast love spells on guys. Or hex or curse a guy that hurt them but that’s a subject for another blog. I can admit that I’ve never wanted to “cast” a love spell, mainly because I didn’t know what love really was. My definition of love was completely different from everyone I’ve ever encountered. My definition of love is “Love is a choice, not a feeling.” I’ve never came across anyone that valued the love that I gave. So my perspective on love was that it wasn’t for me and it was nothing but heartache, because I expressed love differently than others.

While dating a guy a long time ago, we was having a discussion on love and commitment and I told him my definition and he got upset. He couldn’t grasp my perspective on love. He was offended that I was saying that I could fall out of love with him. In my defense, I reinteriated my point that my love for someone would be a choice and not based on how I felt towards them, because feelings can change in a blink of an eye. Then to make matters worse, he tried to convince me that it was his job to make me happy and keep me in loving feelings towards him. Unfortunately, he was talking to the new, improved and awakened me and not the old, insecure, didn’t know my worth me. The old me would have soaked those words up and entrapped me, but the new me wasn’t having it. I responded with “I’m responsible for my own happiness and you the same. You should enhance me and I the same to you.” Welp, he wasn’t having that and I completely understood why. Most people base their value on someone else’s value and need of them. Tit for tat relationships, I give you this and you better give me what I gave you back at equal or greater value. I was a culprit of this myself in many of relationships, but the difference in my circumstances was that I was given way too much of myself to try to keep people happy with me. I put my self-worth on how I made others happy in hopes they would reciprocate the same effort towards me and that never happened till now.

After taking time to heal after a terrible marriage, a stressful divorce and converting back into single mommy hood, I focused a lot of free time on my spiritual journey. While on this part of my journey, the universe threw some tests at me to see if I’ve learned my lessons. One was the guy I mentioned earlier, another was an old flame and the last was a really nice guy that I gave a chance because my intuition said do it. The guy I mentioned above tested my ability to stand in my true feelings even when it conflicted with the person I’m dating. The old flame came back to remind me that I was above the bullshit and that it is ok to be better or above someone. To know my worth! The really nice guy was my test to go outside the box of the typical guys I dated to show me there’s more to life when you remove unnecessary boundaries. Also, to test me in my truth of being a magical, gifted being that was no longer trapped in religion. The really nice guy was a church guy that lived a contradicting lifestyle but had a problem with me embracing my spiritual path. It was hard but I chose my true nature over him and it was the final test I needed to past for the universe to show me I was ready to accept my god hood.

In January 2019 I did a love spell and it was nothing like any love spell I came across in groups or doing searches on the internet. My love spell was intuitive and about me accepting my divinity and letting the universe know I was ready to receive the love it had for me. I placed my life in the hands of the universe and wrote my spell to fall within universal laws, even if the love I attracted was me loving myself solo. This spell was so powerful that the notebook I wrote it in disappeared. I tried to keep the spell so I could reference it later but the universe was like “Naw, you gave this to us so it has to leave you to fully be in our hands.” From that day forward I continued to live, explore my spiritual journey and didn’t even think about the work I did with that spell.

Before I even did the spell work, I had arranged a cabin trip within a Facebook group for the end of February 2019. So, the Friday of the cabin trip arrived and I didn’t even pay attention to the date 2/22/19 (222). When I arrived a girl named Amber and a guy I’ve never met before greeted me at the door. The first thing I noticed when I opened the door was this guy with this huge smile stirring at me all googly. I could tell he was “intrigued” by me but I brushed it off because I know I have that effect on guys. So how he was acting wasn’t odd or worth paying attention to. Once inside he offers to take my bag, like he switched from intrigued mode to servitude mode. So I let him take my bag and I followed both of them upstairs. While walking to meet everybody that was already there, I’m videotaping the cabin because it was awesome. So I’m not paying this guy any attention while we’re walking. We get upstairs and he starts to walk up these loft steps to a room he said was mine and I stopped him. I let him know I didn’t want that room because it was too open and noisy and I wanted a room away from everybody. So he takes me around this bin to a whole other part of the house to a room away from everybody. I tell him cool I’ll take this one and he looks at me and this was the first time I made eye contact with him and he replies “but this is my room.” We locked eyes and it was like we spoke telepathically because I was thinking “that’s nice but I want this room” and he responded verbally “ok you can have it.”

After that interaction, I found myself drawn to him. Yes he was cute, had a nice body, gorgeous smile, you know all the physical things opposite sex are attracted to but it wasn’t that I was drawn to. I found myself wanting to be in his presence and had to stop myself from stirring at him. Every now and then I would catch him stirring at me then quickly turning his head or eyes away like he wasn’t too. At dinner I put my glass next to where he was going to sit but a girl moved it and sat next to him not realizing my glass of water was my spot saver. Later that night we were all in the jacuzzi and we were the last ones to get out. He tried to have a conversation with me but it was forced and awkward. I started to take that weird interaction as maybe what I was feeling wasn’t what I thought it was towards him.

Then things took a turn for the better later that night. We created a bond over spying on the weird owner of the cabin we was staying at. To the point I screamed for him to join me at a window and all he had on was his boxers. Till this day I’m shocked that we spent hours together spying on this guy and not once did I notice he was in his boxers. We were so wrapped up in each other’s company, laughing and joking around I never noticed and he never thought to go put some shorts on. Later on finding out what he was working with, I definitely should of have noticed! The most memorable part of the spying was when I was sitting on a chair and he came and sat down on a foot stole to be close to me while we chatted. There was a couch and another chair he could of chose to sat on but he sat on the foot stool. The way he was looking at me when he was listening to me was so adorable. Like I was the most beautiful, intriguing woman he had ever seen. He still looks at me like that and expresses his amazement of me everyday. Once we had enough of spying on the owner, we went to sleep in our separate rooms. That night I ended up having a dream that revealed that he was the one for me, my soul mate. The rest of that weekend we were inseparable, where ever I was he was. When we didn’t know where one of us was we would ask someone where the other is.

We became an immediate couple and been making couple moves ever since. At times I would say I wish I met him in my younger years, but I know all the things I’ve gone through prepared me for having him in my life. The connection and bond we have is what movies are made of. But not the typical love movie, I’m talking about a supernatural, superhuman sci-fi love movie. Our connection is so strong and we’re so intuned that we finish each others thoughts and sentences. We can send thoughts to each other and we will respond via text or phone. We know when one is off and exactly what to do to make the other feel better. During sex this man knows secrets held within my body that he maneuvers like he was the one that placed them there. He completely understands my definition of love and our roles as a man and woman in a partnership. He fully fulfills his role as a protector and I as my role as a nurturer. In regards to our god hood, he is my generator and I am is manifestation vessel. He allows me to be the magical being that am, practice my spirituality as I see fit and inquires to learn more about my practices. The perfect guy for me!

My love spell was open-ended and written to work within universal laws; which released full control to the universe to work on my behalf. I loved myself first and that was the key to attracting someone who loved me too. He is the best person and partner for me based on my authentic, true self. And You can also attract the person that is for you by being who you truly are too.

Birthing Pains

We are going through a birthing. A new Earth is emerging from an old, broken, run down and no longer able to function properly Earth. This is the transitioning of 5D from 3D that so many speak about. The misconception is that it’s an actual new planet earth or a physical new heaven, because it’s not. It’s a higher level of vibrations, a higher view to see the whole picture, which means a higher perspective is dawning. One where the Universal Law of One is honored. One where the respect of duality is honored. One where the roles of humans, animals, plants, dimensional beings, and all things metaphysical are honored and respected. The pain, discontent, and emotional rollercoaster we are all on right now is necessary and a part of the birthing process just like when a woman gives birth. The pain, discontent and emotional rollercoaster she feels isn’t caused by the baby….. it’s caused by the birthing process and that part of the process can’t be skipped.

Old 3D earth has to go through birthing aka the 4D portal to rise up to the new 5D earth

What we should be doing right now is grounding ourselves and helping Mother Earth ground in this new level of energy. Captured in many books written within oppressive societies, humans are made to feel less than and puny among the “gods”. But in reality the “gods” envied humans because we were originally created to be able to navigate the spiritual and the physical realms simultaneously. We are the bridge, the portal between the dimensional realms, the physical and spiritual planes of existence. Through us, I’m specifically talking to melanated people, we can anchor in these new energies. The People of the Sun aka The Sun Kissed Skin aka melanated people are the protectors of this Earth and have the genetics to anchor in the new energy.

*Please take note that all of us have different levels of melanin in our bodies ranging from 100% to 0% and the color of your skin reflects that. So, if you have any melanin in your body you can assist in the anchoring of these high vibrational energies.
Dictionary.com – What is Melanated skin? A dark brown coloring found in the body, especially in the skin and hair. Produced by special skin cells that are sensitive to sunlight, melanin protects the body by absorbing ultraviolet radiation from the sun.

The new energy I speak of is on the higher scale of the electromagnetic spectrum and this scale has radio waves/red as low frequency energy and ultraviolent waves/purple as high frequency waves. The EMF scale also reflects how our chakras are arranged regarding a low frequency/red/root chakra to a high frequency/purple/crown chakra. These higher levels of radiation that are deemed as unhealthy and problematic by non-melanated people is only that way towards them. Our genetic nature, our melanin is activated and energized by the sun and cosmic radiation (higher vibrational energy). We are the righteous, those who can survive under the frequencies on the right side of the EMF Spectrum.

One of the reasons this shift is occurring is because, malevolent beings enslaved this earth and has been able to entrap us and stagnant our spiritual growth by creating an electric, negative ion barrier around earth (electric is the masculine aspect of energy, magnetic is the feminine aspect of energy). This barrier would reflect higher vibrational energy away and allow low vibrational energy through, which caused an imbalance in the energies on earth. This helped keep earth, as a whole, in a very low vibrational state and all things patriarchal/masculine/electric driven started to run rampant on earth because the divine feminine/magnetic was repressed. By doing this, these malevolent beings unhinged the Law of Duality on earth. Wars, famine, dis-ease, a narcissistic society and so on are all created within low vibrational states of being and these malevolent beings feed off the negative, low vibrational energy produced.

Electric barrier around Earth

The current state we are in right now has been talked about for ages in every culture that’s graced this planet because they knew balance would eventually restore itself. They knew the universe would correct the mess these malevolent beings caused. The electric barrier that surrounded earth has been dissolved and the shifting of these dimensional planes is allowing higher vibrational energy to penetrate through to Earth and with the return of the Divine Feminine, Earth’s spiritual imbalance is being restored back into balance. To restore the balance the old earth, the old ways, the current leaders and everything associated with those malevolent beings must be broken down and destroyed to be able to build a new earth with a solid foundation based on balanced universal laws. The establishment associated with those malevolent beings is fighting very hard to try to maintain their control, but out of this chaos will come order.

Based on everything I’ve listed above, remove your human emotions out of the way and think about all the injustice that has been done to melanated people all over this earth, the injustice done to women all over this earth, and the backwardness of society. Where teachers are paid scrapes but a guy that can shoot a basketball gets paid millions, a nurse (who have been predominantly women) is looked at as less than a doctor (who have been predominantly men) when they do all the dirty work, how people can’t afford food or a decent place to live, but politicians can raise millions to run for an office, or how the government can come up with trillions of dollars to fund bail outs to major companies, but there are people in this country trying to live off of minimum wage. Now, open your eye and your spirit and see how over the past decade or so melanated people have risen in positions and in power and women as a whole have risen in positions and in power. Melanated women have embraced their natural power, their natural hair, left religion behind and embraced their ancestral practices. Those steps were the Divine Feminine returning to Earth which helped awaken Mother Earth. This current state and this shift we are in right now has been in the works for a long time. Using our powers to perform grounding rituals, grounding spells, spending time in the sun barefoot and earthing and carrying grounding tools, stones, etc. are the practices we need to be doing right now to assist.

Sister Energies – “Sa Sekhem Sahu”

Ephesians 6:12, KJV: “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

Hamper Me

Hamper – to restrict the movement of by bonds or obstacles, to interfere with the operation of, to interfere with: to impede the natural activity of.

While people were being focused on the coronavirus and relief checks for people and businesses, Trump signed into effect the 5G Bill. This bill moves forward the creation and set up of infrastructure for the wonderful 5G towers. You know, the 5G that all the wireless companies keep shoving down our throats of being “the fastest wireless system ever”. Why didn’t Obama or Bush have to sign a bill with the implementation of 3G or 4G wireless infrastructures? Hmmmm…. maybe because 3G and 4G are way different types of wireless systems and aren’t going to be used in the same capacity as the new 5G wireless system. 

So, why are so many against the new 5G wireless system? And yes, there are several organizations, groups and people against the emergence of 5G even if you haven’t heard about these people or groups. The mainstream media isn’t in the business of keeping people informed so if you only get your news and information on what’s going on in the world through TV and mainstream news outlets than a course you haven’t heard of any resistance against 5G. It’s interesting that Trump has to meet with the Defense and Home Security departments to review the layout of the 5G infrastructure. Now, that should make you think “why does the president have to meet with the Defense and Home Security departments about the setup of a wireless system?” Let’s began to answer that question!

The fifth generation of wireless communication technologies (5G) is the strongest and highest frequency mobile broadband wave ever created for wireless. The electromagnetic frequency (EMF) is above 24GHz and reaching up to 72GHz levels of radiation. There has always been concerns about radiation exposure around cell phone towers and electrical towers. Now, that 5G has been approved the current regulations have not been changed to protect people from the increase in radiation they will be exposed to from 5G. Here’s another question, why would the government not review the regulations and adjust them to make sure the people of this nation are protected from the increase of radiation they will be exposed to? Let’s began to answer that question!

The EMF that will be emitted by these 5G towers will be used as a weapon and control tool. A weapon and a tool that has been in place and used in warfare since the days of the Nazi reign. We are talking about psychological warfare people and more importantly spiritual warfare. This type of warfare was created by the Nazi and perfected by the United States. The Uppers of this planet tell us all their dirty secrets all the time as a way to try to avoid the Law of Karma. There are countless movies out there that show how EMF waves, sound waves and radiation are used to enhance peoples psychic abilities, read people minds, know peoples thoughts, restrain a person, and alter a persons mental and physical state into compliance. Minority Report, X-Men, Captain America, Stranger Things, and so on. Here’s another question, why would the government want to use EMF waves against its own people? Well, that’s the ultimate question with the ultimate truth.

Short Story: This planet is an experimental planet but one thing this planet was not meant to be is a prison planet, which is what it is right now. This planet was taking over by fear mongering beings and they can only survive from the energy produced from fear, which comes from a low vibration state of living. The reign of these beings is coming to an end so they are doing everything they can to try to maintain their control over the planet. The entrance of the Divine Feminine, the feminine aspect of our world that was removed from society to cause imbalance and drive the patriarchal/male dominance society we are currently in, has returned and assisting the awakening of people to the fact that they are being doped and deceived by the Uppers (Cabal, Illuminati, etc.) who work directly with these fear mongering beings. The return of the Divine Feminine to this planet is also helping the Earth raise its vibration and combat all the viruses and artificial intelligence (AI) that have been implanted in the Earth’s grid lines and atmosphere to keep the Earth and us hampered down and ineffective against their attacks on us physically, mentally and spiritually.

The ultimate answer is that the EMF radiation from these 5G towers will be used to hamper us down. Smother us and restrict us from awakening into who we truly are, which are spiritual beings in a matter body that has free will and is soverign. The EMF waves will alter us physically and decrease our auric fields. To visualize this decrease of our auric fields, it will be like two different sizes of ocean wave ripples colliding into each other and the larger wave ripple will overcome the smaller ripple making the smaller one no longer have any force. Basically, we will be compacted and bombarded with EMF waves to the point that our bodies will submit and not be able to rise spiritually. We will be reduced and stuck in our matter bodies and our matter bodies will react to the EMF waves with a vast of symptoms that many won’t see these symptoms as anything significant. They will think they are getting nausea from food they ate or headaches from a “stressful day”. By keeping us in a lower state of being, the fear mongering beings will be able to feed off our energy more easily. At this current time, they have many in a constant state of fear with this virus, so these beings are getting fat per se off of the worlds fear energy right now.

Now there’s nothing you can do to prevent 5G from happening, but you can prepare and protect yourself within it. Orgonite tools, orgone pyramids in your home and around your property, wearing orgonite tools or orgone jewelry, performing auric clearing meditations, listening to high vibrational or relaxing music on the regular, eating as healthy as you can, increase your immune boosting vitamins, and staying out of the mindset of fear and engaging in low vibrational activities; such as reading all the fear mongering in the news and on social media. Stay informed and don’t be afraid to venture into alternative news outlets to truly stay informed.

Power in the Blood

As I would hope most know there is an alien AI virus embedded into the shield surrounding earth. It helps to cut us off to source when we incarnate in the earth realm and start our souls reprogramming with implants. The vaccines they force us to get as babies and children is the continuation of these reprogramming implants. My perspective is that during the formation of a baby in the womb, the soul for that baby isn’t transferred into the baby until the sac is busted. Until that moment the mother is a bridge between the baby’s soul and the baby’s physical body. Once the sac is broken the soul portals to the body to remain and during that transfer the soul travels through the Earth shield picking up implants.

When I was born I had a seizure right after coming out of the womb and the doctors didn’t know why. They assumed maybe my mom had a STD and I got it coming through the birth canal. Later on at 2 yrs old I developed an anti-inflammatory disease that caused my joints and capillaries to leak; which caused me to form puddles of blood under my skin that looked like purple bruises. I had many flare ups during this weird rare disease that miraculously went away on its own when I was 11 yrs old. After researching the disease as an adult, I learned that an actual cause isn’t known. They believe a virus or an environmental factor causes the body to start attacking these areas of the body.

My blood is different and “special” as my mother has been telling me since I was little. She could not explain to me why she thinks this or why she had to constantly remind me of it but I was always reminded when weird episodes would happen. Obviously, through her not remembering her true self, she did remember this tiny piece of info for me. I’ve never heard her express this info with any of my siblings. For example, I would always trigger false positives on blood test for viruses and bacteria. One day I got a positive for Syphilis and I was ready to kill someone, but the doctor ran a secondary test and it came back negative. Tuberculosis test I get a raise bump triggering a positive but when you run a different blood test it comes back negative. I carry a protein in my blood that triggers these tests. My last year in college I had to leave school for 2 weeks because I developed these tiny red bumps all over my face and body. The doctors didn’t know what caused it, but said it could be from stress since there was no logical cause for this skin flare up, so they grouped it under Rosea. Sounds oddly familiar to the anti-inflammatory disease having no known cause.

I’ve always known I was different and not of earth since I was a little child. I’ve always believed that my soul was too energetic for my baby self and that’s why I had a seizure at birth. I know that there are levels to every experience and I still believe it as true, as well as the implants that they embedded in my soul during incarnation and vaccines have been in constant battle with my genes. Due to being an Indigo of the 6th dimension, I was born with my 6th chakra/3rd Eye open and those implants weren’t able to cut me off from source. Then to add to that my bloodline/genetics being Anunnaki, these implants were having a hard time keeping my vibrations down and my abilities asleep.

I share this information as an acknowledgment to my ancestors and myself, to the Kryst who walked this Earth and the Kryst consciousness that resides in my higher heart which I am named after. Thank you for sustaining me thus far and continuing to be with me on this journey on Earth during these miraculous times.

Don’t Be Afraid of the Dark

Energy frequencies can be in the form of light or sound. Light and sound are frequencies of energy at different wavelengths and forms that carry codes. These energy frequencies then activate codes/sequences within our DNA that resonate with those particular energy frequencies. Higher frequencies activate and/or rebuild DNA codes that bring forth a higher consciousness, higher matter and assist in connecting all the codes back to their original state. Higher frequencies assist us with raising our awareness so our higher self can lower into our consciousness and help us to connect the puzzle pieces of ourselves. The highjacked magnetic field (an energy barrier) around earth blocks or destroys pure light frequencies (codes) that are freely being emitted by the sun and forever present in our universe. To keep humanity controllable and disconnected from each other and Creator Source, the barrier is used to transmit virus codes that interrupt and disburse our original higher dimensional DNA light codes during our descent into physical matter (birth). The deactivation of these higher dimensional codes destroys our link to the Creator Source. This then creates a God Complex within each person because our DNA/cellular memory remembers bits and pieces of the connection to Creator Source which is the universal consciousness aka the Bigger Picture. This creates a longing for “God”, a higher being, someone or something outside of ourselves. Due to this disconnection, we fail to remember that the higher being we’re searching for exist inside ourselves but we’re looking outside ourselves for it. To be able to get the connection back to Source, we have to go within to clear out the damaging factors (stress, fear, & trauma) the transmitted viruses programed into our energy fields, our consciousness and ourphysical bodies. To assist us with clearing the stress, fear and trauma in ourselves, we must go through darkness and expose the ugliness we try to hide from the world and more importantly from ourselves. The sun is always emitting light codes to help us genetically remember who we are, but those light rays/codes will never absorb and function properly if we are blocked with those virus programs. Those virus programs weigh us down and makes us stuck in this 3D realm (earthly problems). A lot of earthly natural cycles show us what we need to do to become a whole light being in a human body.

Sleep – we are in light (living during the day), then we go into darkness (sleep/death where we experience the “dream world”) to be awakened anew in light again. Rested and ready to take on another day. In the “dream world” is where your mind faces and processes fears and stressors from the day.

Rain – the day starts sunny and bright then the dark clouds form and darken the day. Rain occurs sometimes with thunder and lightning then the storm clears, and the sun shines again. 

Day/Night  in both day and night, we have guides to assist us on our journey through light and dark. The day has the sun and night has the moon. Even in darkness, we are not left alone to fumble through the process, the moon/light is still available for our guidance.

The Magical Pills


Do I continue to be numbed down and have no headaches or migraines or do I ask for a different med and start having the worse side effects or just stop the meds all together and risk getting the headaches and migraines again??? Oh how life sucks sometimes and oh how the pharmaceutical industry works its magic to keep us dumb and numb to the real causes of our dis-ease. I literally have mind numbing pain and yes the medication is working but it also has numbed my senses, slowed my thought processes, has caused tingling in my face and lips that makes me feel like I want to wipe my face off at times. I’ve tried the “holistic” approach and it wasn’t working. I was getting massages, seeing the chiropractor, doing yoga, being mindful of my mental state and my stress triggers and responses and yet still the headaches and migraines would come.

I was hospitalized due to cluster headaches, which are migraines on one side of my face and body. It basically resembles a stroke. The neurologist I saw in the ER says it’s nerve related which is why I was prescribed this medication. After all the tests performed, no pinpoint cause on why these cluster headaches have gotten out of control and happening more often frustrates me.

So the question still lingers, to stay medicated or not? To continue to take the magical pills that calm the headaches and migraines but make me feel tingly all over the place or stick it out and hope for the best that I don’t have any long term side effects.

Well, I ended up answering my own question and stopped taking the pills. Unfortunately, I’ve gain the weight back that I was losing but no more tingles in my face. I occasionally still get migraines but it’s only around my menstruation time or if I’ve completely fell off on getting bi-weekly body alignments and massages.

See this is how those doctors get you. Put you on a drug to mask your ailment without addressing the real cause or dis-ease that is going on with your body and/or mind. Then scare you with the “what could happen” without reviewing with you the compete list of side effects and down play your symptoms of a side effect because it falls in the less than 5% margin.

Moral of the story is…..take your health and the knowledge you need to learn about your ailment or dis-ease into your own hands. Don’t heavily rely on doctors and their modern medicine to cure you.

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

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I had a very intriguing session yesterday with my therapist. While discussing my digestion of the recent discovery of my ex-husband being a narcissistic sociopath, we decided to dive deeper into my relationships with “me focused” people.

This deep dive project made me tell my therapist about some memories that arose when a lot of different events, including the past 4 years of my life with my ex-husband started to put a lot of scattered puzzle pieces of my life together. For example, one key puzzle piece was that my dad was abusive and based on the things my mom has told me about things he did to her while married he is definitely a narcissist and my granddad was more than likely a narcissistic sociopath based on the family stories I’ve heard about him; which are 10 times worse than what my dad was doing to my mom. So there’s definitely a generational curse going on on my dad side with this mental disease. One of the memories that arose was one of my granddad when I was in high school around the time when he was falling ill with lung cancer. My dad was in town and left me and my sister at my granddad’s for some quality time. I was at his apartment trying to heat up some food in his microwave, but he had an older microwave and I didn’t know how to work it. I had to ask him more than once how to use it because he was being short with his answers like he was annoyed with me. Maybe, this was my third time asking him how to set the minutes and before I could finish getting my ask out he pushed me hard out of the way, started yelling at me and calling me names. My therapist asked me do I remember what I did and I replied that during that time in my life whenever anyone would yell at me it would remind me of hearing my parents arguing and I would freeze and I would block everything out. So in that moment I froze, blocked him out and walked away.

Then I continued to tell my therapist that prior to my family moving to another state I went to stay with my granddad for a little bit when I was 4 while my mom was getting everything in place with her new job and the house. I don’t remember staying with him, but this is what I was told and based on one story my mom would tell. When she went to go get me from him after this extended stay, she passed this dirty little girl riding on a big wheel bike and she thinks “ahh she’s a really cute girl somebody should wash her up, do her hair and be out here watching her.” When she gets to my granddad’s apartment she asks for me and he replies, she’s outside riding her bike you probably passed her. My mom then immediately turns from him, goes and picks up that cute, dirty little girl she passed not knowing it was me and leaves without grabbing any of my things. I then relay to my therapist that I am concerned, now knowing what my granddad may have been, what I may have been exposed to while living with him during that period of time. My therapist tells me if the body has no response to the thought of him then maybe, just maybe I don’t have anything to worry about but as these memories arise in due time will tell.

So I’m assuming to pull my focus from feeling helpless in this situation, my therapist asked me to think of a friend that I had or have that wasn’t “me focused” and to be honest I had to really search through my memories to find a person that wasn’t. Majority of all the people in my life that I befriended or more so befriended me were
“me focused”. A lot of friends that had befriended me was for their sole purpose only. For example, I’m very smart and in high school and college a lot of people would befriend me to help them with their assignments or get notes for class or to try to cheat off of. Once they realized that I wasn’t going to allow them to cheat off of me or I was going to make them put in work when we had group assignments those people would eventually fall to the waste side. But a course the narcissists, the tricksters, the manipulators knew just how to pull on the heart strings or spin their web to make me believe they were really my friend while they used me.

After thinking for a minute or two, I finally thought of a person that wasn’t anything like any of these “me focused” friends. My therapist then asked me to list what was different about this person and the main things that came to mind was this person was mellow, focused on their children and wasn’t visually self-conscious about their image. Then my therapist stated “so you said this person was mellow like their vibrations were low, mellow toned”, then asked me how did this make me feel? I replied it made me feel uncomfortable and like in typical therapist fashion she asked “why” and I replied, because I’m not used to mellow, I’m use to people who are high wired, high vibration and at the same time we both say “chaotic”. Then another puzzle piece fell into place, maybe I’m gravitating towards people who are “me focused”, high vibratory because that’s familiar. I grew up in a household that was “me focused” and chaotic. My entire life has been nothing but chaos, whenever there is a moment of peace or mellowness I feel uncomfortable and become anxious. That’s why I’ve always been a busy body, constantly active which leads to being burnt out and stressed out on the regular.  But also kept me from having to think or wallow in the pain that was my life.

I do want to know what’s “wrong”with me and what I need to do to fix the deep dark parts of me to make myself whole, especially after going through a traumatic marriage and separation. At first when I learned that I’m partly to blame for some of these hardwired poor decisions it saddened me and made me think that I’m way more screwed up than I originally thought. No wonder I attract crap in my life. But after a day of processing, I became inspired and felt better knowing this information.

So Mirror, Mirror on the Wall …. no I’m not to blame for what is attracted to me and no I’m not to blame for what I’m attracted to, but I am responsible for my attractions after I’m made aware to these factors that have made me hardwired to this dysfunction. Time to choose wisely. Time to change the woman in the mirror!