Eggs, Candy, and Bunnies: The Great Christian Holiday

When I first started to question Christianity 7 yrs ago, Easter along with Christmas was dissected. Learning that paganism was mixed with Christianity was a shock to me. I started thinking my whole life was a lie and it was! I started changing how I was going to “celebrate” Easter so I wouldn’t go to hell for still going along with the tradition because I had kids’ dreams I didn’t want to crush. 

But I was looking at it all backwards, they mixed Christianity with paganism to give it some substance, some truth. I actually hate using the word pagan or paganism because these cultures and beliefs were founded in more spirituality then Christianity was. Believing in the mystical, the unseen, the earth, the stars, etc. isn’t paganism, it’s truthful, honest and raw spirituality. 

I come from a long line of ministers on both sides of my parents’ family. My mom’s mom, my grandmother was a minister and we would talk a lot but never about anything spiritual. Regardless, when I found out about Easter and Christmas I asked my mom if grandma knew about this because she had to of none. My mother replied yes but she wanted us to still enjoy the perks of those holidays. A part of me was upset with that response but I knew where my grandmother was coming from. Also I wasn’t upset at my mom for knowing and faking through the belief system with us when we were kids because I didn’t hold her obviously to standard of my grandmother the minister. 

But now knowing the difference between spirituality and religion I don’t care for this subject anymore but I’m writing about it because of something I saw on Facebook. A lot of christians share and like posts like the photo above and still go full throttle for Christianity. You know it’s a lie, it’s con mans job, an impersonator religion but they’re still fully committed to giving this religion 100% of themselves, their money, their time. It puzzles me and I watch this unfold on Facebook every year around Easter and Christmas with posts about how these pagan holidays are the complete foundation for Christianity’s main events. But these christians still attend their daily music practices, coordinate their plays, buy their Sunday best and role play along. Just puzzling!

Introduction to the Complacent Journey

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The word complacency means pleased with oneself and I truly feel that this fits where I am in my life. That’s why I choose it to define my blog personality. I’m not perfect and neither is my life but I’m starting to be okay with the idea of stumbling around and learning as I go. Picking up the pieces of my missteps and mishaps along the way and waking up with one main goal in mind each day; which is to live in a state of mindfulness.

With that said, I’m on a journey of self-love after experiencing a spiritual awakening after a very traumatic event in my life a few months ago. How did I know it was a “spiritual awakening”? Well, for once in my life something terrible happened to me and I wasn’t mad or sad about it. I really couldn’t place a title to my feelings to the range of events that I was going through at that time other than I felt numb. Nothing felt right and normally I drive into the bible and into praying but I didn’t and I didn’t want to. It wasn’t out of anger towards God like I would do sometimes because like I said I wasn’t mad. I just had no desire to take that normal route, didn’t see the point in it. I knew that it wouldn’t fix how I was feeling. Plus, I’ve had bad experiences and bad events in my life before and I always turned to religion. It feels odd to say this but in that numbness it was like my mind was opened to a portal of endless life questions and one key question that was on constant repeat was “why keep doing the same ol’ things expecting different results” and my religion fell into that re-evaluation. Once that door was finally ripped off the hinges and I no longer had any inhibitions to not look beyond religion for the answers to “life”, that’s when the spiritual awakening occurred and my true healing began.

As I try to navigate through this new outlook and state of mind on life that I have, I will document my journey and be as honest and as truthful as possible about my experiences. By documenting them in this manner I’m hoping it will also help in my healing process from all my past pains and be helpful for other inquiring minds that want to do the same as I and step off of the societal merry-go-round.

“Strange is normal and whoever tells you otherwise should check their sanity.” The Complacent Mind