The below drawing is my very first “journal” entry I made when I started writing down my thoughts and documenting my visions, dreams and meditations. I don’t know why I drew it, it was just something that came through while I was doodling trying to figure out what to start the notebook off with. After I was done drawing it made complete sense that it represented me at that moment.
Drawing Analysis: I was thinking Jupiter but drew Saturn and this mix up happens all the time with me regarding these planets. Later I would learn about the significance of both planets in relation to myself and their interactions with each other. Jupiter being the benevolent planet and Saturn being the malevolent planet. Polarities, Enki and Enlil.
Moon and sun being polarities and very prominent in my being. I’m a solar creature but also a moon child. I gain my power and stability from both the sun and the moon. I absorb the sun for my physical nutrients and the moon for my spiritual nutrition. Moon being feminine and the sun being masculine, magnetic and electric selves represented.
The star is my 3rd eye and I drew both physical eyes and 3rd eye wide open which they’ve always been.
My mind (upper self) on the stars, the universe, the heavenly bodies. My mouth (lower self) in paradise, exploring nature and speaking with the natural orders.
Right when you think you know something the universe says, nope think again. This moment I’m about to talk about falls into my constant reminder to myself that “there’s levels to this”. Last night was a new moon, so I wrote out a list of things I would like to work on or come to be during this new moon cycle. For once my list was simple and didn’t have any of the normal things I listed before. For example, I would list financial stability, making new friends or finding my soul tribe. But this time I listed to learn more about myself my true nature, go inner more, and bring balance to my family and myself. After I made this list I felt I should do a new moon oracle deck reading and the urge was to specifically ask my 9D self some questions. The questions that came to mind were “what do I need to know, what do you need me to know”? The cards pulled and the messages with each was not what I expected but once I settled my mind and removed my own subjective thoughts, a greater understanding and communication from my 9D self came through. The overall message was: “That I need to dive deeper. I can’t stop where I’m at in my progress, I have to pull back the layers of myself like a rose and find the core of myself, the deepest meaning of myself. What is at the core of a rose?
So, after compiling that message into something comprehensible I started doing what I always do after an insightful reading, I start googling terms from the message to see where it leads. First I searched the phrase “core of a rose” and came across images of the main center parts of flowers. While seeing these pictures over and over, the number 3 stood out to me. So I changed up the wording of the search to the “center of a rose”, then all these images of the center of the rose popped up and in these pictures I saw a galaxy within the rose. Tiny stars surrounded by cosmic web filaments. I was stunned and in awe and took a moment to admire the beauty.
Then the thought of the Amorea Flame that is in our activated higher heart-thymus chakra and the Threefold Founder Flames came to mind. The only place that talks about these subjects is Energetic Synthesis. So, I moseyed on over to that site but all the links I had already had open in my phone were not to the ES Ascension Glossary where I can read about the Amorea Flame. So, I had to go through the main page to get to the Ascension Glossary and normally when I have to do this it opens to the introduction page of the glossary. But last night it opened to a page I’ve never seen before. The Ascension Glossary opened to a page about the Ra Center and as I read the first paragraph I had to stop because I needed to rub my temples from the overwhelming explosion happening in my mind.
Back in 2017, I was shown a secret about the “golden orb” on a galactic ship. Then I was portaled to the south of Africa in a red dirt bush country to teach the people about the golden orb. While teaching a native, we were in secrecy behind a bush hiding the information I was sharing with him and keeping a watchful eye. After I awakened from that experience, I was on a mission to learn what this golden orb is because how was I supposed to teach people about it if I don’t even know what it is. In 2018, I finally came across some information that started to put the pieces of this mystery together for me but instead of creating a single level picture, it started to create a multi-leveled picture. I eventually learned that the golden orb/golden energy means different things depending on the perspective, dimension or density. Golden energy can be associated with the 8th Chakra, the flame in your higher heart chakra, the energy in your solar plexus area and the gold flame (14th chakra) apart of the Threefold Founder Flames aka God Heads relating to the 13th, 14th and 15th chakras.
Here’s my take on what I read last night, which I know I will have to read a few more times and research certain subjects more to be able to truly grasp it all. So, after reading about the Ra Center and its association with those areas, I had an epiphany. All that I learned about the golden orb/golden energy all intertwined and up to that moment I did not see the connection. The golden orb/golden energy is in 4 areas of the body and each golden energy that I’ve discovered so far all match up to those 4 areas. Each golden energy area needs to be discovered separately so you can work on the area, purge the area and heal the area before they can connect and help to pull your 4 bodies (ego, soul, oversoul and avatar) into balance. At the same time, the merging of your male aspects (electric, negative, father, rod) and female aspects (magnetic, positive, mother, arc) will also begin to merge and bring you into balance. And all of this merging and balancing of the 4 bodies and the male and female aspects will be the beginning of all your multi-dimensional selves merging as well.
Space is a play on our senses and perception. The shortest distance between two objects is a straight line, a direct path. The area between those 2 objects is called space. From what we’ve been taught in school and generally in society is that space is an empty open area, nothing special about it at all. Air fills the open area between objects on land and in lakes and oceans water fills in the open area between objects. Flat out, we were taught wrong! Not per se on purpose but due to no one ever wondering what the space between us really is. Assumptions were made, majority of the population agreed to them and it became a fact that space is open area. But now scientist have discovered that there is something that makes up the space between us. To better understand this concept of what space truly is we have to look at it in the perspective of “as above so below, as within so without”.
As above so below, as within so without is a very simple way of understanding how we work as humans within this universe. We as humans are a smaller version of the universe. I will not dive into this concept right now, but I will use the general overlay to explain my thoughts on the space between us. The human body is made up of cells and when those cells are differentiated, they create our organs. Those organs then operate off of the nervous system to perform their duties voluntary and involuntary. With each organ, tissue and cell coming together and working in complete harmony, they create a functioning human body. Now, what is holding all these cells, tissues, and organs in place in the body? Why aren’t they moving all freely around in us? Well, the organs in our bodies are held together by a web of connective tissues, which keeps our organs from moving out of place. Cells forming tissues are held together by cell to cell adhesion called gap junctions, which are proteins that bond the cells together. This allows fluidity to occur and the perception of solidarity. The human body doesn’t have space or open areas in it, ever crevice is filled with some type of fluid, gas or connective tissues. Even when we think there’s space somewhere in the body, for example our intestines, it is occupied with gas.
The universe is just like the structuring of the human body, regarding there are no open areas. Scientist called the area outside and surrounding Earth outer space because that’s what their senses perceived the areas as. Through their own eyes and telescopes, they saw long distances of open space between stars, planets and galaxies and assumed that the space was empty. But that perception has changed with the use of telescopes that use higher frequencies of the electromagnetic spectrum that fall outside of the visible light spectrum range.
Visible light is a very, very tiny section on the electromagnetic spectrum, so any frequency above the color purple and below the color red we cannot see with our 2 physical eyes. When scientist started using frequencies outside of the visible light spectrum range, they started to be able to see the universe in a whole new way. Dark areas of space actual had stars, black holes became visible and the open areas between objects are actually connected by a web of material they call “dark matter”. Since scientists don’t know how it works, what its made of or really anything about it they named it dark matter. Not only is dark matter invisible to our senses, it doesn’t operate like any other material known. Objects move freely through it like its not even there and it doesn’t reflect but absorbs energy like a black hole. Scientist via the CERN project began performing experiments on dark matter and recently discovered that within dark matter is dark energy aka the “God Particle”. These scientist are correlating dark energy to the beginning of All and I agree. Their search for answers is bringing them closer to understanding truth and they haven’t even realized it yet.
While studying the mystical kabbalah a particular lesson stood out to me, the lesson on the decision of Creator Source to start creating and experiencing. Creator Source couldn’t just create from itself to experience because then it would have say so in everything created under it. It would know every move, thought and direction beforehand because that’s what Creator Source is, nothing and everything…..the see all, know all, is all. So, to truly be able to experience, Creator source had to create separately from itself, hence the creation of the void. And how do we know this? Through symbolism and the symbol that holds this magnificent truth (drum roll)…..the Target sign, which is the dot within 2 circles. The information I received during an alpha wave deep thought session explains the symbol as such; the outer circle being Creator Source, the inner circle being the space between Creator Source and the dot represents the void. The space between Creator Source and the void; which all creation was created from, is dark matter the unseen web that connects all.
The space between me and an object or person or animal is a false perception to make us seem separate from each other. Dark matter connects us metaphysically but separates us perspectively. The unseen web of dark matter is our connection to each other, to all things and to the Creator Source.
After receiving several pushes and confirmations, I’m finally acknowledging that I’m being led to start sharing my personal experiences while meditating, in dream states, astral travels, etc. to provide personal accounts of being a spiritual being and striving to be in tune with your true nature. The experiences I share are just that, my experiences and shouldn’t be used as a comparison tool for yourself or others to judge and evaluate your own personal experiences and encounters. We are all of source and we are purposely living lives as individuals to develop our own perspective and point of view regarding life as a spiritual being living a human existence. My goal is to provide a perspective of an individual learning about her multi-dimensional self, her lineage and her purpose while here on Earth.
Dear Diary – 11/25/17 Meditation, Listened to Open Balance Chakras, Heal and Sleep – Jason Stephenson YouTube Video
This meditation session I decide to do laying in my bed. I follow the spoken mediation and begin aligning my chakras and could visualize the colors, but unlike last time I performed this mediation the swirls and spinning of the chakra colors are dancers and ice skaters in sparkly dresses.
• Flamingo dancer – red – root. • Flamingo dancer – orange – sacral. • Ice skater – yellow – solar. • Ice skater – dark green – heart. • Ice skater – Ice blue – throat. • Dancer w/ long velvet sparkly cape – indigo – 3rd eye. Crown – A volcano inside a ground skull opens and purple lava fills the skull then the skull closes. Then all the chakras combine into a thick smoke of the colors blending from red all the way up to purple. Then white light sparking like a 4th of July sparkler starts encasing me and filling my veins with this electric white light. Then the image of the meditating person with each colored chakra in a sitting position appears as myself and the white light completely surrounds the image.
While laying down on my bed, the bed becomes whiteness and I can see myself laying there from outside of myself watching in third person. The whiteness becomes snow and I’m completely covered in it and I begin to emerge up and through the snow. An all-white being emerges from my body and sits up. In the distance I see this being with long white blond hair, light green cat/reptilian eyes, a scrunched/rippled nose bridge and middle of forehead/3rd eye area like a cat’s face. It has on a white attire with broad, fanned out shoulder pads and he reminds me of the blond hair warrior elf from Lord of the Rings (it gives off a male vibe). The being has a staff, then no staff as he walks closer to me. I stand up and start wiping the snow off of me and the being signals that he wants to show me something. So, we started walking in the snow and at that time the only thing I could focus on was my feet and the snow, the area was so hazy and bright that my eyes didn’t want to adjust. The being was a very slow walker, like he was gliding with his strides. As my eyes started to adjust, I could see the being doing the “Vanna White” motions showing me the scenery. I see tall pine trees, mountains and a blue sky with white clouds. The sky is so blue and the air is so crisp, pure and smells like winter. Then we stop on the edge of a rock cliff and he does his Vanna White motion for me to look at a lake in the far-off distance. The scenario and lake reminded me of Lake Tahoe with the water being a deep dark blue surrounded by a shore of pine trees, rocks and snow-covered mountains. As the being turns to start walking me back, I forced myself to speak and ask, “who should I ask for guidance?” At that moment shadowy images with golden light emanating from behind them appeared in my mind. The Sphinx emerged from the shadowy image with Sekhmet behind the Sphinx. I tried to ask another question and was taken immediately out of meditative state.
I was in such awe that I just laid there on my bed in silence. Eventually I snapped back into this 3D realm, found my notebook and began writing and drawing so I could remember the experience, because I have a tendency to forget once I’m back in 3D. From doing searches on the internet, I concluded that the being is Lyran. The only possible reason I could think of as the reason for this encounter is because I’ve been asking for guidance and to know where I truly come from. I was answered and shown a place that felt very familiar and I was at peace there. I don’t know if this place was Vega or a different planet in the constellation of Lyra before it was destroyed or a different place all together. But I did give thanks to my guides for answering me and showing me proof that I’m not crazy for knowing that my soul isn’t of Earth.