Shadow Work is Subconscious Work

A person bumps into you and you have hot coffee in your hands and it spills all over you and it burns bad. Reacting to the pain of the burn is healthy. Reacting to the anger you have towards the person who caused this to happen to you, because it caused physical pain is healthy. Allowing healthy responses to this incident is a must! Acting like no physical pain occurred and you are not angry is unhealthy. People need to understand that allowing an emotional response to occur is healthy. Eventually, being able to break the incident down to the core emotions so you can feel them, react to them, and forgive yourself for reacting to them is a key factor in doing Shadow Work, which I call Subconscious Work. Forgiveness also includes the person that caused you harm or pain, but only if they acknowledge what they’ve done. Because forgiveness is for your healing not theirs. Subconscious work is for the real spiritual people, not the love and light folks, so if they don’t apologize or acknowledge their fault, f*** them and keep it moving.

I included forgiving yourself, because no matter how spiritually adept someone becomes, we will still be human at the end of the day. And being a human being includes being emotional and ignoring our emotions is harmful and unhealthy. It doesn’t help that society frowns upon emotional people, specifically women, and that’s why emotions and being emotional gets a bad rep. But as humans we are composed of 4 bodies, which are the spiritual body, mental body, emotional body, and the physical body. The saying “stand on your square” directly relates to the acknowledgment of these four bodies aka four points.

4 bodies: Spiritual, Mental, Emotional and Physical

I mentioned above the term core emotions which correlate to our core beliefs. People only have 5 emotions that we experience on a scale of extremes or as a combination of the core 5 emotions. Disney put out a great movie a few years back that explores human emotions and their complexity called Inside Out. I highly recommend watching this movie if you want to start Subconscious Work and fully understand core emotions and beliefs.

Unfortunately, because a lot of people including myself at one point, see 4 of our core emotions anger, fear, disgust, and sadness as negative emotions, but they’re not. They are absolutely needed and need to be expressed to be a whole and healthy human being. These emotions that are associated with being dark and negative are the key emotions you focus on in Subconscious/Shadow Work. These dark emotions have dark positives, which I see as positive aspects to that emotion when its acknowledged and transmuted. For example, fear can be transmuted into rage when a woman is attacked by an attacker while walking at night. She can use that fear turned rage to defend herself against her attacker. Another example, fear can be transmuted to strength when a mother see’s her child get trapped under a car and she lifts the car up off of her child so she can get them out.

To fully understand how the subconscious works, you must correlate it to how the body does voluntary and involuntary actions. Voluntary actions are conscious actions and involuntary actions are subconscious actions. So, for example, conscious breathing is voluntary breathing. You are purposely making you lungs inhale and exhale air. Subconscious breathing is involuntary breathing which is your normal moment to moment breathing that happens without any guidance or will of your own. Without involuntary actions of the body, we wouldn’t be alive because involuntary actions run our entire body. From breathing to blood pumping to digestion. All actions we don’t have to tell our bodies to do. So, guess what, if involuntary aka subconscious actions run our bodies then the subconscious mind runs our mental and emotional bodies. Need proof, here’s a perfect example, zoning out while driving a car to work. When, you get to work and don’t remember driving there at all. You don’t remember seeing the typical sites you see during the drive in or anything. It’s because your subconscious got you there and your subconscious always gets there but when you zone out and come back to consciousness you become aware of the subconscious actions.

Furthermore, the subconscious is the involuntary mental and emotional actions that drive our core emotions and beliefs. When we push “negative” or “dark” emotions and experiences “deep inside” so we don’t have to deal with the feelings that arise or even acknowledge them at all is unhealthy. When you push those emotions “deep inside” you’re pushing them into your subconscious. Which is where they turn into involuntary actions that attach to core emotions or core beliefs, which the subconscious runs them. So, now you have that one horrible moment that happened when you were 5 years old running and controlling your life when anything that feels like that experience or emotions happen. You’ve created a circular habitual response in your life that will continue till you deal with the emotions attached to that experience. Dealing with those emotions includes revisiting that event in your mind or even the place, allowing the emotions to rise, feeling those emotions play out, releasing the emotions, then forgiving yourself for allowing yourself to feel because “You’re human and you’re allowed.”

Yemaya

The morning of August 19, 2020, 3 days after my birthday, I was visited in my dreams by a deity/orisha. Below is what happened in my dream, written down in my phone as soon as I woke up so I wouldn’t forget anything.

I was in a dark place with water beneath my feet. I could hear the water and see it as if I was seeing clearly in the dark. Like when your eyes adapt to a dark room. Suddenly appears a woman over the water and I look up at her and see the crescent moon above her head and stars in the sky. She her arms out stretches to me in a position of embrace and waiting for me to come into her arms for a hug. Her face is covered by a veil of jewels, she has a white blank expression mask over her face, she’s draped in a bluish cale dress that is puffy-like and she has horns on her head like a large cattle with pearls hanging from them.

She says to me “come child” and I go to her and she hugs me, embraces me and comforts me and all feels better. Like when you hug your mom and she absorbs all your pain from you because that what mothers do. She tells me to tell her about me, so I told her about myself; which was all the pain I’ve occurred over the years. Being mad fun of as a kid and having no friends because I was different and in-tune. I tell her about the abuse I endured at the hands of my ex-husband and I burst out crying. Then, I tell her about how my spiritual awakening happened after my divorce.

Then we abruptly we was sitting at a table eating while telling her these things about me. When at the table she was a regular woman. She looked like black Latino with long curly hair and fair skin.

She tells me that she’s comes to guide me. At the table there is a man and a woman who aren’t speaking. I ask her why the 2 other people are with her and she says they are support.

Now we’re I’m sitting on a couch and she’s on the floor sitting in front me. She then asks me how was my journey with Christianity and I replied harshly with “none existent, I don’t follow that crap”. She replies, we don’t care if people do. I then reply, I don’t because I hate being lied to and religion is one of the biggest lies ever. Plus, the reason for what’s really wrong on this earth.

Then she was going to do a reading for me. We were clearing off the couch, I started the recorder on my phone so I could record the session. Then she sat back on the floor then I was out of the dream.

I’ve never been drawn to any of the African deities or Orishas. It’s always been Egyptian and Sumerian deities that have come to me. But I was told during an akashic reading that one of my karmas is finding my earthly and galactic ancestral lineage. My DNA ancestry has my African lineage in Nigeria, Cameroon, South Africa, Sudan, Ethiopia and so on. Those cultures are Yoruba, Bantu, Kushites, Khoisan, Zulu, Khmer and Fulani.

So it’s about time I started my bonding with these ancestors and their deities. This experience helped me learn that Yemaya is my Ori and is protecting my head. I thank, welcome and honor her and appreciate her protection and guidance.

My personal drawing of how Yemaya appeared to me in my dream
Yemaya dress looked just like this
Yemaya had this same mask on
Yemaya appeared to me in this same position with arms outstretched, veil over her face, over water and the crescent moon and stars above her head

Epiphany

My spiritual journey has been my higher self, multiple other selves, ancestors or guides giving me the answer before I even know the question or the ending before I know the beginning. They knew how my mind worked and taught me how I learn best before I even knew how I truly needed to learn.

They know I have an inner drive for understanding and learning the whys to life. So every time they give me an answer or an ending, it sends me on a quest for the question to the answer or the beginning to that ending. What I’ve found is there are several pathways and perspectives to an answer and several different forks in the road on a path back to the beginning. Either way, the journey along those paths and the quests to understand is what life is all about.

Birthing Pains

We are going through a birthing. A new Earth is emerging from an old, broken, run down and no longer able to function properly Earth. This is the transitioning of 5D from 3D that so many speak about. The misconception is that it’s an actual new planet earth or a physical new heaven, because it’s not. It’s a higher level of vibrations, a higher view to see the whole picture, which means a higher perspective is dawning. One where the Universal Law of One is honored. One where the respect of duality is honored. One where the roles of humans, animals, plants, dimensional beings, and all things metaphysical are honored and respected. The pain, discontent, and emotional rollercoaster we are all on right now is necessary and a part of the birthing process just like when a woman gives birth. The pain, discontent and emotional rollercoaster she feels isn’t caused by the baby….. it’s caused by the birthing process and that part of the process can’t be skipped.

Old 3D earth has to go through birthing aka the 4D portal to rise up to the new 5D earth

What we should be doing right now is grounding ourselves and helping Mother Earth ground in this new level of energy. Captured in many books written within oppressive societies, humans are made to feel less than and puny among the “gods”. But in reality the “gods” envied humans because we were originally created to be able to navigate the spiritual and the physical realms simultaneously. We are the bridge, the portal between the dimensional realms, the physical and spiritual planes of existence. Through us, I’m specifically talking to melanated people, we can anchor in these new energies. The People of the Sun aka The Sun Kissed Skin aka melanated people are the protectors of this Earth and have the genetics to anchor in the new energy.

*Please take note that all of us have different levels of melanin in our bodies ranging from 100% to 0% and the color of your skin reflects that. So, if you have any melanin in your body you can assist in the anchoring of these high vibrational energies.
Dictionary.com – What is Melanated skin? A dark brown coloring found in the body, especially in the skin and hair. Produced by special skin cells that are sensitive to sunlight, melanin protects the body by absorbing ultraviolet radiation from the sun.

The new energy I speak of is on the higher scale of the electromagnetic spectrum and this scale has radio waves/red as low frequency energy and ultraviolent waves/purple as high frequency waves. The EMF scale also reflects how our chakras are arranged regarding a low frequency/red/root chakra to a high frequency/purple/crown chakra. These higher levels of radiation that are deemed as unhealthy and problematic by non-melanated people is only that way towards them. Our genetic nature, our melanin is activated and energized by the sun and cosmic radiation (higher vibrational energy). We are the righteous, those who can survive under the frequencies on the right side of the EMF Spectrum.

One of the reasons this shift is occurring is because, malevolent beings enslaved this earth and has been able to entrap us and stagnant our spiritual growth by creating an electric, negative ion barrier around earth (electric is the masculine aspect of energy, magnetic is the feminine aspect of energy). This barrier would reflect higher vibrational energy away and allow low vibrational energy through, which caused an imbalance in the energies on earth. This helped keep earth, as a whole, in a very low vibrational state and all things patriarchal/masculine/electric driven started to run rampant on earth because the divine feminine/magnetic was repressed. By doing this, these malevolent beings unhinged the Law of Duality on earth. Wars, famine, dis-ease, a narcissistic society and so on are all created within low vibrational states of being and these malevolent beings feed off the negative, low vibrational energy produced.

Electric barrier around Earth

The current state we are in right now has been talked about for ages in every culture that’s graced this planet because they knew balance would eventually restore itself. They knew the universe would correct the mess these malevolent beings caused. The electric barrier that surrounded earth has been dissolved and the shifting of these dimensional planes is allowing higher vibrational energy to penetrate through to Earth and with the return of the Divine Feminine, Earth’s spiritual imbalance is being restored back into balance. To restore the balance the old earth, the old ways, the current leaders and everything associated with those malevolent beings must be broken down and destroyed to be able to build a new earth with a solid foundation based on balanced universal laws. The establishment associated with those malevolent beings is fighting very hard to try to maintain their control, but out of this chaos will come order.

Based on everything I’ve listed above, remove your human emotions out of the way and think about all the injustice that has been done to melanated people all over this earth, the injustice done to women all over this earth, and the backwardness of society. Where teachers are paid scrapes but a guy that can shoot a basketball gets paid millions, a nurse (who have been predominantly women) is looked at as less than a doctor (who have been predominantly men) when they do all the dirty work, how people can’t afford food or a decent place to live, but politicians can raise millions to run for an office, or how the government can come up with trillions of dollars to fund bail outs to major companies, but there are people in this country trying to live off of minimum wage. Now, open your eye and your spirit and see how over the past decade or so melanated people have risen in positions and in power and women as a whole have risen in positions and in power. Melanated women have embraced their natural power, their natural hair, left religion behind and embraced their ancestral practices. Those steps were the Divine Feminine returning to Earth which helped awaken Mother Earth. This current state and this shift we are in right now has been in the works for a long time. Using our powers to perform grounding rituals, grounding spells, spending time in the sun barefoot and earthing and carrying grounding tools, stones, etc. are the practices we need to be doing right now to assist.

Sister Energies – “Sa Sekhem Sahu”

Ephesians 6:12, KJV: “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

Sister Energies

During a meditation last night, I was told by Sekhmet and Inanna to find their sisters. I’ve been trying to figure out how this information related to me. Being told by both to find their sisters, then pulling oracle cards as an added confirmation gave me the connection I needed. See, I’ve been pulling Work Your Light “Sisterhood of the Rose” oracle card for months now and I initially thought I was being pushed to start a “sisterhood” of like minded women in the 3D and that could be the case. But when it comes to spiritual matters there’s always levels of understanding. The level of sisterhood revealed to me last night has to do with my primordial self, my highest of highs self.

The Rose is the symbol for Venus due to its orbit pattern resembling a rose

To set the scene for this epiphany, I need to take you back to 2018. I was initiated by Sekhmet in Nov 2018 during a meditation and I was initially initiated as her daughter. I’ll write about that experience in a separate blog at a later time, because it was wild! Since that initiation I’ve been trying to understand the next course of action I’m supposed to take with Sekhmet. Then, 2 weeks ago I did a Sekhmet guided meditation and I was taken to the desert, to her temple within the Temple of Karnak. While in her presence I was told that I was her and she is me. We are the same energy, the same blood, we are sisters. A course I was puzzled by this and asked Sekhmet how am I a sister but was a daughter last year. Her reply was that I have graduated to sister because I’ve grown so much into my true self since then. After asking Sekhmet some more questions, she told me to have a ceremony at 2:22am the next night; which fell on May 7th the Flower Full Moon. I was directed to wear a gold jewel over my 3rd eye region, a red dress, the same oil I put in my spiritual bath, to burn the flowers from my spiritual bath and use the same crystals. The next night I woke up at 2:15am, got set up on my back porch in the cold of the night and followed through with the ceremony Sekhmet requested me to do. By embracing Sekhmet, I finally embraced the true me and now I am tasked with tying all of my lineage together.

Temple of Karnak
Pharaohs Temple

Last night during another Sekhmet guided meditation, I as Sekhmet attended a council meeting with the head Kemetian gods and goddesses. Present there was Osiris, Auset, Anubis, Maat, Horus, Thoth, Sebek and a monkey god. The meeting took place on a different plane within the Pharaohs Temple in Egypt. The room setting with myself and all the gods reminded me of the painting “Ancestors in Conference”. While at this meeting, Osiris states that the Anunnaki want to meet then the wall becomes the universe with the Milky Way ban in view. The universe connects with the fountain that is in the room and becomes a “universe” bridge and down the bridge comes Anu and Inanna. I couldn’t fully make out the face or body of Anu but knew it was him and I couldn’t fully see Inanna’s full face and length of her body but I knew it was her. As Inanna gets closer to the room I, Sekhmet, run over to her and yell “Sister” as we embraced in a joyous hug and smiled at each other. The union was as if we haven’t seen each other in a very, long time. Inanna is a beautiful black woman with green fluorescent reptilian eyes, and wavy 3C hair.

Anu begins to speak and states, “We are one in the same, given dominion over different regions. We need to make this known that we are one in the same. No pantheon/cluster of gods are better or greater than the other. It’s time to come together and let them know”. While Anu is speaking I, Sekhmet and Inanna are still holding hands and our outer appearance keep cycling between our original selves (Sekhmet with golden fur to black jaguar fur and Inanna with brown skin to green scaly reptilian skin) to metallic gold bodies. After Anu finishes his statement, I start hearing “find my sisters” over and over. Then as I saw the statement “daughters of Eve.” Then the imagery of the room changed and I was in a circle around Venus/Sun (it looked like Venus and the sun were one, cycling from red to yellow spewing out energetic flames) with my cosmic sisters. We were all holding hands and I had Inanna on my left and a Japanese goddess on my right. When the Japanese goddess first arrived to the room she was in the form of a dragon and I’m thinking how is holding hands going to work with her. Then she morphed into a woman dressed in red attire covering her breast area and a long slit skirt with her belly region exposed, a dangly bejeweled veil over her nose and mouth region, and a fanned out hair piece resembling sun rays. She reminded me of one of the Mortal Kombat girl fighters. Then as she approached the circle her attire turned white. Also, in the circle was Kali, the Jaguar Queen, Aphrodite and 2 others I couldn’t make out. As we’re holding hands, gold energy builds between our palms and in our heart region. Our clothes and hair are moving like we are in a high wind energy vortex created by us and the planet Venus.

After coming out of this amazing experience, I then began my challenge of finding my sisters. We are all one and the same. The same energy expressed differently from the divine creator…..making us sisters. Our sisterhood will tie together how the Anunnaki, Hindu Deities, Kemetic/Egyptian Deities, Aztec/Mayan Deities, Japanese Deities, Grecian Deities, etc are one in the same. A cluster of divine deities assigned to different regions of this Earth to influence, rule, mold, etc. as they saw fit. Depending on the region of “assignment” these deities either created the culture or absorbed into the culture. As we’ve seen in history, humans have a tendency to rename, adopt or eliminate deities to fit their agenda.

Inanna
Sekhmet

Dear Diary – Entry #1

After receiving several pushes and confirmations, I’m finally acknowledging that I’m being led to start sharing my personal experiences while meditating, in dream states, astral travels, etc. to provide personal accounts of being a spiritual being and striving to be in tune with your true nature. The experiences I share are just that, my experiences and shouldn’t be used as a comparison tool for yourself or others to judge and evaluate your own personal experiences and encounters. We are all of source and we are purposely living lives as individuals to develop our own perspective and point of view regarding life as a spiritual being living a human existence. My goal is to provide a perspective of an individual learning about her multi-dimensional self, her lineage and her purpose while here on Earth.

Dear Diary – 11/25/17 Meditation, Listened to Open Balance Chakras, Heal and Sleep – Jason Stephenson YouTube Video

This meditation session I decide to do laying in my bed. I follow the spoken mediation and begin aligning my chakras and could visualize the colors, but unlike last time I performed this mediation the swirls and spinning of the chakra colors are dancers and ice skaters in sparkly dresses.

• Flamingo dancer – red – root. • Flamingo dancer – orange – sacral. • Ice skater – yellow – solar. • Ice skater – dark green – heart. • Ice skater – Ice blue – throat. • Dancer w/ long velvet sparkly cape – indigo – 3rd eye. Crown – A volcano inside a ground skull opens and purple lava fills the skull then the skull closes. Then all the chakras combine into a thick smoke of the colors blending from red all the way up to purple. Then white light sparking like a 4th of July sparkler starts encasing me and filling my veins with this electric white light. Then the image of the meditating person with each colored chakra in a sitting position appears as myself and the white light completely surrounds the image.

While laying down on my bed, the bed becomes whiteness and I can see myself laying there from outside of myself watching in third person. The whiteness becomes snow and I’m completely covered in it and I begin to emerge up and through the snow. An all-white being emerges from my body and sits up. In the distance I see this being with long white blond hair, light green cat/reptilian eyes, a scrunched/rippled nose bridge and middle of forehead/3rd eye area like a cat’s face. It has on a white attire with broad, fanned out shoulder pads and he reminds me of the blond hair warrior elf from Lord of the Rings (it gives off a male vibe). The being has a staff, then no staff as he walks closer to me. I stand up and start wiping the snow off of me and the being signals that he wants to show me something. So, we started walking in the snow and at that time the only thing I could focus on was my feet and the snow, the area was so hazy and bright that my eyes didn’t want to adjust. The being was a very slow walker, like he was gliding with his strides. As my eyes started to adjust, I could see the being doing the “Vanna White” motions showing me the scenery. I see tall pine trees, mountains and a blue sky with white clouds. The sky is so blue and the air is so crisp, pure and smells like winter. Then we stop on the edge of a rock cliff and he does his Vanna White motion for me to look at a lake in the far-off distance. The scenario and lake reminded me of Lake Tahoe with the water being a deep dark blue surrounded by a shore of pine trees, rocks and snow-covered mountains. As the being turns to start walking me back, I forced myself to speak and ask, “who should I ask for guidance?” At that moment shadowy images with golden light emanating from behind them appeared in my mind. The Sphinx emerged from the shadowy image with Sekhmet behind the Sphinx. I tried to ask another question and was taken immediately out of meditative state.

I was in such awe that I just laid there on my bed in silence. Eventually I snapped back into this 3D realm, found my notebook and began writing and drawing so I could remember the experience, because I have a tendency to forget once I’m back in 3D. From doing searches on the internet, I concluded that the being is Lyran. The only possible reason I could think of as the reason for this encounter is because I’ve been asking for guidance and to know where I truly come from. I was answered and shown a place that felt very familiar and I was at peace there. I don’t know if this place was Vega or a different planet in the constellation of Lyra before it was destroyed or a different place all together. But I did give thanks to my guides for answering me and showing me proof that I’m not crazy for knowing that my soul isn’t of Earth.

The place I visited reminded me of this picture of Lake Tahoe
The cat-like humanoid being with blond hair and green cat/reptilian eyes
The shadowy Sphinx and Sekhmet images with golden light emanating behind them