Birthing Pains

We are going through a birthing. A new Earth is emerging from an old, broken, run down and no longer able to function properly Earth. This is the transitioning of 5D from 3D that so many speak about. The misconception is that it’s an actual new planet earth or a physical new heaven, because it’s not. It’s a higher level of vibrations, a higher view to see the whole picture, which means a higher perspective is dawning. One where the Universal Law of One is honored. One where the respect of duality is honored. One where the roles of humans, animals, plants, dimensional beings, and all things metaphysical are honored and respected. The pain, discontent, and emotional rollercoaster we are all on right now is necessary and a part of the birthing process just like when a woman gives birth. The pain, discontent and emotional rollercoaster she feels isn’t caused by the baby….. it’s caused by the birthing process and that part of the process can’t be skipped.

Old 3D earth has to go through birthing aka the 4D portal to rise up to the new 5D earth

What we should be doing right now is grounding ourselves and helping Mother Earth ground in this new level of energy. Captured in many books written within oppressive societies, humans are made to feel less than and puny among the “gods”. But in reality the “gods” envied humans because we were originally created to be able to navigate the spiritual and the physical realms simultaneously. We are the bridge, the portal between the dimensional realms, the physical and spiritual planes of existence. Through us, I’m specifically talking to melanated people, we can anchor in these new energies. The People of the Sun aka The Sun Kissed Skin aka melanated people are the protectors of this Earth and have the genetics to anchor in the new energy.

*Please take note that all of us have different levels of melanin in our bodies ranging from 100% to 0% and the color of your skin reflects that. So, if you have any melanin in your body you can assist in the anchoring of these high vibrational energies.
Dictionary.com – What is Melanated skin? A dark brown coloring found in the body, especially in the skin and hair. Produced by special skin cells that are sensitive to sunlight, melanin protects the body by absorbing ultraviolet radiation from the sun.

The new energy I speak of is on the higher scale of the electromagnetic spectrum and this scale has radio waves/red as low frequency energy and ultraviolent waves/purple as high frequency waves. The EMF scale also reflects how our chakras are arranged regarding a low frequency/red/root chakra to a high frequency/purple/crown chakra. These higher levels of radiation that are deemed as unhealthy and problematic by non-melanated people is only that way towards them. Our genetic nature, our melanin is activated and energized by the sun and cosmic radiation (higher vibrational energy). We are the righteous, those who can survive under the frequencies on the right side of the EMF Spectrum.

One of the reasons this shift is occurring is because, malevolent beings enslaved this earth and has been able to entrap us and stagnant our spiritual growth by creating an electric, negative ion barrier around earth (electric is the masculine aspect of energy, magnetic is the feminine aspect of energy). This barrier would reflect higher vibrational energy away and allow low vibrational energy through, which caused an imbalance in the energies on earth. This helped keep earth, as a whole, in a very low vibrational state and all things patriarchal/masculine/electric driven started to run rampant on earth because the divine feminine/magnetic was repressed. By doing this, these malevolent beings unhinged the Law of Duality on earth. Wars, famine, dis-ease, a narcissistic society and so on are all created within low vibrational states of being and these malevolent beings feed off the negative, low vibrational energy produced.

Electric barrier around Earth

The current state we are in right now has been talked about for ages in every culture that’s graced this planet because they knew balance would eventually restore itself. They knew the universe would correct the mess these malevolent beings caused. The electric barrier that surrounded earth has been dissolved and the shifting of these dimensional planes is allowing higher vibrational energy to penetrate through to Earth and with the return of the Divine Feminine, Earth’s spiritual imbalance is being restored back into balance. To restore the balance the old earth, the old ways, the current leaders and everything associated with those malevolent beings must be broken down and destroyed to be able to build a new earth with a solid foundation based on balanced universal laws. The establishment associated with those malevolent beings is fighting very hard to try to maintain their control, but out of this chaos will come order.

Based on everything I’ve listed above, remove your human emotions out of the way and think about all the injustice that has been done to melanated people all over this earth, the injustice done to women all over this earth, and the backwardness of society. Where teachers are paid scrapes but a guy that can shoot a basketball gets paid millions, a nurse (who have been predominantly women) is looked at as less than a doctor (who have been predominantly men) when they do all the dirty work, how people can’t afford food or a decent place to live, but politicians can raise millions to run for an office, or how the government can come up with trillions of dollars to fund bail outs to major companies, but there are people in this country trying to live off of minimum wage. Now, open your eye and your spirit and see how over the past decade or so melanated people have risen in positions and in power and women as a whole have risen in positions and in power. Melanated women have embraced their natural power, their natural hair, left religion behind and embraced their ancestral practices. Those steps were the Divine Feminine returning to Earth which helped awaken Mother Earth. This current state and this shift we are in right now has been in the works for a long time. Using our powers to perform grounding rituals, grounding spells, spending time in the sun barefoot and earthing and carrying grounding tools, stones, etc. are the practices we need to be doing right now to assist.

Sister Energies – “Sa Sekhem Sahu”

Ephesians 6:12, KJV: “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

It’s All Good

To focus on only positive energy and everything associated with positivity when you become conscious is a disservice to universal law. The uninverse is duality and to focus on only one aspect over another limits your ability to fully comprehend creation. It’s a nice concept to be positive all the time and think good thoughts and keep your vibes high to stay connected to your spirit guides and what not. But what are you supposed to do when you have a bad day and everything is going wrong? Fake your happiness, put on one of those smiling masks and half wit your way through the day? No!

Understanding divine law is very important and necessary when your conscious. Bad days will happen, you know why? Because good days happen. The key with either day is being grateful and staying mindful regardless of the type of day your having. More importantly, sometimes flipping off a driver that cut you off will do your soul better than acting like them cutting you off didn’t bother you at all. Healthy expressions of anger is needed, healthy expressions of cussing somebody out that deserves it is needed.

One thing I do admire from the Bible stories of Jesus is that he didn’t take no shit. When preachers would read some passages of the New Testament on the actions of Jesus, they seemed to down play them and make it seem like Jesus was sweet and nice all the time. But that’s definitely not the impression I got of Jesus from some stories, in particular these two.

Story 1: The story about Jesus raising Lazarus. Long story short, the reason Jesus waited to raise Lazarus was because he was busy. Even after being approached several times by friends and family of Lazarus, Jesus had his breaking point and ended up telling one lady off. I took that passage as him saying “Bi***, I’ll be there when I get there.” My interpretation is a little harsh but that’s how I interpreted it. Jesus didn’t stop the work he was doing for just one person even if it was his friend. He prioritized and made a decision to deal with something when he had the time to. Shoot, it wasn’t like Lazarus was going anywhere!

Story 2: The story about Jesus and the Temple. I absolutely loved this story as kid and greatly more as an adult. When Jesus came upon the Temple and the people were using it basically as a flea market. He flipped out and kicked all the people out the temple. In my head, I saw him flipping tables over, beating people with sticks, throwing stuff at people and so on. Jesus was not about being disrespected or having places connected to him disrespected either.

Being able to accept the good and bad, positive and negative in your life and more importantly, in yourself is one of the greatest accomplishments one can achieve while walking the conscious path.

Magic Death

The Earth and its inhabitants are linked via consciousness, which is an energetic network that connects everything and everyone. Everything is energy……our thoughts, our voice, and our bodies, all produce energetic vibrations. From the Mental Realm down to the Physical Realm is energy vibrating. The physical realm is our energy source aka soul vibrating in its lowest state via our DNA to create our cells, our bones, our skin, our hair, and so on. The tyrants controlling our planet feed off our energy, so you can think of them as parasitic dimensional beings. Our planet and the creatures upon it are constantly emitting energy, even when we’re sleeping. The best way to visually explain what humans are to these tyrants is the scene from The Matrix when Neo takes the red pill and wakes up in the human breeding station.

These parasites must manipulate us and the energy they extract from us to make it digestible by them. These tyrants aren’t benevolent or loving beings, they are from the complete opposite side of love on the vibrational scale. With love (the highest vibrational form of energy) being at one end and fear (lowest vibrational form of energy) being at the other, these tyrants are the physical manifestation of fear. They need the lowest vibrational form of energy to replenish their energetic needs, that’s why they use scare tactics and fear mongering to distort the energy we emit. They need humans and this Earth vibrating at its lowest state to survive.

 A human’s life means nothing to them, only their agendas and self-preservation matter. More so, a human life doesn’t matter because they know we don’t actually die, our bodies do but our “energy source”/souls don’t. When our energy source starts vibrating in fear, causing all the cells in our body to vibrate in fear, the energy emitted prior and after death is harnessed. Now, when the surrounding circumstances causing the fear in the person/persons are perfectly orchestrated, the energy released is amplified. That’s why these tyrants perform ritualistic murders aka Magic Deaths. They utilize the universal forces via the elements, synchronicity, astrological alignments, placements on the earth/ley lines, earth vortexes/portals, animals/animal spirits, elemental creatures, alchemy, etc. to amplify the conditions to not only create the strongest energy they can harness, but to also cause a “rip” in time; which is like a placeholder or a pause in time, to extract the same amount of energy for eternity. That’s why after the most tragic events they create memorials either by statues, memorial services, and more importantly annual memorial events. Time is circular, so every time the date of that tragedy occurred; for example Kobe’s death on January 26, arrives via the solar calendar that rip in time will be accessible to harness that energy pocket, in addition to, create more energy due to people remembering the event and evoking the same emotions they felt on the day the tragedy happened. Example, this is why the Jewish Mystics keep the Holocaust on everyone’s mind. It’s a massive tragedy in time that is constantly being used to extract energy from and from the people who are affected by that tragedy. Same thing with slavery in United States, the racial tension and the continuous amount of events that occur that remind people of that moment of time, produces a massive amount of energy from that “rip”/energy pocket and from the people that are affected by those events; which is mostly everyone in the United States. Black and white issues are the forefront of every debate, regardless if the persons conducting the reporting or running the show are black or white. The topic can be about fashion, media, social media, athletes, movies, music, politics, etc. and some how some way majority of the time a black or white issue gets thrown into the mix. Here’s a moment of provoking thought…..Something absolutely terrible has happened on every continent on this planet and a memorial is associated with it.

With all that said, be mindful of what the media is reporting and forcing down your throats to “Pay Attention” to. Be mindful of those moments and remember that you have the right to not be affected by what they are telling you to be affected by. Try to operate from a place of neutrality, recognize the moment, see it for what it really is and let it move on by emotionally. Take back your control over how you emit your energy!

 

Angels in Disguise

This blog is going to be all over the place. I’m more so collecting my thoughts, information and visions all in one space to share with others and to also help myself figure this subject all out. 

This Nipsey Hussle murder has really done a number on me. Not for the reasons that so many people display on social media because they knew him, his music and community activism. See, I didn’t know Nipsey, didn’t know any of his Music or about his community activism, I knew nothing of him. I’ve seen photos of him solo or with Laura London on Facebook a couple of times but that’s it. So, I’ve been asking myself since his murder happened, “why am I affected by this, why am I drawn to this person and this unfortunate event?” The answer I received and the way I received it was oddly put together, but I got the answers I was seeking.

Monday, April Fool’s Day, was another day of following the Nipsey tragedy on Facebook. That night I decided to do my nightly cleansing bath and I was looking for one of my favorite YouTube meditation videos, but all these angel and light worker videos showed up on my YouTube feed. I kept swiping past them not paying those videos any mind, then I came across a new guy, Enoch The Freestyle Prince who popped up on my feed. I’ve never watched a video of his, so I found it odd that the number of videos from him was saturating my feed. I finally stopped at one of his videos because the title jumped out to me and the video was called gang stalking. I knew that this person had to be a “woke” person because I don’t watch crap on this YouTube account and the title gang stalking seemed out of place because I mentally tied it to gangs. Surprisingly, the video was about him talking about lightworkers/angels being stalked by demons in plain sight aka gang stalking. Watching this guy speak, I was taken back by the way he talked and how he looked because he was very hood, very street but he was talking about something so spiritual and obviously was familiar with the topic from his own experience. To see someone so street but in tuned was shocking to me at first but then I felt guilty because angels come through in any avenue we can to help bring forth the greater good and sustain balance. The guy went on to list ways to notice when you are being gang stalked, for example; you could be walking down the street and a person could be walking towards you and they just begin to stare at you. The staring makes you uncomfortable because this person is deliberately staring you down for no apparent reason. He is saying that this is a demon taking notice of you and keeping an eye on you. This video hit home on so many different levels but to stay on topic with Nipsey, he just kept mentioning angels and lightworkers interchangeably and it made me think that maybe this is how Nipsey was. Nipsey was very street and a former gang banger, so maybe this was a glimpse into his world. The thought of Nipsey being a “woke” person and falling into this group of street level spirituality that knew of themselves and the happenings in this world. But once again I was going to be schooled on my skewed thought process later that night. 

After watching the gang stalking video, I went on Facebook and a video was on my feed of an interview Nipsey did. To be honest I can’t remember exactly what the video was about, but it showed a RIP with his birthday being August 15, 1985 and instantly I heard a voice in my head say “He was apart of your soul group.” I immediately was saddened and taken back but still didn’t understand what that meant. I’ve ran across people with a birthday around mine, even on the same day of August 16 and felt no connection to them at all. So, learning that Nipsey and I shared a portal/zodiac around the same time of birth opened my eyes up to the significance of soul groups but gave me more questions on what exactly a “soul group” was. I’ve read articles about finding your soul group, plus, I thought finding someone from your soul group would be people I would actually encounter in real life. Then it made me wonder, well what soul group am Nipsey and I apart of? And why was I told this.

After my cleansing bath, I went to bed with the gang stalking video, Nipsey, his birthday of August 15 and the message “our soul group” on the brain. So rather than ponder on this by myself, I asked for better understanding on why Nipsey’s murder has taken a toll on me and what all this information I just learned meant. Well, the saying is “be careful of what you ask for” because I got my answer. While sleeping I started having a “dream” and in this dream I knew Nipsey. In my dream he looked different but familiar and the familiarity was more of a feeling of knowing him than how he actually looked. While I was near him, he grabbed my hand and started to beam, light up, his soul shine through and levitate. He was an “angel” and when I saw that he was “angel” I kind of came out of the dream but went back in because the revelation was so strong. I started to cry and mourn when I realized what he was and that I was like him. I was saddened, my heart was heavy, and I started rolling back and forth in my bed because of the burden of knowing who he truly was, why he was really killed and the multiple agendas that were fulfilled by killing him and more importantly; the connection between myself and him. This dream was another awakening to learn about myself and why I’m here on Earth currently. I could no longer deny the things I’ve been shown about myself prior to Nipsey’s death and the effect his death has had on me in the dream and in my waking life.  It’s to the point that I started writing this blog the week of his death and was side tracked by work and life but completing it has been pulling at me to get it done. My experiences and my knowings must be shared, not for me or for Nipsey but to make it known that what we are taught about “angels” from religion, scholar studies or from so-called personal encounters are very skewed. 

This may not be new information, but I’ll start off with it to make a general point on how confused people have become running with these tales from the past. First off, angles don’t have wings like a bird. Angels were depicted like that in art and sculptures because humans couldn’t comprehend a person taking flight like a bird without wings, so to describe a person that was “heavenly” that could fly they drew angels in human form with wings to depict their capability of flying. Also, angles aren’t human, they’re celestial energy or celestial light beings and that energy takes on a body just like any other soul or energy that incarnates on Earth. With that said, celestial energy can incarnate into a human at different stages of the human body. Celestials can be incarnated via the birth of a baby or take on a human form during a quick visit based on who they’re interacting with. Regardless of when and which form we take, the common denominator will be that we won’t fit in to the society norms, even when we try and even when we look the part our energy will always give us away. Our talents, thoughts and the way we move on this Earth will always stand out even when we try to hide and stay low key. The so-called lime light or center of attention will always find us. People, animals, and nature will gravitate towards us and so will the negative energies and entities. We carry the foundational light codes of the universe which are the codes of divine truth, divine balance and the divine laws. When we are in flesh we feel and experience emotions just like everyone else, but we are capable of moving those emotions to the side to do what is just. I say just because there isn’t really a right and wrong or good and bad in the universe, there’s only just according to divine law.

I used to ask at a very young age, why did bad things happen in this world. But as a child I was looking at that question from a religious point of view and how religion teaches people about good and evil. I remember as a child, I would have disassociations after bad things would happen to me and a voice would always try to comfort me saying it was supposed to happen. I would become angry and even more upset because I knew deep down due to me being claircognizant, I know everything happenfor a reason but why was it happening to me. Those reasons would always reveal themselves as the karmic balance was restored after a “bad” event. I’ve always been able to see the truth in all events, good or bad. Ive always been able to see the order out of the chaos and one of the main laws the universe is bound by is karma. Yes, seeing people even children dying in wars is terrible but out of that chaos order will arise. In people’s limited understanding and scope of the world, humans aren’t able to see pass their emotions so war will always be bad or an evil thing to them. But as Ive heard mention in several tv shows and movies, war is a necessary evil. After every war of chaos, order will be restored, of course until the next war of chaos occurs to restore divine balance somewhere else on Earth, or in the galaxy and the universe.

So remember, celestials walk amongst us, celestials are humans in a fleshly disguise so be mindful of how you treat others because angels/celestials are directly linked to the creator. Through karmic law humans are tried and tested through the celestials interacting with them. When you encounter people, always go by that person’s vibe or energy, that’s how you’ll know if you’re interacting with a celestial being. Their energy will be magnetize you and fill you with joy and hope!

 

The Magical Pills


Do I continue to be numbed down and have no headaches or migraines or do I ask for a different med and start having the worse side effects or just stop the meds all together and risk getting the headaches and migraines again??? Oh how life sucks sometimes and oh how the pharmaceutical industry works its magic to keep us dumb and numb to the real causes of our dis-ease. I literally have mind numbing pain and yes the medication is working but it also has numbed my senses, slowed my thought processes, has caused tingling in my face and lips that makes me feel like I want to wipe my face off at times. I’ve tried the “holistic” approach and it wasn’t working. I was getting massages, seeing the chiropractor, doing yoga, being mindful of my mental state and my stress triggers and responses and yet still the headaches and migraines would come.

I was hospitalized due to cluster headaches, which are migraines on one side of my face and body. It basically resembles a stroke. The neurologist I saw in the ER says it’s nerve related which is why I was prescribed this medication. After all the tests performed, no pinpoint cause on why these cluster headaches have gotten out of control and happening more often frustrates me.

So the question still lingers, to stay medicated or not? To continue to take the magical pills that calm the headaches and migraines but make me feel tingly all over the place or stick it out and hope for the best that I don’t have any long term side effects.

Well, I ended up answering my own question and stopped taking the pills. Unfortunately, I’ve gain the weight back that I was losing but no more tingles in my face. I occasionally still get migraines but it’s only around my menstruation time or if I’ve completely fell off on getting bi-weekly body alignments and massages.

See this is how those doctors get you. Put you on a drug to mask your ailment without addressing the real cause or dis-ease that is going on with your body and/or mind. Then scare you with the “what could happen” without reviewing with you the compete list of side effects and down play your symptoms of a side effect because it falls in the less than 5% margin.

Moral of the story is…..take your health and the knowledge you need to learn about your ailment or dis-ease into your own hands. Don’t heavily rely on doctors and their modern medicine to cure you.

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

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I had a very intriguing session yesterday with my therapist. While discussing my digestion of the recent discovery of my ex-husband being a narcissistic sociopath, we decided to dive deeper into my relationships with “me focused” people.

This deep dive project made me tell my therapist about some memories that arose when a lot of different events, including the past 4 years of my life with my ex-husband started to put a lot of scattered puzzle pieces of my life together. For example, one key puzzle piece was that my dad was abusive and based on the things my mom has told me about things he did to her while married he is definitely a narcissist and my granddad was more than likely a narcissistic sociopath based on the family stories I’ve heard about him; which are 10 times worse than what my dad was doing to my mom. So there’s definitely a generational curse going on on my dad side with this mental disease. One of the memories that arose was one of my granddad when I was in high school around the time when he was falling ill with lung cancer. My dad was in town and left me and my sister at my granddad’s for some quality time. I was at his apartment trying to heat up some food in his microwave, but he had an older microwave and I didn’t know how to work it. I had to ask him more than once how to use it because he was being short with his answers like he was annoyed with me. Maybe, this was my third time asking him how to set the minutes and before I could finish getting my ask out he pushed me hard out of the way, started yelling at me and calling me names. My therapist asked me do I remember what I did and I replied that during that time in my life whenever anyone would yell at me it would remind me of hearing my parents arguing and I would freeze and I would block everything out. So in that moment I froze, blocked him out and walked away.

Then I continued to tell my therapist that prior to my family moving to another state I went to stay with my granddad for a little bit when I was 4 while my mom was getting everything in place with her new job and the house. I don’t remember staying with him, but this is what I was told and based on one story my mom would tell. When she went to go get me from him after this extended stay, she passed this dirty little girl riding on a big wheel bike and she thinks “ahh she’s a really cute girl somebody should wash her up, do her hair and be out here watching her.” When she gets to my granddad’s apartment she asks for me and he replies, she’s outside riding her bike you probably passed her. My mom then immediately turns from him, goes and picks up that cute, dirty little girl she passed not knowing it was me and leaves without grabbing any of my things. I then relay to my therapist that I am concerned, now knowing what my granddad may have been, what I may have been exposed to while living with him during that period of time. My therapist tells me if the body has no response to the thought of him then maybe, just maybe I don’t have anything to worry about but as these memories arise in due time will tell.

So I’m assuming to pull my focus from feeling helpless in this situation, my therapist asked me to think of a friend that I had or have that wasn’t “me focused” and to be honest I had to really search through my memories to find a person that wasn’t. Majority of all the people in my life that I befriended or more so befriended me were
“me focused”. A lot of friends that had befriended me was for their sole purpose only. For example, I’m very smart and in high school and college a lot of people would befriend me to help them with their assignments or get notes for class or to try to cheat off of. Once they realized that I wasn’t going to allow them to cheat off of me or I was going to make them put in work when we had group assignments those people would eventually fall to the waste side. But a course the narcissists, the tricksters, the manipulators knew just how to pull on the heart strings or spin their web to make me believe they were really my friend while they used me.

After thinking for a minute or two, I finally thought of a person that wasn’t anything like any of these “me focused” friends. My therapist then asked me to list what was different about this person and the main things that came to mind was this person was mellow, focused on their children and wasn’t visually self-conscious about their image. Then my therapist stated “so you said this person was mellow like their vibrations were low, mellow toned”, then asked me how did this make me feel? I replied it made me feel uncomfortable and like in typical therapist fashion she asked “why” and I replied, because I’m not used to mellow, I’m use to people who are high wired, high vibration and at the same time we both say “chaotic”. Then another puzzle piece fell into place, maybe I’m gravitating towards people who are “me focused”, high vibratory because that’s familiar. I grew up in a household that was “me focused” and chaotic. My entire life has been nothing but chaos, whenever there is a moment of peace or mellowness I feel uncomfortable and become anxious. That’s why I’ve always been a busy body, constantly active which leads to being burnt out and stressed out on the regular.  But also kept me from having to think or wallow in the pain that was my life.

I do want to know what’s “wrong”with me and what I need to do to fix the deep dark parts of me to make myself whole, especially after going through a traumatic marriage and separation. At first when I learned that I’m partly to blame for some of these hardwired poor decisions it saddened me and made me think that I’m way more screwed up than I originally thought. No wonder I attract crap in my life. But after a day of processing, I became inspired and felt better knowing this information.

So Mirror, Mirror on the Wall …. no I’m not to blame for what is attracted to me and no I’m not to blame for what I’m attracted to, but I am responsible for my attractions after I’m made aware to these factors that have made me hardwired to this dysfunction. Time to choose wisely. Time to change the woman in the mirror!

Introduction to the Complacent Journey

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The word complacency means pleased with oneself and I truly feel that this fits where I am in my life. That’s why I choose it to define my blog personality. I’m not perfect and neither is my life but I’m starting to be okay with the idea of stumbling around and learning as I go. Picking up the pieces of my missteps and mishaps along the way and waking up with one main goal in mind each day; which is to live in a state of mindfulness.

With that said, I’m on a journey of self-love after experiencing a spiritual awakening after a very traumatic event in my life a few months ago. How did I know it was a “spiritual awakening”? Well, for once in my life something terrible happened to me and I wasn’t mad or sad about it. I really couldn’t place a title to my feelings to the range of events that I was going through at that time other than I felt numb. Nothing felt right and normally I drive into the bible and into praying but I didn’t and I didn’t want to. It wasn’t out of anger towards God like I would do sometimes because like I said I wasn’t mad. I just had no desire to take that normal route, didn’t see the point in it. I knew that it wouldn’t fix how I was feeling. Plus, I’ve had bad experiences and bad events in my life before and I always turned to religion. It feels odd to say this but in that numbness it was like my mind was opened to a portal of endless life questions and one key question that was on constant repeat was “why keep doing the same ol’ things expecting different results” and my religion fell into that re-evaluation. Once that door was finally ripped off the hinges and I no longer had any inhibitions to not look beyond religion for the answers to “life”, that’s when the spiritual awakening occurred and my true healing began.

As I try to navigate through this new outlook and state of mind on life that I have, I will document my journey and be as honest and as truthful as possible about my experiences. By documenting them in this manner I’m hoping it will also help in my healing process from all my past pains and be helpful for other inquiring minds that want to do the same as I and step off of the societal merry-go-round.

“Strange is normal and whoever tells you otherwise should check their sanity.” The Complacent Mind