Dear Diary – Entry #2

The below drawing is my very first “journal” entry I made when I started writing down my thoughts and documenting my visions, dreams and meditations. I don’t know why I drew it, it was just something that came through while I was doodling trying to figure out what to start the notebook off with. After I was done drawing it made complete sense that it represented me at that moment.

12/4/2016

Drawing Analysis: I was thinking Jupiter but drew Saturn and this mix up happens all the time with me regarding these planets. Later I would learn about the significance of both planets in relation to myself and their interactions with each other. Jupiter being the benevolent planet and Saturn being the malevolent planet. Polarities, Enki and Enlil.

Moon and sun being polarities and very prominent in my being. I’m a solar creature but also a moon child. I gain my power and stability from both the sun and the moon. I absorb the sun for my physical nutrients and the moon for my spiritual nutrition. Moon being feminine and the sun being masculine, magnetic and electric selves represented.

The star is my 3rd eye and I drew both physical eyes and 3rd eye wide open which they’ve always been.

My mind (upper self) on the stars, the universe, the heavenly bodies. My mouth (lower self) in paradise, exploring nature and speaking with the natural orders.

Epiphany – Golden Vibes

Right when you think you know something the universe says, nope think again. This moment I’m about to talk about falls into my constant reminder to myself that “there’s levels to this”. Last night was a new moon, so I wrote out a list of things I would like to work on or come to be during this new moon cycle. For once my list was simple and didn’t have any of the normal things I listed before. For example, I would list financial stability, making new friends or finding my soul tribe. But this time I listed to learn more about myself my true nature, go inner more, and bring balance to my family and myself. After I made this list I felt I should do a new moon oracle deck reading and the urge was to specifically ask my 9D self some questions. The questions that came to mind were “what do I need to know, what do you need me to know”? The cards pulled and the messages with each was not what I expected but once I settled my mind and removed my own subjective thoughts, a greater understanding and communication from my 9D self came through. The overall message was: “That I need to dive deeper. I can’t stop where I’m at in my progress, I have to pull back the layers of myself like a rose and find the core of myself, the deepest meaning of myself. What is at the core of a rose?

So, after compiling that message into something comprehensible I started doing what I always do after an insightful reading, I start googling terms from the message to see where it leads. First I searched the phrase “core of a rose” and came across images of the main center parts of flowers. While seeing these pictures over and over, the number 3 stood out to me. So I changed up the wording of the search to the “center of a rose”, then all these images of the center of the rose popped up and in these pictures I saw a galaxy within the rose. Tiny stars surrounded by cosmic web filaments. I was stunned and in awe and took a moment to admire the beauty.

Then the thought of the Amorea Flame that is in our activated higher heart-thymus chakra and the Threefold Founder Flames came to mind. The only place that talks about these subjects is Energetic Synthesis. So, I moseyed on over to that site but all the links I had already had open in my phone were not to the ES Ascension Glossary where I can read about the Amorea Flame. So, I had to go through the main page to get to the Ascension Glossary and normally when I have to do this it opens to the introduction page of the glossary. But last night it opened to a page I’ve never seen before. The Ascension Glossary opened to a page about the Ra Center and as I read the first paragraph I had to stop because I needed to rub my temples from the overwhelming explosion happening in my mind.

Back in 2017, I was shown a secret about the “golden orb” on a galactic ship. Then I was portaled to the south of Africa in a red dirt bush country to teach the people about the golden orb. While teaching a native, we were in secrecy behind a bush hiding the information I was sharing with him and keeping a watchful eye. After I awakened from that experience, I was on a mission to learn what this golden orb is because how was I supposed to teach people about it if I don’t even know what it is. In 2018, I finally came across some information that started to put the pieces of this mystery together for me but instead of creating a single level picture, it started to create a multi-leveled picture. I eventually learned that the golden orb/golden energy means different things depending on the perspective, dimension or density. Golden energy can be associated with the 8th Chakra, the flame in your higher heart chakra, the energy in your solar plexus area and the gold flame (14th chakra) apart of the Threefold Founder Flames aka God Heads relating to the 13th, 14th and 15th chakras.

Here’s my take on what I read last night, which I know I will have to read a few more times and research certain subjects more to be able to truly grasp it all. So, after reading about the Ra Center and its association with those areas, I had an epiphany. All that I learned about the golden orb/golden energy all intertwined and up to that moment I did not see the connection. The golden orb/golden energy is in 4 areas of the body and each golden energy that I’ve discovered so far all match up to those 4 areas. Each golden energy area needs to be discovered separately so you can work on the area, purge the area and heal the area before they can connect and help to pull your 4 bodies (ego, soul, oversoul and avatar) into balance. At the same time, the merging of your male aspects (electric, negative, father, rod) and female aspects (magnetic, positive, mother, arc) will also begin to merge and bring you into balance. And all of this merging and balancing of the 4 bodies and the male and female aspects will be the beginning of all your multi-dimensional selves merging as well.

“Activate your golden vibes”

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/RA_Center

2017 Sap Moon: March 12th Full Moon

full moon black woman

Please read this article:

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2017/03/10/caracampbell-sap-moon/

I’m an empath and deeply affected by nature and energy. Energy giving off by people, places, animals, things, etc. I will go into more detail about that later because I’m still learning about this aspect of myself. But now knowing about how these energies affect me, I pay very close attention to astrology. Another subject I will dive in to deeper later on. This breakdown of the full moon occurring tomorrow was exactly what I needed today. I have been feeling so off lately and really feeling horrible noticing the bad cycles coming back and seeing myself stuck in them this week and last. Wondering why have they come back and what am I doing wrong. Reading this article gave me the clarity that I needed to address these cycles and gave me the strength I needed to push through and hopefully break them. I’m actually thankful that I’m able to see the bad behavior now.

For example, the anger cycle I fall into when I feel out of control when it comes to the cleanliness of my home when it comes to my kids. My kids are supposed to do their chores everyday when they get home from school. They are the same chores everyday, one cleans up the family room and the other cleans up the kitchen. Everyday I come home and those 2 areas aren’t done even after they say they’ve done them to get a snack or to go outside to play with their friends. Well, I won’t say everyday, I say 95% chance I will come home and their chores won’t be done. My reaction to them not doing their chores is what I’ve been working on and there are 3 choices: A. Flip out and start yelling like normal or B. Ignore it or C. Calmly ask them to do their chores. Well, like I said after it begins to be an everyday occurrence and even though this might be the same thing I come home to everyday, my days outside of my home aren’t always the same so my 3 choices of reaction slim to option A or B and sometimes turning into a Super A because some days I’m extremely stressed out.

My tasks today will be to really call out all the crap that has been popping up this week and write them down so when I do my full moon release ritual tomorrow I can really clear out the crap.

“Strange is normal, whoever tells you otherwise should check their sanity.” The Complacent Mind