Rain, Rain…..Go Away!

All those times we said this phrase as a kid so we could go outside and play. Superstitiously, we thought we could control the weather. Trying to influence the weather used to be a wish, now it’s our daily reality. In this day and age controlling the weather is a norm for the powers at be of this planet. They try to push climate change and global warming as the cause of these fluctuating weather patterns, the seasons blending or completely being skipped, glaciers melting, etc. to distract the masses from the truth. The truth is countries are at war with each other and they will use the weather as a form of weapon. Other powers are “playing god” and using the weather to experiment on different parts of the world.

I was listening to Dr. Delbert Blair one day and he commented on the fact that thunder and lightning are no longer a part of the many rain storms we get in heavily populated areas now. After I heard it I stopped and thought about it. Where I live in northeastern USA, we get a lot of rain now without many thunderstorms. Lightning is earths way of purifying the air and with the decline of these thunderstorms the mass particles the powers at be have been polluting the air with and the increase in chemtrails to block out the energy waves from the sun have increased over time. These particles are able to stay in the atmosphere longer because lightning isn’t able to neutralize and clear these particles out of the atmosphere.

As the powers at be continue to control the weather and use it against other parts of the world, the climate change discussions will continue to be pushed to distract us from the truth. The truth is the weather isn’t a natural occurrence on earth anymore, it’s manufactured.

The Magical Pills


Do I continue to be numbed down and have no headaches or migraines or do I ask for a different med and start having the worse side effects or just stop the meds all together and risk getting the headaches and migraines again??? Oh how life sucks sometimes and oh how the pharmaceutical industry works its magic to keep us dumb and numb to the real causes of our dis-ease. I literally have mind numbing pain and yes the medication is working but it also has numbed my senses, slowed my thought processes, has caused tingling in my face and lips that makes me feel like I want to wipe my face off at times. I’ve tried the “holistic” approach and it wasn’t working. I was getting massages, seeing the chiropractor, doing yoga, being mindful of my mental state and my stress triggers and responses and yet still the headaches and migraines would come.

I was hospitalized due to cluster headaches, which are migraines on one side of my face and body. It basically resembles a stroke. The neurologist I saw in the ER says it’s nerve related which is why I was prescribed this medication. After all the tests performed, no pinpoint cause on why these cluster headaches have gotten out of control and happening more often frustrates me.

So the question still lingers, to stay medicated or not? To continue to take the magical pills that calm the headaches and migraines but make me feel tingly all over the place or stick it out and hope for the best that I don’t have any long term side effects.

Well, I ended up answering my own question and stopped taking the pills. Unfortunately, I’ve gain the weight back that I was losing but no more tingles in my face. I occasionally still get migraines but it’s only around my menstruation time or if I’ve completely fell off on getting bi-weekly body alignments and massages.

See this is how those doctors get you. Put you on a drug to mask your ailment without addressing the real cause or dis-ease that is going on with your body and/or mind. Then scare you with the “what could happen” without reviewing with you the compete list of side effects and down play your symptoms of a side effect because it falls in the less than 5% margin.

Moral of the story is…..take your health and the knowledge you need to learn about your ailment or dis-ease into your own hands. Don’t heavily rely on doctors and their modern medicine to cure you.

Complacency: Reflections of Self

After achieving what I thought I should as an adult, all those “accomplishments” lead to┬ádeep heart ache, pain, unhappiness and finding myself feeling empty, unsatisfied and alone.

After several months of being stuck in a void and I’m using the word void because I wasn’t sad or depressed, but I was in a state of emotionless. While in this void, my mind was on constant repeat, thinking the same thoughts over and over again. What am I doing wrong? How am I 34 and I don’t have anything together? Why do I feel so lost? While away on a trip I discovered several different topics and articles on Facebook that kept catching my interest. Figured if something keeps popping up I need to start paying attention to it. This began my journey into the unknown….. so I thought.

This journey of self-love, inner-peace, becoming spiritually in tune to my real self. The real Me and not who I think I should be, or who I thought I should be as a child or even when I thought I was in college, and definitely not who society says I should be. More importantly, not who my mom or my family think I should be or should have been.

My mind works differently from most, I noticed this at an early age. Always questioning life, rules, nature, adults and authority. Never took answers at face value and always wanted to learn beyond the surface. My mind sees disorder, chaos, things out of place and automatically starts analyzing and correcting them. I always thought it was my OCD until it enhanced my career by finding the flaws in a facility and their programs and on a personal level giving great advice. Unfortunately, it also gives off the persona of a “know it all” or always having something to say. Had to learn with maturity when to speak my truth and when to let people figure it out on their own. More importantly, not beat myself up when they fail or don’t figure it out. I’m a fixer by nature but everything and everyone doesn’t want to be fixed. Sometimes its best for things and people to stay broken. Can’t save the world by draining myself in the process. Learned to pick my battles so I can have successful wars.

Good vs. Evill

Religions has us convinced that there’s a good vs evil scenario going on in the world. Movies have us believing that there’s a good vs evil war going on in the universe. All thoughtfully done to control the masses. As some people focus on trying to be so good that they can’t be seen as evil and other people so hell bent on being so evil people won’t consider them good. These unspoken people have been directly affected by the cat and mouse game of society to keep our minds focused on one over the other rather than on both.

How does a person even know the difference between the two if the other didn’t exist to compare it to? Light couldn’t exist if there was no darkness, good couldn’t exist if there was no evil. Life is about balance. The issue with the universe and our world is they are out of balance. Evil has been “winning” at keeping this balance out of whack. Poisoning and distracting our souls and minds from what’s important in life. Controlling people through every aspect that can come to mind to keep us divided and at war with each other. Old vs new, iPhone vs Android, breastfeeding vs not breastfeeding, Black vs white, Hispanics vs non Hispanics, girl vs boy, Democrat vs republican and so on. All this division keeps us distracted as the balance in our world continues to stay out of whack.

Love the good and evil inside each of us, the light and the dark because we are made of both. This is why evil and good things happen in the world and the acceptance of both is why free will still exists.

This Too Shall Pass….


This world is going to shit and I’m ok with what’s happening. Before I knew what the Age of Aquarius meant, before I knew about the Divine Feminine, before I knew anything about my soul being consciousness inside this body for a reason, I use to fret about the happenings in this world. Christianity tainted and sculpted my view of events as the coming of Christ and the anti-Christ rising but in reality it’s the growing pains of this world changing on a spiritual level. 

The controllers of this world have been using the knowledge most people are just now coming into knowing since the beginning to try to control our lives on this planet. As with most people who come into knowledge and power, they have a choice to use it for good or use it for bad. I think most people don’t intentionally choose to be bad but sometimes the decisions we make can turn into bad one after bad one until they become a “bad person” and that person accepts themselves as being bad. The ego of these controllers is the driving force behind all of their actions. An ego that is selfish and makes them think they’re special because they know something others don’t. 

Now there are so many different theories out there on why Earth was inhabited with human beings. Such as an experiment on a new astral race to see what happens when we put souls in flesh and grant them free will to decide on there own what type of life they want to “live” while human. Erase their capabilities to be able to remember who and what they are and see which souls can find their way back to their true self and the soul source. Sounds like an experiment a scientist or doctor would do on a lower life form to learn how it functions, so the idea of a more knowledgeable supreme being or beings being able to do this on a mass scale really doesn’t sound to far fetched to me. I’ve experienced enough and trust my intuition to not sweep this theory to the side as false.

But trying to understand life through my mind is useless and it’s a practice I have to put into play to stop trying to do. Asking why is very beneficial for my mind and how I function as a person but I need to learn to allow the answers to flow to me by experiencing life. By enjoying nature, my kids and myself. In those moments the answers will come and when I sleep and my consciousness is able to free from this body the answers will come from outside realms. 

So as this world continues down this unavoidable path of destruction, I have stability within to keep calm and at peace with the growing pains. To take notice and keep a watchful eye because there’s nothing new under the sun and so many worlds, nations, empires have come and gone so eventually this world too shall pass.