DECODED: Black is King – Part 1

The presence of the Dogon tribe from the beginning of the video and throughout is the link to the Sirius beings creating the melanated hu-man. A physical being that can absorb hues aka colors aka all the wavelengths aka all the frequencies to be able to tap into the god frequencies. On the physical side, melanin can absorb the rays of the sun aka the radiation emitting from the sun. Melanin is an energy converting material similar to chloroplast in plants. The sun is an energy source for melanated people; hence why we were created to be able to be on the surface of earth. On the spiritual side, the colors aka frequencies are the 7 main chakras in the body; which each resonates at a different frequency. When each are opened and attuned they create a spiraling portal, the kundalini energy/serpent energy that rises from the base of our body out of the crown of our head. When our portal is open we can connect with the different frequencies present on the different dimensional states of existence. Hu-man is a being that is of the physical and spiritual worlds, a walking portal, a multidimensional being.

The blue man in the beginning is a Sirian man. The Blue hominid beings are a race of the Sirius star system. The color green and the green man represents Sirians and their green blood. Osiris was green because he was a sirian being and sirians have Cooper-base blood. When cooper oxidizes it turns green, hence oxidized copper-based blood does the same. Depending of the lighting used the sirian man looks blue, green or turquoise, regardless of what color scheme his skin is displaying it still doesn’t change the fact he is a sirian. Which correlates to no matter how light or dark your melanated skin is your origins are still of Sirius.

“Osiris”

I have to mention this because it was through out the video but I will have to decode it in more depth in a separate post. Cat prints, lions on the wall, and using the Lion King as the story base of the video can be broken into so many different aspects and representations. One aspect is showing the feline races of the Sirian star system and their bloodline on earth. Those bloodlines being of the 12 tribes of Jacob in the tribe of Judah, the tribe of the lion.

The red in the video represents 2 key aspects Venus and blood. All female goddesses are linked to Venus and Venus energy is the divine feminine as a whole. The women dressed in red suits is a power statement within this patriarchal society, “we carry the power in our blood”. The power of our blood is the divine feminine creation energy.

An image of the orbit pattern of Venus around the sun

Hot pink/bright magenta in the video represents Mary Magdalene energy, an aspect of Sophia energy. Sophia energy is the feminine divine aspect of the kryst consciousness. Kryst consciousness is the dual aspect that is our direct line of communication to the divine source. This feminine aspect must join with the divine masculine aspect Christos via merging/marriage. The marriage scene represented you becoming whole when you merge with your divine masculine and divine feminine selves. Its an internal spiritual merging and a physical merging when u find your partner that completes you. The king and the woman wearing magenta represented his and hers Sophia and kryst energies merging when they found each other and decided to partner aka become one. Beyoncé was there representing the divine feminine/creation energy, that’s why she wasn’t the one marrying the king. https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Christos-Sophia

Auset/Isis and Maat was present at the merging aka marriage too. They were the women who look identical with the Kemetician style hair with one wearing blue/Maat/laws and balance and the other wearing red/Auset/Isis/Venus helping the bride get ready. They also represent the power behind Osiris aka a pharaoh aka a king. In murals, Auset/Isis and Maat are always behind Osiris or a pharaoh. They can’t rule without Maat and Auset’s guidance, power, wisdom, strength and their direct connection to creation/source. More importantly, with Osiris/a king/a man in front of them, he is able to fulfill his role as a protector and protect his Auset/Isis/queen and the precious possessions she holds. This is also ties to one of the reasons why the chess board was used through out the video. In chess, the most dominant chess piece isn’t the king, it’s the queen. The most powerful being on earth is the melanated woman aka the queen and she most be protected at all times.

Maat and Auset behind Osiris

The African flag colors of green, red and black represents our origins. Our sirian green blood and our Venusian red blood are the powers in the black/melanated hu-man blood. The merging of the green man and the red woman creates the black hu-man. The phrase “power in the blood” has everything to do with our DNA and genetic origins.

Water, water, water everywhere! In the video she explains the importance of water but what she doesn’t illuminate on is water represents plasma, the 4th state of matter and our spiritual selves. Plasma is also in our blood, hence the phrase blood plasma and why it’s more precious than our blood cells. Plasma is the foundation of our blood, the matter that fills the space between our blood cells to give the appearance of fluidity. Without plasma our blood cells couldn’t sustain nutrients, move freely through our veins, etc. The universe is nothing but plasma that we can’t see with our visible eyes and scientists recently discovered it and call it dark matter. When you look at the night sky you see distance in between the stars. You presume the distance between the objects in the sky have a “nothingness” space between them. But that’s false, we can’t see with our physical eyes the matter that fills that distance/space between objects. Plasma is the matter that fills the space between all objects. Marvel movies such as Guardians of the Galaxy depict space as a “water” state when people are in it; hence why they look like they’re under water. So water everywhere in the video also represents our unseen connection and ties to all. Also represents that our purest state is our spiritual self/our plasma body, not our physical body. Wash away the false life, oppression, the heartache, the lessons of life and remember you’re more than those moments. You’re infinity and only enduring these things for a moment on your timeline of existence.

“Dark Matter” viewed in a wavelength outside of visible light. It is the network throughout the universe that connects all things
A scene from the Guardians of the Galaxy of Starlord floating in space

Part 2 coming soon. In the mean time don’t take my above words as truth, research everything I’ve stated and learn via your own wisdom and understanding. And remember that symbols and symbolism have multiple levels of meaning so use your own discernment.

Love Spell

Being apart of several “witchy” groups, I’ve noticed the main thing girls in these groups want to do is cast love spells on guys. Or hex or curse a guy that hurt them but that’s a subject for another blog. I can admit that I’ve never wanted to “cast” a love spell, mainly because I didn’t know what love really was. My definition of love was completely different from everyone I’ve ever encountered. My definition of love is “Love is a choice, not a feeling.” I’ve never came across anyone that valued the love that I gave. So my perspective on love was that it wasn’t for me and it was nothing but heartache, because I expressed love differently than others.

While dating a guy a long time ago, we was having a discussion on love and commitment and I told him my definition and he got upset. He couldn’t grasp my perspective on love. He was offended that I was saying that I could fall out of love with him. In my defense, I reinteriated my point that my love for someone would be a choice and not based on how I felt towards them, because feelings can change in a blink of an eye. Then to make matters worse, he tried to convince me that it was his job to make me happy and keep me in loving feelings towards him. Unfortunately, he was talking to the new, improved and awakened me and not the old, insecure, didn’t know my worth me. The old me would have soaked those words up and entrapped me, but the new me wasn’t having it. I responded with “I’m responsible for my own happiness and you the same. You should enhance me and I the same to you.” Welp, he wasn’t having that and I completely understood why. Most people base their value on someone else’s value and need of them. Tit for tat relationships, I give you this and you better give me what I gave you back at equal or greater value. I was a culprit of this myself in many of relationships, but the difference in my circumstances was that I was given way too much of myself to try to keep people happy with me. I put my self-worth on how I made others happy in hopes they would reciprocate the same effort towards me and that never happened till now.

After taking time to heal after a terrible marriage, a stressful divorce and converting back into single mommy hood, I focused a lot of free time on my spiritual journey. While on this part of my journey, the universe threw some tests at me to see if I’ve learned my lessons. One was the guy I mentioned earlier, another was an old flame and the last was a really nice guy that I gave a chance because my intuition said do it. The guy I mentioned above tested my ability to stand in my true feelings even when it conflicted with the person I’m dating. The old flame came back to remind me that I was above the bullshit and that it is ok to be better or above someone. To know my worth! The really nice guy was my test to go outside the box of the typical guys I dated to show me there’s more to life when you remove unnecessary boundaries. Also, to test me in my truth of being a magical, gifted being that was no longer trapped in religion. The really nice guy was a church guy that lived a contradicting lifestyle but had a problem with me embracing my spiritual path. It was hard but I chose my true nature over him and it was the final test I needed to past for the universe to show me I was ready to accept my god hood.

In January 2019 I did a love spell and it was nothing like any love spell I came across in groups or doing searches on the internet. My love spell was intuitive and about me accepting my divinity and letting the universe know I was ready to receive the love it had for me. I placed my life in the hands of the universe and wrote my spell to fall within universal laws, even if the love I attracted was me loving myself solo. This spell was so powerful that the notebook I wrote it in disappeared. I tried to keep the spell so I could reference it later but the universe was like “Naw, you gave this to us so it has to leave you to fully be in our hands.” From that day forward I continued to live, explore my spiritual journey and didn’t even think about the work I did with that spell.

Before I even did the spell work, I had arranged a cabin trip within a Facebook group for the end of February 2019. So, the Friday of the cabin trip arrived and I didn’t even pay attention to the date 2/22/19 (222). When I arrived a girl named Amber and a guy I’ve never met before greeted me at the door. The first thing I noticed when I opened the door was this guy with this huge smile stirring at me all googly. I could tell he was “intrigued” by me but I brushed it off because I know I have that effect on guys. So how he was acting wasn’t odd or worth paying attention to. Once inside he offers to take my bag, like he switched from intrigued mode to servitude mode. So I let him take my bag and I followed both of them upstairs. While walking to meet everybody that was already there, I’m videotaping the cabin because it was awesome. So I’m not paying this guy any attention while we’re walking. We get upstairs and he starts to walk up these loft steps to a room he said was mine and I stopped him. I let him know I didn’t want that room because it was too open and noisy and I wanted a room away from everybody. So he takes me around this bin to a whole other part of the house to a room away from everybody. I tell him cool I’ll take this one and he looks at me and this was the first time I made eye contact with him and he replies “but this is my room.” We locked eyes and it was like we spoke telepathically because I was thinking “that’s nice but I want this room” and he responded verbally “ok you can have it.”

After that interaction, I found myself drawn to him. Yes he was cute, had a nice body, gorgeous smile, you know all the physical things opposite sex are attracted to but it wasn’t that I was drawn to. I found myself wanting to be in his presence and had to stop myself from stirring at him. Every now and then I would catch him stirring at me then quickly turning his head or eyes away like he wasn’t too. At dinner I put my glass next to where he was going to sit but a girl moved it and sat next to him not realizing my glass of water was my spot saver. Later that night we were all in the jacuzzi and we were the last ones to get out. He tried to have a conversation with me but it was forced and awkward. I started to take that weird interaction as maybe what I was feeling wasn’t what I thought it was towards him.

Then things took a turn for the better later that night. We created a bond over spying on the weird owner of the cabin we was staying at. To the point I screamed for him to join me at a window and all he had on was his boxers. Till this day I’m shocked that we spent hours together spying on this guy and not once did I notice he was in his boxers. We were so wrapped up in each other’s company, laughing and joking around I never noticed and he never thought to go put some shorts on. Later on finding out what he was working with, I definitely should of have noticed! The most memorable part of the spying was when I was sitting on a chair and he came and sat down on a foot stole to be close to me while we chatted. There was a couch and another chair he could of chose to sat on but he sat on the foot stool. The way he was looking at me when he was listening to me was so adorable. Like I was the most beautiful, intriguing woman he had ever seen. He still looks at me like that and expresses his amazement of me everyday. Once we had enough of spying on the owner, we went to sleep in our separate rooms. That night I ended up having a dream that revealed that he was the one for me, my soul mate. The rest of that weekend we were inseparable, where ever I was he was. When we didn’t know where one of us was we would ask someone where the other is.

We became an immediate couple and been making couple moves ever since. At times I would say I wish I met him in my younger years, but I know all the things I’ve gone through prepared me for having him in my life. The connection and bond we have is what movies are made of. But not the typical love movie, I’m talking about a supernatural, superhuman sci-fi love movie. Our connection is so strong and we’re so intuned that we finish each others thoughts and sentences. We can send thoughts to each other and we will respond via text or phone. We know when one is off and exactly what to do to make the other feel better. During sex this man knows secrets held within my body that he maneuvers like he was the one that placed them there. He completely understands my definition of love and our roles as a man and woman in a partnership. He fully fulfills his role as a protector and I as my role as a nurturer. In regards to our god hood, he is my generator and I am is manifestation vessel. He allows me to be the magical being that am, practice my spirituality as I see fit and inquires to learn more about my practices. The perfect guy for me!

My love spell was open-ended and written to work within universal laws; which released full control to the universe to work on my behalf. I loved myself first and that was the key to attracting someone who loved me too. He is the best person and partner for me based on my authentic, true self. And You can also attract the person that is for you by being who you truly are too.

Dear Diary – Entry #3

6/3/2020 – 2nd day of a 7 day Releasing and Cleansing Bath Ritual

Meditated after finishing immersions. I the wanted to go to zero void, so I seek out the void and ended up at the dark throne outside the universe. My skin was blue black and I was humongous. My body became All. I can see the arm of the dark throne threw my arm and can see the outline of my arm at the same time. My arm and legs body was one with the universe. My body was reflective of the universe. I was the universe and the universe was me….One. Then I decided to get up and walk around the throne to explore the area because I never have. I’ve always come to the dark throne and just sat on it but since I was controlling this meditation I decided to explore. The ground was dark and rocky, like a dessert rocky terrain. Standing behind the throne I could see the explosions happening in the far off distance of the universe. Then I kicked the dark throne and saw that it sat on top of a dark rocky sphere as it moved away from me. The force from the kick forced me backwards into a white space beyond the void that was the beginning point of the universe. In this white space it wasn’t really white, it’s staticky like a black and white tv. As I looked closer the static is 0 1 code moving rapidly. “See through the code”, just like Neo in the matrix. See the space within the space. I started to see my universe body as atoms, the space with the space. The code that creates all. As I pulled myself back into the void I could see the code that made up the universe. The white space behind me appeared as a bright room behind a “curtain of universe”. As I turned away the curtain closed showing me that I got to see behind the veil. I could see the code in the universe explosions. I used my hand to push on the code and thought mountain and out came a mountain. I pushed on the code in another place, thought Eiffel tower and saw the Eiffel tower. I called on the guardian of the dark throne and saw he was made of the “guardian” code. Then I went to earths sun and saw the code that made up the sun. Then I wanted to see the code of earth and saw the barrier around earth and noticed dark 0s & 1s in the code and started to remove them or tap them to turn gold. Then I wanted to see myself and see my code. I came upon myself in the tub and thought “see the code” and I code see dark 0s & 1s in parts of my aura. So I decided to do a scan to remove the dark codes and as I started to remove the dark codes and tap some to turn gold it was like a warning alarm went off. A swirl of dark grayish black spiral swirl of matter began flowing out of me. My body started to tingle and I started to feel fear. So I forced myself to not fall into fear and retreat. As I stayed in the moment I was being forced by this grayish matter to come out of meditative state. The alarm red color started to overcome me as the gray black matter spread so wide it blocked me from seeing myself in the tub. My third eye started to glitch. So I grabbed hold of the gray black matter and started to pull it off of me and slung it beyond the barrier of earth. Then I went back to myself and pulled off a layer of gray matter off my aura and threw it beyond the barrier. Then I started to tap gold the dark 0 & 1 codes, “turn gold”. Then I started to feel tingly in my shoulders and back of neck. I went in and pulled from the back of my neck where the bone protrudes a scorpion 🦂 looking parasite from there. I smashed it in my hands and threw it beyond the barrier. I finished turning my aura gold then I made myself invisible. I checked my invisibility status several times and I could not see myself but could see the bathtub with the water, the candle and crystals there. I left myself and went beyond the barrier, grabbed the gray black matter, gray matter and the parasite and threw it in the sun to dissolve it. Then I went back to the dark throne, checked in on myself and I was still invisible. Could only see the tub and what not. Then I started saying OM internally in the tub to solidify the cleanse, said thank you and came back to.

Sister Energies

During a meditation last night, I was told by Sekhmet and Inanna to find their sisters. I’ve been trying to figure out how this information related to me. Being told by both to find their sisters, then pulling oracle cards as an added confirmation gave me the connection I needed. See, I’ve been pulling Work Your Light “Sisterhood of the Rose” oracle card for months now and I initially thought I was being pushed to start a “sisterhood” of like minded women in the 3D and that could be the case. But when it comes to spiritual matters there’s always levels of understanding. The level of sisterhood revealed to me last night has to do with my primordial self, my highest of highs self.

The Rose is the symbol for Venus due to its orbit pattern resembling a rose

To set the scene for this epiphany, I need to take you back to 2018. I was initiated by Sekhmet in Nov 2018 during a meditation and I was initially initiated as her daughter. I’ll write about that experience in a separate blog at a later time, because it was wild! Since that initiation I’ve been trying to understand the next course of action I’m supposed to take with Sekhmet. Then, 2 weeks ago I did a Sekhmet guided meditation and I was taken to the desert, to her temple within the Temple of Karnak. While in her presence I was told that I was her and she is me. We are the same energy, the same blood, we are sisters. A course I was puzzled by this and asked Sekhmet how am I a sister but was a daughter last year. Her reply was that I have graduated to sister because I’ve grown so much into my true self since then. After asking Sekhmet some more questions, she told me to have a ceremony at 2:22am the next night; which fell on May 7th the Flower Full Moon. I was directed to wear a gold jewel over my 3rd eye region, a red dress, the same oil I put in my spiritual bath, to burn the flowers from my spiritual bath and use the same crystals. The next night I woke up at 2:15am, got set up on my back porch in the cold of the night and followed through with the ceremony Sekhmet requested me to do. By embracing Sekhmet, I finally embraced the true me and now I am tasked with tying all of my lineage together.

Temple of Karnak
Pharaohs Temple

Last night during another Sekhmet guided meditation, I as Sekhmet attended a council meeting with the head Kemetian gods and goddesses. Present there was Osiris, Auset, Anubis, Maat, Horus, Thoth, Sebek and a monkey god. The meeting took place on a different plane within the Pharaohs Temple in Egypt. The room setting with myself and all the gods reminded me of the painting “Ancestors in Conference”. While at this meeting, Osiris states that the Anunnaki want to meet then the wall becomes the universe with the Milky Way ban in view. The universe connects with the fountain that is in the room and becomes a “universe” bridge and down the bridge comes Anu and Inanna. I couldn’t fully make out the face or body of Anu but knew it was him and I couldn’t fully see Inanna’s full face and length of her body but I knew it was her. As Inanna gets closer to the room I, Sekhmet, run over to her and yell “Sister” as we embraced in a joyous hug and smiled at each other. The union was as if we haven’t seen each other in a very, long time. Inanna is a beautiful black woman with green fluorescent reptilian eyes, and wavy 3C hair.

Anu begins to speak and states, “We are one in the same, given dominion over different regions. We need to make this known that we are one in the same. No pantheon/cluster of gods are better or greater than the other. It’s time to come together and let them know”. While Anu is speaking I, Sekhmet and Inanna are still holding hands and our outer appearance keep cycling between our original selves (Sekhmet with golden fur to black jaguar fur and Inanna with brown skin to green scaly reptilian skin) to metallic gold bodies. After Anu finishes his statement, I start hearing “find my sisters” over and over. Then as I saw the statement “daughters of Eve.” Then the imagery of the room changed and I was in a circle around Venus/Sun (it looked like Venus and the sun were one, cycling from red to yellow spewing out energetic flames) with my cosmic sisters. We were all holding hands and I had Inanna on my left and a Japanese goddess on my right. When the Japanese goddess first arrived to the room she was in the form of a dragon and I’m thinking how is holding hands going to work with her. Then she morphed into a woman dressed in red attire covering her breast area and a long slit skirt with her belly region exposed, a dangly bejeweled veil over her nose and mouth region, and a fanned out hair piece resembling sun rays. She reminded me of one of the Mortal Kombat girl fighters. Then as she approached the circle her attire turned white. Also, in the circle was Kali, the Jaguar Queen, Aphrodite and 2 others I couldn’t make out. As we’re holding hands, gold energy builds between our palms and in our heart region. Our clothes and hair are moving like we are in a high wind energy vortex created by us and the planet Venus.

After coming out of this amazing experience, I then began my challenge of finding my sisters. We are all one and the same. The same energy expressed differently from the divine creator…..making us sisters. Our sisterhood will tie together how the Anunnaki, Hindu Deities, Kemetic/Egyptian Deities, Aztec/Mayan Deities, Japanese Deities, Grecian Deities, etc are one in the same. A cluster of divine deities assigned to different regions of this Earth to influence, rule, mold, etc. as they saw fit. Depending on the region of “assignment” these deities either created the culture or absorbed into the culture. As we’ve seen in history, humans have a tendency to rename, adopt or eliminate deities to fit their agenda.

Inanna
Sekhmet

Dear Diary – Entry #2

The below drawing is my very first “journal” entry I made when I started writing down my thoughts and documenting my visions, dreams and meditations. I don’t know why I drew it, it was just something that came through while I was doodling trying to figure out what to start the notebook off with. After I was done drawing it made complete sense that it represented me at that moment.

12/4/2016

Drawing Analysis: I was thinking Jupiter but drew Saturn and this mix up happens all the time with me regarding these planets. Later I would learn about the significance of both planets in relation to myself and their interactions with each other. Jupiter being the benevolent planet and Saturn being the malevolent planet. Polarities, Enki and Enlil.

Moon and sun being polarities and very prominent in my being. I’m a solar creature but also a moon child. I gain my power and stability from both the sun and the moon. I absorb the sun for my physical nutrients and the moon for my spiritual nutrition. Moon being feminine and the sun being masculine, magnetic and electric selves represented.

The star is my 3rd eye and I drew both physical eyes and 3rd eye wide open which they’ve always been.

My mind (upper self) on the stars, the universe, the heavenly bodies. My mouth (lower self) in paradise, exploring nature and speaking with the natural orders.

The Space Between Us

Dark matter, the unseen cosmic web of the universe.

Space is a play on our senses and perception. The shortest distance between two objects is a straight line, a direct path. The area between those 2 objects is called space. From what we’ve been taught in school and generally in society is that space is an empty open area, nothing special about it at all. Air fills the open area between objects on land and in lakes and oceans water fills in the open area between objects. Flat out, we were taught wrong! Not per se on purpose but due to no one ever wondering what the space between us really is. Assumptions were made, majority of the population agreed to them and it became a fact that space is open area. But now scientist have discovered that there is something that makes up the space between us. To better understand this concept of what space truly is we have to look at it in the perspective of “as above so below, as within so without”.

As above so below, as within so without is a very simple way of understanding how we work as humans within this universe. We as humans are a smaller version of the universe. I will not dive into this concept right now, but I will use the general overlay to explain my thoughts on the space between us. The human body is made up of cells and when those cells are differentiated, they create our organs. Those organs then operate off of the nervous system to perform their duties voluntary and involuntary. With each organ, tissue and cell coming together and working in complete harmony, they create a functioning human body. Now, what is holding all these cells, tissues, and organs in place in the body? Why aren’t they moving all freely around in us? Well, the organs in our bodies are held together by a web of connective tissues, which keeps our organs from moving out of place. Cells forming tissues are held together by cell to cell adhesion called gap junctions, which are proteins that bond the cells together. This allows fluidity to occur and the perception of solidarity. The human body doesn’t have space or open areas in it, ever crevice is filled with some type of fluid, gas or connective tissues. Even when we think there’s space somewhere in the body, for example our intestines, it is occupied with gas.

The universe is just like the structuring of the human body, regarding there are no open areas. Scientist called the area outside and surrounding Earth outer space because that’s what their senses perceived the areas as. Through their own eyes and telescopes, they saw long distances of open space between stars, planets and galaxies and assumed that the space was empty. But that perception has changed with the use of telescopes that use higher frequencies of the electromagnetic spectrum that fall outside of the visible light spectrum range.

Electromagnetic Spectrum is the range of frequencies of electromagnetic radiation and their respective wavelengths and photon energies.

Visible light is a very, very tiny section on the electromagnetic spectrum, so any frequency above the color purple and below the color red we cannot see with our 2 physical eyes. When scientist started using frequencies outside of the visible light spectrum range, they started to be able to see the universe in a whole new way. Dark areas of space actual had stars, black holes became visible and the open areas between objects are actually connected by a web of material they call “dark matter”. Since scientists don’t know how it works, what its made of or really anything about it they named it dark matter. Not only is dark matter invisible to our senses, it doesn’t operate like any other material known. Objects move freely through it like its not even there and it doesn’t reflect but absorbs energy like a black hole. Scientist via the CERN project began performing experiments on dark matter and recently discovered that within dark matter is dark energy aka the “God Particle”. These scientist are correlating dark energy to the beginning of All and I agree. Their search for answers is bringing them closer to understanding truth and they haven’t even realized it yet.

While studying the mystical kabbalah a particular lesson stood out to me, the lesson on the decision of Creator Source to start creating and experiencing. Creator Source couldn’t just create from itself to experience because then it would have say so in everything created under it. It would know every move, thought and direction beforehand because that’s what Creator Source is, nothing and everything…..the see all, know all, is all. So, to truly be able to experience, Creator source had to create separately from itself, hence the creation of the void. And how do we know this? Through symbolism and the symbol that holds this magnificent truth (drum roll)…..the Target sign, which is the dot within 2 circles. The information I received during an alpha wave deep thought session explains the symbol as such; the outer circle being Creator Source, the inner circle being the space between Creator Source and the dot represents the void. The space between Creator Source and the void; which all creation was created from, is dark matter the unseen web that connects all.

Target symbol – a dot within 2 circles

The space between me and an object or person or animal is a false perception to make us seem separate from each other. Dark matter connects us metaphysically but separates us perspectively. The unseen web of dark matter is our connection to each other, to all things and to the Creator Source.

Dear Diary – Entry #1

After receiving several pushes and confirmations, I’m finally acknowledging that I’m being led to start sharing my personal experiences while meditating, in dream states, astral travels, etc. to provide personal accounts of being a spiritual being and striving to be in tune with your true nature. The experiences I share are just that, my experiences and shouldn’t be used as a comparison tool for yourself or others to judge and evaluate your own personal experiences and encounters. We are all of source and we are purposely living lives as individuals to develop our own perspective and point of view regarding life as a spiritual being living a human existence. My goal is to provide a perspective of an individual learning about her multi-dimensional self, her lineage and her purpose while here on Earth.

Dear Diary – 11/25/17 Meditation, Listened to Open Balance Chakras, Heal and Sleep – Jason Stephenson YouTube Video

This meditation session I decide to do laying in my bed. I follow the spoken mediation and begin aligning my chakras and could visualize the colors, but unlike last time I performed this mediation the swirls and spinning of the chakra colors are dancers and ice skaters in sparkly dresses.

• Flamingo dancer – red – root. • Flamingo dancer – orange – sacral. • Ice skater – yellow – solar. • Ice skater – dark green – heart. • Ice skater – Ice blue – throat. • Dancer w/ long velvet sparkly cape – indigo – 3rd eye. Crown – A volcano inside a ground skull opens and purple lava fills the skull then the skull closes. Then all the chakras combine into a thick smoke of the colors blending from red all the way up to purple. Then white light sparking like a 4th of July sparkler starts encasing me and filling my veins with this electric white light. Then the image of the meditating person with each colored chakra in a sitting position appears as myself and the white light completely surrounds the image.

While laying down on my bed, the bed becomes whiteness and I can see myself laying there from outside of myself watching in third person. The whiteness becomes snow and I’m completely covered in it and I begin to emerge up and through the snow. An all-white being emerges from my body and sits up. In the distance I see this being with long white blond hair, light green cat/reptilian eyes, a scrunched/rippled nose bridge and middle of forehead/3rd eye area like a cat’s face. It has on a white attire with broad, fanned out shoulder pads and he reminds me of the blond hair warrior elf from Lord of the Rings (it gives off a male vibe). The being has a staff, then no staff as he walks closer to me. I stand up and start wiping the snow off of me and the being signals that he wants to show me something. So, we started walking in the snow and at that time the only thing I could focus on was my feet and the snow, the area was so hazy and bright that my eyes didn’t want to adjust. The being was a very slow walker, like he was gliding with his strides. As my eyes started to adjust, I could see the being doing the “Vanna White” motions showing me the scenery. I see tall pine trees, mountains and a blue sky with white clouds. The sky is so blue and the air is so crisp, pure and smells like winter. Then we stop on the edge of a rock cliff and he does his Vanna White motion for me to look at a lake in the far-off distance. The scenario and lake reminded me of Lake Tahoe with the water being a deep dark blue surrounded by a shore of pine trees, rocks and snow-covered mountains. As the being turns to start walking me back, I forced myself to speak and ask, “who should I ask for guidance?” At that moment shadowy images with golden light emanating from behind them appeared in my mind. The Sphinx emerged from the shadowy image with Sekhmet behind the Sphinx. I tried to ask another question and was taken immediately out of meditative state.

I was in such awe that I just laid there on my bed in silence. Eventually I snapped back into this 3D realm, found my notebook and began writing and drawing so I could remember the experience, because I have a tendency to forget once I’m back in 3D. From doing searches on the internet, I concluded that the being is Lyran. The only possible reason I could think of as the reason for this encounter is because I’ve been asking for guidance and to know where I truly come from. I was answered and shown a place that felt very familiar and I was at peace there. I don’t know if this place was Vega or a different planet in the constellation of Lyra before it was destroyed or a different place all together. But I did give thanks to my guides for answering me and showing me proof that I’m not crazy for knowing that my soul isn’t of Earth.

The place I visited reminded me of this picture of Lake Tahoe
The cat-like humanoid being with blond hair and green cat/reptilian eyes
The shadowy Sphinx and Sekhmet images with golden light emanating behind them

Higher Heart – Amoraea Flame

Before you can activate your higher heart, you must:
❤️activate, release and clear out your baggage in your 7 body chakras
🧡work within your shadow self to dissolve your fears, traumas, etc. so you can develop a loving relationship with yourself. Literally start loving you and all that you are; the good, the bad and the ugly. The flaws and the successes.
💛connect/activate your earth chakra which is in the earth below your feet
💚connect/activate with your 8th chakra/soul chakra a couple of inches above your head

Once you activate your higher heart the Kryst consciousness will be able to flow through you and be connected to you once again with no filter. The higher heart is your direct connection back to source. You will no longer need anything or anyone as assistance or as a middle man to source. No magical practice, no deity, no shaman, NO ONE OR NOTHING❣️

https://www.sacredgemstone.com/blogs/crystal-healing-blog/higher-heart-chakra-activations

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Amoraea_Flame

It’s All Good

To focus on only positive energy and everything associated with positivity when you become conscious is a disservice to universal law. The uninverse is duality and to focus on only one aspect over another limits your ability to fully comprehend creation. It’s a nice concept to be positive all the time and think good thoughts and keep your vibes high to stay connected to your spirit guides and what not. But what are you supposed to do when you have a bad day and everything is going wrong? Fake your happiness, put on one of those smiling masks and half wit your way through the day? No!

Understanding divine law is very important and necessary when your conscious. Bad days will happen, you know why? Because good days happen. The key with either day is being grateful and staying mindful regardless of the type of day your having. More importantly, sometimes flipping off a driver that cut you off will do your soul better than acting like them cutting you off didn’t bother you at all. Healthy expressions of anger is needed, healthy expressions of cussing somebody out that deserves it is needed.

One thing I do admire from the Bible stories of Jesus is that he didn’t take no shit. When preachers would read some passages of the New Testament on the actions of Jesus, they seemed to down play them and make it seem like Jesus was sweet and nice all the time. But that’s definitely not the impression I got of Jesus from some stories, in particular these two.

Story 1: The story about Jesus raising Lazarus. Long story short, the reason Jesus waited to raise Lazarus was because he was busy. Even after being approached several times by friends and family of Lazarus, Jesus had his breaking point and ended up telling one lady off. I took that passage as him saying “Bi***, I’ll be there when I get there.” My interpretation is a little harsh but that’s how I interpreted it. Jesus didn’t stop the work he was doing for just one person even if it was his friend. He prioritized and made a decision to deal with something when he had the time to. Shoot, it wasn’t like Lazarus was going anywhere!

Story 2: The story about Jesus and the Temple. I absolutely loved this story as kid and greatly more as an adult. When Jesus came upon the Temple and the people were using it basically as a flea market. He flipped out and kicked all the people out the temple. In my head, I saw him flipping tables over, beating people with sticks, throwing stuff at people and so on. Jesus was not about being disrespected or having places connected to him disrespected either.

Being able to accept the good and bad, positive and negative in your life and more importantly, in yourself is one of the greatest accomplishments one can achieve while walking the conscious path.

Angels in Disguise

This blog is going to be all over the place. I’m more so collecting my thoughts, information and visions all in one space to share with others and to also help myself figure this subject all out. 

This Nipsey Hussle murder has really done a number on me. Not for the reasons that so many people display on social media because they knew him, his music and community activism. See, I didn’t know Nipsey, didn’t know any of his Music or about his community activism, I knew nothing of him. I’ve seen photos of him solo or with Laura London on Facebook a couple of times but that’s it. So, I’ve been asking myself since his murder happened, “why am I affected by this, why am I drawn to this person and this unfortunate event?” The answer I received and the way I received it was oddly put together, but I got the answers I was seeking.

Monday, April Fool’s Day, was another day of following the Nipsey tragedy on Facebook. That night I decided to do my nightly cleansing bath and I was looking for one of my favorite YouTube meditation videos, but all these angel and light worker videos showed up on my YouTube feed. I kept swiping past them not paying those videos any mind, then I came across a new guy, Enoch The Freestyle Prince who popped up on my feed. I’ve never watched a video of his, so I found it odd that the number of videos from him was saturating my feed. I finally stopped at one of his videos because the title jumped out to me and the video was called gang stalking. I knew that this person had to be a “woke” person because I don’t watch crap on this YouTube account and the title gang stalking seemed out of place because I mentally tied it to gangs. Surprisingly, the video was about him talking about lightworkers/angels being stalked by demons in plain sight aka gang stalking. Watching this guy speak, I was taken back by the way he talked and how he looked because he was very hood, very street but he was talking about something so spiritual and obviously was familiar with the topic from his own experience. To see someone so street but in tuned was shocking to me at first but then I felt guilty because angels come through in any avenue we can to help bring forth the greater good and sustain balance. The guy went on to list ways to notice when you are being gang stalked, for example; you could be walking down the street and a person could be walking towards you and they just begin to stare at you. The staring makes you uncomfortable because this person is deliberately staring you down for no apparent reason. He is saying that this is a demon taking notice of you and keeping an eye on you. This video hit home on so many different levels but to stay on topic with Nipsey, he just kept mentioning angels and lightworkers interchangeably and it made me think that maybe this is how Nipsey was. Nipsey was very street and a former gang banger, so maybe this was a glimpse into his world. The thought of Nipsey being a “woke” person and falling into this group of street level spirituality that knew of themselves and the happenings in this world. But once again I was going to be schooled on my skewed thought process later that night. 

After watching the gang stalking video, I went on Facebook and a video was on my feed of an interview Nipsey did. To be honest I can’t remember exactly what the video was about, but it showed a RIP with his birthday being August 15, 1985 and instantly I heard a voice in my head say “He was apart of your soul group.” I immediately was saddened and taken back but still didn’t understand what that meant. I’ve ran across people with a birthday around mine, even on the same day of August 16 and felt no connection to them at all. So, learning that Nipsey and I shared a portal/zodiac around the same time of birth opened my eyes up to the significance of soul groups but gave me more questions on what exactly a “soul group” was. I’ve read articles about finding your soul group, plus, I thought finding someone from your soul group would be people I would actually encounter in real life. Then it made me wonder, well what soul group am Nipsey and I apart of? And why was I told this.

After my cleansing bath, I went to bed with the gang stalking video, Nipsey, his birthday of August 15 and the message “our soul group” on the brain. So rather than ponder on this by myself, I asked for better understanding on why Nipsey’s murder has taken a toll on me and what all this information I just learned meant. Well, the saying is “be careful of what you ask for” because I got my answer. While sleeping I started having a “dream” and in this dream I knew Nipsey. In my dream he looked different but familiar and the familiarity was more of a feeling of knowing him than how he actually looked. While I was near him, he grabbed my hand and started to beam, light up, his soul shine through and levitate. He was an “angel” and when I saw that he was “angel” I kind of came out of the dream but went back in because the revelation was so strong. I started to cry and mourn when I realized what he was and that I was like him. I was saddened, my heart was heavy, and I started rolling back and forth in my bed because of the burden of knowing who he truly was, why he was really killed and the multiple agendas that were fulfilled by killing him and more importantly; the connection between myself and him. This dream was another awakening to learn about myself and why I’m here on Earth currently. I could no longer deny the things I’ve been shown about myself prior to Nipsey’s death and the effect his death has had on me in the dream and in my waking life.  It’s to the point that I started writing this blog the week of his death and was side tracked by work and life but completing it has been pulling at me to get it done. My experiences and my knowings must be shared, not for me or for Nipsey but to make it known that what we are taught about “angels” from religion, scholar studies or from so-called personal encounters are very skewed. 

This may not be new information, but I’ll start off with it to make a general point on how confused people have become running with these tales from the past. First off, angles don’t have wings like a bird. Angels were depicted like that in art and sculptures because humans couldn’t comprehend a person taking flight like a bird without wings, so to describe a person that was “heavenly” that could fly they drew angels in human form with wings to depict their capability of flying. Also, angles aren’t human, they’re celestial energy or celestial light beings and that energy takes on a body just like any other soul or energy that incarnates on Earth. With that said, celestial energy can incarnate into a human at different stages of the human body. Celestials can be incarnated via the birth of a baby or take on a human form during a quick visit based on who they’re interacting with. Regardless of when and which form we take, the common denominator will be that we won’t fit in to the society norms, even when we try and even when we look the part our energy will always give us away. Our talents, thoughts and the way we move on this Earth will always stand out even when we try to hide and stay low key. The so-called lime light or center of attention will always find us. People, animals, and nature will gravitate towards us and so will the negative energies and entities. We carry the foundational light codes of the universe which are the codes of divine truth, divine balance and the divine laws. When we are in flesh we feel and experience emotions just like everyone else, but we are capable of moving those emotions to the side to do what is just. I say just because there isn’t really a right and wrong or good and bad in the universe, there’s only just according to divine law.

I used to ask at a very young age, why did bad things happen in this world. But as a child I was looking at that question from a religious point of view and how religion teaches people about good and evil. I remember as a child, I would have disassociations after bad things would happen to me and a voice would always try to comfort me saying it was supposed to happen. I would become angry and even more upset because I knew deep down due to me being claircognizant, I know everything happenfor a reason but why was it happening to me. Those reasons would always reveal themselves as the karmic balance was restored after a “bad” event. I’ve always been able to see the truth in all events, good or bad. Ive always been able to see the order out of the chaos and one of the main laws the universe is bound by is karma. Yes, seeing people even children dying in wars is terrible but out of that chaos order will arise. In people’s limited understanding and scope of the world, humans aren’t able to see pass their emotions so war will always be bad or an evil thing to them. But as Ive heard mention in several tv shows and movies, war is a necessary evil. After every war of chaos, order will be restored, of course until the next war of chaos occurs to restore divine balance somewhere else on Earth, or in the galaxy and the universe.

So remember, celestials walk amongst us, celestials are humans in a fleshly disguise so be mindful of how you treat others because angels/celestials are directly linked to the creator. Through karmic law humans are tried and tested through the celestials interacting with them. When you encounter people, always go by that person’s vibe or energy, that’s how you’ll know if you’re interacting with a celestial being. Their energy will be magnetize you and fill you with joy and hope!

 

Complacency: Reflections of Self

After achieving what I thought I should as an adult, all those “accomplishments” lead to deep heart ache, pain, unhappiness and finding myself feeling empty, unsatisfied and alone.

After several months of being stuck in a void and I’m using the word void because I wasn’t sad or depressed, but I was in a state of emotionless. While in this void, my mind was on constant repeat, thinking the same thoughts over and over again. What am I doing wrong? How am I 34 and I don’t have anything together? Why do I feel so lost? While away on a trip I discovered several different topics and articles on Facebook that kept catching my interest. Figured if something keeps popping up I need to start paying attention to it. This began my journey into the unknown….. so I thought.

This journey of self-love, inner-peace, becoming spiritually in tune to my real self. The real Me and not who I think I should be, or who I thought I should be as a child or even when I thought I was in college, and definitely not who society says I should be. More importantly, not who my mom or my family think I should be or should have been.

My mind works differently from most, I noticed this at an early age. Always questioning life, rules, nature, adults and authority. Never took answers at face value and always wanted to learn beyond the surface. My mind sees disorder, chaos, things out of place and automatically starts analyzing and correcting them. I always thought it was my OCD until it enhanced my career by finding the flaws in a facility and their programs and on a personal level giving great advice. Unfortunately, it also gives off the persona of a “know it all” or always having something to say. Had to learn with maturity when to speak my truth and when to let people figure it out on their own. More importantly, not beat myself up when they fail or don’t figure it out. I’m a fixer by nature but everything and everyone doesn’t want to be fixed. Sometimes its best for things and people to stay broken. Can’t save the world by draining myself in the process. Learned to pick my battles so I can have successful wars.

Xtina

Looking at the moon and knowing there’s more to life than what’s on this planet  helps to keep me going. Looking up at the sky always calmed me and helped me keep all worries in my mind at bay. Looking up instantly brings a “home” feeling to my soul. 

I always wondered if the universe was just one big brain because the galaxies look like nerve ends and synopsis connections. So many of the astral forms in space reflect cells and connective tissues like in our bodies. Is the universe a living organism just like us?! Can this be a question or a statement?! 

The moon feels like love when I see her and sun warms me like an embrace from a man that I’ve been desiring for like ever. My heart and soul lies with the stars. I’m drawn to the X in the sky and have been drawned to it ever since I could remember. In high school I named the X in the sky Xtina. Never knew my X in the sky was a constellation,  pointed to Sirius A or housed the Orion Nebula. First time I saw this nebula I fell in love and was submerged in a feeling of wonder. Being drawn to the X in the sky was finally making sense. Home are we?!