It’s like no matter how well things have been going in my life or how well my days have been, I can’t fight the feeling of loneliness. I’ve been fighting this feeling for as long as I can remember, stemming all the way back to early childhood. I can remember being at family events and having no desire to interact with my cousins. I would find a spot in the corner and listen to the adults talk and sometimes interject my thoughts catching them off guard. Mainly, because I was child with intelligent answers to adult’s troubling questions, but more so because I was always around adults and really never with kids. I felt children were beneath me and I didn’t care for the silliness and young mindedness of them. All thoughts of a 4 yr old self. So I truly feel my disconnect with this world started before my time here but I’ll save that for another time.
Sadly, I can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely and left out. I just can’t truly connect with people and I don’t understand why. I’ve learned to entertain small talk and being a jokester at heart, I can keep a convo going but the feeling of loneliness never subsides. What is preventing me from connecting with people beyond the surface? Why can’t I have the same type of dialogues I have with myself in my own head with real people?
Since I’m always feeling disconnected from the 3D world and more in tune with the 4D and up worlds it affects my state of happiness in 3D. It’s like I can only stay happy for so long then the feeling of loneliness creeps back in, my mood changes and my vibes drop low. It’s a challenge everyday to keep my frequencies up. Being thankful and grateful for what I do have and don’t have helps, but then there’s days when I just have to let the loneliness win and let it run its course. Try not to attach to the feelings since they aren’t truly coming from me.
Feeling loneliness and disconnect for no reason at all are true signs that this matrix is doing its job. While here on this 3D plane we are bombarded with frequencies, images, music and chemicals that cause disharmony, self-doubt, loneliness, self-esteem issues and fear. Honestly, feeling these feelings is a reminder that we are separated from the Divine and need to find our way back. Back to oneness, wholeness and the dissolution of separation. People who can relate to what I’m talking about, knows these feelings and how out of place they are majority of the time. So, for those that know these feelings be grateful that you feel them because they are your reminder that you’re not of this world and just a visitor as well. Because in reality we are not alone or lonely, just stuck in our root chakra aka our lower self. We get stuck in this chakra by all those negative outside factors the matrix constantly bombards us with. Once you realize that the feeling of separation and loneliness is an illusion, you will start to work on yourself and finding your way back to the Divine.
You do this by learning your self through your own eyes and experiences. Removing the labels and goals that people placed on you all your life and finding your true and genuine likes and dislikes. Carving your own way within society or outside of society to get to the core of who you truly are. Showing gratitude in all that has happened to you and will continue to happen to you. By being on this internal quest for your true self, the rest of your chakras will ignite and open. Creating a bridge for the Divine to make its presents known in you and your surroundings. Raising your spirit’s frequencies so the Divine can lower itself aka your higher self aka your soul into your vessel, so you can operate in the material and spiritual realms….. the mundane and the quantum successfully! The way these physical vessels were originally created to be, portals between the material and spiritual.
With tuning yourself into the Divine, this opens you up to seeing the truth in all and the truth outside of this 3D matrix that is hidden from you. Seeing the truth of who you are, the magic encased in you and your power through your magic that can be used in the material and the spiritual realms. So,let the loneliness be your reminder that you are more than just this meat suit!
*PS – take all that resonates with you and leave what doesn’t.
I’ve never spoke on ancestor veneration or praising my ancestors while walking this spiritual path because I didn’t see how it pertained to me. I never understood why it was needed. Being a Christian damn near all my life tainted my view on all things spiritual. Even with all the things I have experienced and all the powers I have access to now, I was still looking at my path still through a Christian lense. Not fully able to see my ancestors as positive entities and energy that was supposed to be praised and acknowledged. Unable to truly experience divinity, because I didn’t see my ancestors as the key to my past, present and future. Yes, they have spoken to me, attended spiritual rites that occurred to me in the astral and on other realms, given me insight on my mom and sister, but never once did I truly feel I needed this connection with them to excel in life. I didn’t grow up in a household where we even acknowledged our ancestors or recently passed relatives, so including it now wasn’t understood or familiar.
After researching Ifa and Hoodoo, it became clear to me why ancestor veneration was a requirement for these practices. My genetics is the key to all and that key wouldn’t have been made available to me if they didn’t come before me. Knowing I come from a lineage of priestesses and priest, how can I excel and reawaken this in our family if I don’t stand on the shoulders of the ones that came before me and are excited that I’m here to finally put our lineage back on track. I’m not only powerful but my children are powerful. How can I truly help them mold their gifts if I don’t first call on the ones before us that contributed to the potency of our gifts. We are powerful and tapped in because the knowledge was already inscripted in our DNA before we even got here.
So, a couple of days ago I sat down at the altar I put together a year or so ago and spoke to my ancestors. They came through and told me how they want their altar to look and the items they wanted included. Yesterday, I was finally able to make it to my favorite witchy supply store aka Dollar Tree and get some supplies. This morning I set up my ancestor altar in a separate space from my working altar. Laid the lace, goblet of water, cup of fruit, my maternal grandma’s favorite cookies and placed 3 photos. Lit my white candle and asked for their assistance throughout the day and in return offered myself to be of assistance to them.
Back story, butterflies are my mom’s side of the family totem. The story is when my grandad/mother’s dad was lowered into the ground a sworn of butterflies appeared and surrounded everyone. So, butterflies were incorporated into everything from that day forward. I even have 3 butterflies tattooed on me. But ever since I had my falling out with my mom, my association with butterflies has been a little tainted. But this morning, when I was getting in my car to take my daughter up to the bus stop, I noticed a white bug on my seat. Thrown back but calm surprisingly, I looked closer and noticed it was a very furry white spotted moth. Absolutely gorgeous and stunning to see! Reminded me of those cute moths I’ve seen posted on Pinterest. So beautiful it could of been mistaken for a butterfly. I’ve never seen a moth like this before, but instantly knew it was from my ancestors. Just that quickly I knew that I was on the right track with making the changes to create an altar specifically for them and incorporating them into my spiritual life properly.
Knowing that this moth was a gift, I was going to gently ease it off my seat and guide it to leave out of the car. But when I went to nudge it, it just rolled to its side. Due to running behind and not having the time to see if it was dead or not, I collected it in a box and placed it in my garage just in case it was still alive. With all signs I receive, did a google search to see what the spiritual meaning might be on my way to work. With discernment came across some info that best resonated with me. “A white moth is said to embody the soul of a loved one. White being the symbolic color of purity of the soul, and the embodiment comes from an ancient idea that the night (realm of the moth) is a dwelling place for souls (in terms of the Underworld or Otherworld).” “Moths represent transformation, hidden knowledge, inner wisdom, psychic abilities, and shadow work. They are connected to the moon, feminine and yin energies, and intuitive discoveries. They show up to help you discover your hidden desires and awaken to your true self.” https://crystalclearintuition.com/moth-meaning/
In typical mystical fashion, when I got home the moth was no longer in the box or showed any signs of being in the garage. Even checked the garage at night to see if I could find it active but nothing. Glad to see it was still alive but sad to see it wasn’t there so I could admire its beauty.
This week has been a hectic one to say the least. I’ve been dealing with a neighbor issue and it escalated to the point where I went out and got a bat, pepper spray, stun gun and cameras. See, I know who I am and the power that I hold. But never once do I ever forget that I still have to function and make moves in this 3D mundane world. Accepting who and what I am has heightened me to no longer stand for anyone’s bullshit against me, my kids, my family or the things I value in this life. I’ve tapped into several past lives as a male warrior, military ops marksmen, warrior priestesses, warrior princess and several assassin runs on this realm, other realms, planets and dimensions. All I have to do is allow that fury and rage to rise and all I need to know and do will activate.
You may wonder if all of my blogs are about metaphysics, estoteric knowledge, spirituality and magic, why did I run out and get physical things to deal with my neighbor? Oh good question and the answer is I handled it in 2 ways! Firstly, I handled it metaphysically with magic then like I stated, I know I have to function in the 3D mundane, so I got some tools to throw down in the 3D if need be. Best believe I covered my bases. I don’t typically work with the dark arts, but if I have to due to being threatened I will. Threw they asses in a shit and piss jar and been shitting on them ever since they brought this mess to me!
The only reason I’m writing this blog is to let people know that claiming who you truly are spiritually, magically, etc isn’t for fakers and wannabes! You know the ones that as soon as some real shit come up in they life they completely forget who they are, their ancestors, the protection work and the tools they naturally have access to to take care of their problems in the unseen. Not once did I think “oh no, what am I going to do, or should I take their threats seriously or not, or maybe I should just call the police and let them handle it, or maybe if I ignore them and act like their words don’t hurt me they’ll stop”. Man Fuck That and that’s the same thing I told my husband when he didn’t want me to get all gangsta on they ass lol. I’m no punk in the higher realms or on this one. I cast first and ask questions later!
So best believe before I left my house today I stood in front of my altar and asked my ancestors and dragons to be with me as I put on my Eye of Ra necklace, put pepper spray in one pocket, and the taser in the other. Had my bat in the front seat of my car and my gun on the car door, because I am licensed to carry. Chitty, chitty bang bang only if my life and others are depending on it. I Don’t just Talk About It, I Be About It! Even though, they didn’t try me today doesn’t mean I let down my guard and not be ready to get down tomorrow or the next day. But even if they never step to me again, my workings are still doing their job in the unseen. Once again, bases covered!
When I was younger, I used to be offended when someone called me Black. First off, I’m nowhere close to the color black. I’m caramel brown, so how did anyone even associate me with that color. But as I got older and learned that it was a “race” I didn’t get offended anymore. Then the term African-American started to gain traction and that term really irritated me. I wasn’t from Africa, none of my family was from Africa and everyone I knew that was from Africa had a completely different bone structure and features then someone from the States. I didn’t get how black people in Africa related to black people in the States. We looked completely different. Yes, you can reference slavery but the reality of the situation doesn’t add up. Especially, when black people were here way before white people came to this continent. The term African-American and a complete distraction ploy!
Everything I stated above I would never say out loud to anyone. I’ve always kept those types of thoughts to myself. But now, that I’m older, more knowledgeable and self-aware, I’ll gladly state how I feel about these subjects to anyone that ask. I was never the type to just go along with what people told me or whatever a teacher taught me in school or college. I always questioned authority, questioned information that didn’t make sense to me and looked things up for myself. Especially, knowing that people don’t just flat out lie, they’ll tell half truths or tweak things to fit their narrative. And being called black didn’t make sense to me and where the term began I cannot find searching the internet. They claim it was used when the census began but Black people have been called black for a very long time. Way before the census started.
But why Black? Why call all darker pigment people they claim have “African descent” or a person that has “a drop of black blood, Black? There are Middle Eastern and Indian people (from the country India) that have darker skin than most Black people, but they aren’t labeled as Black. Why is that? Why call only “African descent” people Black? Where did that term even come from? Yes, you can find statements online of white people saying that they started calling us Black because of how dark our skin was when they raided Africa. But I don’t believe that, because not all “Black” people have dark skin. Black people can be as light as a Scandinavian woman and as dark as the legendary blue-black skin people in Africa. Or Black people can have red toned, copper and caramel complexion to olive colored skin. So why call all these different skin toned people “Black”.
My opinion and only logical reasoning I’ve concluded, is that the racial term “Black” was a leaked term from a government official or a higher up (a key being with rulership authority on this realm from the Draconians) during a conversation with someone that spread the term or purposely leaked it. I say Black was a leaked term because, the higher ups of this realm know who we are, but we don’t. The higher ups have a system in place that classifies all persons labeled as Black based on their genetics as soon as they are born. They classify us to the masses as “Black” but Black is short for Black Extraterrestrial. Sounds crazy, right? But it’s not! Our 3D genetics are completely different from human beings and mankind humans on this realm. If you don’t understand why I’m separating out Black people from the rest of races on Earth, then you should use logic and see that we didn’t separate ourselves out, society did. There’s a reason why Blacks are a target, the most hated race all over the world and the race most subjected to negativity. We didn’t separate us, the higher ups did.
From birth we are dumb down and targeted to keep us from coming into our true nature and fully expressing our 3 strand genetics. Yes, Black people have 3 strands of genetics not 2! We aren’t segregated from the rest of the people on this realm by choice, we are just different. A completely different being than everybody else and our genetic differences are hidden so the lie the higher ups have pushed since they invaded this realm can stay alive. And that key difference is a threat to the higher ups and threat to the lies they feed to everyone including Black people. And because everything has multiple meanings, classifying us as Black is also a very creative way for the higher ups of this realm to try to avoid karma from all the atrocities they’ve done on this realm. I say this because this is the higher ups key go to tactic. They tell us their agenda and their cruel sick intentions all the time through movies, tv shows, music, etc., so they can try to avoid karma when they do terrible stuff to the masses. Terrible things like mass killings for rituals, lie constantly to us through the media, rape and murder the innocent, body snatch people and so on. They justify their actions and try to avoid karma on a technicality. “Well, technically we did tell them, it’s not our fault they didn’t believe us.” Calling us Black is no different. On a technicality, they’re telling us who we are and what we’re capable of when they call us Black. It’s not their fault we don’t believe what some enlightened teachers have been trying telling us for years about ourselves. Even though, the higher ups have a full blown assault plan to discredit any teacher, public speaker, celebrity, scientist, etc. that teaches Black people who they truly are. But technically when they call us Black, they’re telling us who we are!
Black people are beyond something special. The earth adores us, the sun loves us, the birds sing to us, the elements wait on our commands and the heavens aka the cosmos look like us. Because, black people are so special the rest of world dislikes us. “How one man can have all that power” as Kanye West would say. Its unfathomable that us, black people the “one man” in that statement can have all this power. But we do and no one can take it from us. They can manipulate us, program us, attack us, even kill us, but we will continue to rise and excel above any trap they lay before us. If adaptability was personified it would be Black people. We are able to adapt, adjust and rise above all because WE ARE ALL!
Calling us Black comes from what the government actually classifies us as, which is Black Extraterrestrials. The greatness and uniqueness of black people comes from the fact that we are not from this planet, not even from this universe. Black Extraterrestrials is a classification the government has given us due to only one main extraterrestrial race they want to keep track of coming to this planet and that’s the Anunnaki. Yes, the government and the higher ups of this world are control freaks and they have all people on this earth tracked and monitored, but not to bust anyone’s bubble but all the tracking and monitoring they have in place is to keep an eye on the Black Extraterrestrials that incarnate here. If the government only showed that they cared about one race here on this planet, it would seem odd. But in that same breath, the government does seem to have it out for one particular race, don’t they! If you take that thought up a notch, it seems like all word governments have it out for Black people. Is that a coincidence? No, there are no coincidences. When we incarnate they want to keep us docile and sleep by giving us “vaccines”, placing the electrical grid over the atmosphere to diffuse out frequencies from our ancestors, program us and constantly attack us with low vibrational frequencies, etc., so we don’t come into our natural gifts and powers. Definitely, not remember how they did our ancestors when they warred with them to take this planet.
The “Great Awakening” that so many white people rallied for when Trump was office and the Q movement was pushing has been hijacked and the actuality of it manipulated to become a human race thing. Now it’s even twisted into a false narrative that every person walking this planet is a human being and is becoming awakened and aware to the higher ups evilness and blah blah blah. But the truth of the matter is, the Great Awakening is about black people waking up to who they truly are and breaking free of the traps and programming that are in place against us. Remembering who we are as galactic beings, the powers and gifts we hold and assisting this planet with breaking free as well, so she can rise vibrationally and get the parasite higher ups off and out of her.
Now, when someone calls you Black or you have to check a racial classification box labeled “Black” on an application, do it with pride and with deep inner standing that the government knows who you are and now you do too! As always, peocesywhat I’ve written with your full discernment and inner standing. Take what resonates with you and leave what doesn’t.
I’m sharing a dream premonition I had 2 weeks ago. Unfortunately, I’m sharing it way after the fact but every time I have a major download my life gets busy. It’s the matrixes way of distracting me. The good thing is I’m aware to it now, so I’m better at getting the messages out no matter what. Better late than never I say. This is my first extraterrestrial arrival dream and I feel privileged to be chosen with this experience.
I was in a campus cafeteria that had a eating/sitting area that looked like the Pittsburgh International Airport dining area with the long window in the back so you can see the runway. There were small groups of tables spread out along the window in a checker board pattern. I was browsing through the food stations, which resembled a buffet style set up. But I ended up at the slushie machine, because I didn’t want anything to eat. While browsing I was talking to the people I was with but I don’t remember what was being said or what they looked like other than a guy and a girl that was white with blond hair. I was at the slushee machine filling up my cup and the machine was acting stupid and splattered slushee all down the sides of my cup. Even though I was there with people I knew, for some reason after I got my slushee I was sitting at a table with a white man in front of me I didn’t know. He kept talking about how aliens aren’t real, how people are stupid for believing they are, how he’s not listening to these news people, and why all of sudden are they saying they’re real because they’re not. He was annoying me and I was thinking the whole time while he was talking, “just wait and see” while licking the sides of my messy cup.
Outside the sky wasn’t cloudy, but all of sudden clouds appeared to start rolling like a storm was approaching. The cause was a spacecraft pushing through the atmosphere. Then, all these different size ships started appearing at once. It resembled that scene from the movie Independence Day when all those huge spacecrafts began to enter earth’s atmosphere. A large spacecraft pierced through the atmosphere first then an identical one but smaller in size appeared beneath it. Then very small individual passenger crafts with beings standing on them started coming through by the hundreds. The larger spacecraft and identical smaller spacecraft looked like a large circular disc, a dark brownish gray color with a long stem column below it. The circular part looked like the Star Trek spacecraft, but the color of the craft and the long stem looked like the design of the alien spacecraft from Independence Day. The individual crafts were standing ride-ons with the operational side on the right and the beings standing on a platform to the left.
One being that was on an individual ride-on craft caught my eye, because he looked just like He-Man but with a blue top and bottom outlined in red. I was so focused on him I didn’t really get a chance to make out many of the other beings. Another being I do remember seeing had a long plum-purple colored cape and outfit that covered its entire body. I could tell it had green skin, but it had on these dark goggles and was moving through the air like a surfer on a craft. But all of the beings reminded me of comic book heroes. Different skin pigmentations, had on capes, face masks or eye covers, form fitting outfits, muscle physique, some had animalistic features , etc.
So, when I seen the crafts and beings coming down I leaned over the table and got in the guy’s face who was sitting there and said “Look, Look and see they’re here. Where’s the lies now?” I was so excited to see them but I knew I needed to get out of there before everyone started panicking and the killing began. I ran out of the cafeteria building with 5 people, making us a group of 6. The 2 white people I was originally with and 3 people I didn’t know at all. From this point forward we all stuck together. We exited the building and we’re on a campus. I started walking down this curved hill trying to figure out where to go while the other 5 people followed me. While walking I thought of the Carnegie Museum, which in the dream instantly appeared right over the hill we were walking down. I tell my group to go there so we can get out of sight before shit goes left.
When we enter the building it’s completely empty then all of a sudden these people started running in encased in fear and being really loud. Then, it turned into all the people in the museum being herded into this auditorium with maroon theater seats. People started crawling over themselves to get seats, so to avoid the chaos we began to climb up the seats to get to the top row. Once again, to get out of the way, so when shit goes left we can get out by using the walkway along the top row. Then, all of a sudden a tall ewok/Bigfoot looking being appears and is lounging on the seats in front of us. Another one was a distance away “talking” with another group in the seats. The Ewok like being had a maroon sweater hat on. She was “talking” to us but no one could understand her so a white lady was there “translating” for her, but I could understand the being. While I could understand her, the words she was speaking was false. The information the being was saying were just words to me because I inner stood her intentions, which were deceiving. I was sensing that this was a ploy by the elite to get the people to not be scared of the Galactic Federation and the multiple beings that make up the Galactic Federation. A ploy to make it seem like they’re not here to hurt us. But in reality they are here to destroy the races that aren’t supposed to be here and to help the Anunnaki. The elite are the head honchos of the races that aren’t supposed to be on earth. I also sensed that this Ewok being was an inner earth being and not even a extraterrestrial. A being that has been living in earth and is being used to seem like she came with the Galactic Federation to mislead the people. A being that’s in cahoots with the elite.
Within my dream I knew when I saw the galactic beings coming through with the spacecrafts that this was the first wave before the Anunnaki appear. Because, when they do that’s when all the veils when be eliminated and everyone’s false reality will crumble and majority of people will lose their minds. A lot of regular folks, human beings and unawakened black people won’t die by the hands of the Galactic Federation or Anunnaki, they will commit suicide or their brains will literally explode from the removal of the mental chains. Many people will not be able to handle the truth and will cease to exist. That’s why I’m sharing this dream premonition. So, the souls that are aware and are preparing will see this as a sign that the time for all to be revealed is getting closer.
Those with an open eye, take what resonates with you and explore deeper into yourself for inner standing and leave what doesn’t.
I AM THE RAINBOW BRIDGE, I AM THE AURORA FREQUENCY, I AM THE PORTAL BETWEEN THIS PLANET AND SIRIUS C THE SPIRITUAL SUN, I AM THE BEACON.
Within the Sirius system there are 3 physical suns, Sirius A B &C. Sirius C is not only a physical sun but also a spiritual sun. The spiritual sun’s physical form is a whitish blue color and has a glow like the moon but the spiritual form is an aurora iridescent oscillating energy. The realm Sirius C resides in is pure darkness.
During meditation I was shown my purpose here on this planet and given my name, Divine Radiance. I am a gift from Source to the Anunnaki to help in releasing the ancestral souls from the planet. I am the guiding light, the bridge, the portal back to their home system Sirius. One of my selves is on Sirius C as the source of the spiritual sun. I oscillate on this planet in tune with my oscillating self on Sirius C. When I connect with myself on the aurora sun Sirius C and ground myself with the planet, I create a bridge between this planet and Sirius C. Just like the rainbow bridge of Asgard in the Marvel movie Thor.
Without me here, the frequencies of Sirius would not be able to penetrate the dome shield that has been placed over this planet’s atmosphere. I am the Anunnaki’s bypass system, and my aurora frequency can only be sensed by other Anunnaki. Similar to how in the show The Nevers on HBO Max, the song Mary would sing could only be heard by people who were considered “touched”. In the picture below and in the YouTube video you see that the frequency she sings is an iridescent aurora color too.
The “touched” were people who miraculous developed gifts after an event occurred when an extra-dimensional craft soared through the sky emitting an iridescent aurora frequency.
I am the beacon and the reason our ancestors will be able to be released from this plane and able to finally bypass the dome shield that has been holding them captive. I am the reason why the true frequencies of Sirius will be able to reach the Anunnaki that have been trapped down here on this plane and assist them with awakening to who they truly are by activating their genetics. Also, when I oscillate and send out my aurora frequency, I energize the planet’s chakras and assist in this planets ability to vibrate higher and remember her true self. When connected to the aurora Sirius C sun and the inner sun of the planet, I am able to oscillate and expand my aurora frequency to the dome shield over the atmosphere and clean up the chemtrails and hazards in the atmosphere that are creating a false reality. That false reality is that this plane we exist on is a globe and the plane is one dimensional or one realm. But in reality, there are 9 dimensions or realms of this planet and there are literally hazy layers between each plane that are keeping us entranced, entrapped, and disconnected from our other brethren and sisters of the cosmos.
Every time I connect with the aurora sun Sirius C, I learn more about my capabilities. Sunday when I connected, my oscillation was expanded to the complete edges of the dome shield which are the ice rings that were put in place to entrap us under the dome and not have access to the rest of this plane we exist on.
The ice ring along the edges of the dome shield contain the bodies of the ancestors that were killed when the initial invasion happened. They are being used as a vibratory magnet to keep the dome in place. Their bodies, their essence have been turned into a seeking frequency that assist with keeping the rest of the Anunnaki stuck on this plane asleep and dormant. Our connection to each other is an actual communication vibration, a frequency that only Anunnaki can sense. “We are one” literally comes from the truth that we are so in tuned with each other that we could easily operate as one unit when the vibration between us feels threatened. Similar to how a beehive or ant colony becomes threatened and one ant can alert the entire colony through a chemical secretion aka frequency. Our communication frequency has been hijacked, tainted and is being used to target the Anunnaki trapped on this plane. They use our communication frequency as weapon against us by reflectingand distorting messages aka frequencies to our kind because they are able to pinpoint us out from amongst the other kind of beings on this plane. Similar to how Professor X used the Cerebro to pinpoint and locate all the mutants in the world, because they put out a different frequency than regular people. The Anunnaki do the same. To start breaking down that ultimate control over our kind, my aurora frequency when expanded to this ice ring started to break through the ice that has been impenetrable up to this point. Not only does my presence help release the ancestral souls trapped under the dome shield, my presence will also help release the ancestors trapped in the ice ring. The original Anunnaki who stood 50 ft tall in all their glory and power. We shall rise!
I was watching a couple of YouTube videos and the subjects were very insightful and intriguing. To be honest, I’ve shied away from watching the YouTube subscribers I typically watch, because the information hasn’t been sitting right with me. I’ve noticed when people start to rise in fame with their YouTube channels its because what they’re pushing is either false, half truths or they’ve sold out to the agenda. Misinformation is the best kind of information on this planet! Well, I came across this person’s videos on Sunday and have been watching all that he has listed on YouTube non-stop! I’m listening to them in the morning instead of my typical chakra alignment music, in the car while driving, at work and at home instead of watching tv or playing around on Facebook. The insight he is dropping ties so many loose strings together for me. I know a lot of information and I’ve been shown and told a lot about who I am, what is going on on this planet, in the universe and so on. But the information seemed scattered and I couldn’t correlate subjects together or see how information fit together.
So, one subject I never really understood was handlers. Like how does a person get “managed” by someone else. I also always correlated a handler to like a famous singer and her manager type relationship. Or a pageant beauty and her coach or a music executive and his talent type of relationships. Basically, I thought handlers were a rich person’s problem and man was I wrong! That’s the types of handlers we are made aware of to trick us into thinking that us regular ol’ people are not important enough to have these types of things happen to us. But in reality, these handlers are used on us “common folks” every day and less likely on a “superstar”.
Listening to one of his videos yesterday, unfortunately, put the beginning of my life story into perspective. I will tag the video below for you to watch yourself. It’s talking about skywalkers and who they really are; which they are me. A being that is not from this planet and travels through planes, dimensions, galaxies and universes. See I know who I am and who I’ve been throughout “time”. I know my origin even though I don’t fully understand it, but I do innerstand. Which means that my internal soul knows it’s truth regardless of physical proof, because what you can see with your 2 eyes is deceiving anyways.
While talking about the skywalkers and how we are being controlled, one of the ways they control us is as soon as we are born they test us. They test our freshly born baby bodies to quantify our dark matter aka carbon load, which tells them if we are too connected to our higher self; which equals to us being high frequency beings aka “vibing too high”. If we are vibing too high that means that we will eventually break through all the blocks, nanobytes, shields, illusions, spells, etc. they use on our type and cause them hell while we’re here. Best believe we will cause them hell due to the fact we are connected to who we really are; which are soul’s from among the stars that have purposely come to shut down the bullshit and lies they’ve succumb planet earth to.
So, where do handlers come into all of this? Well, handlers enter the picture after they’ve determined that you are a high frequency being and knowing in due time this being will break through all the barriers they set for it. So they assign a handler or handlers aka a fake family to watch over you. You as a baby, fresh out the womb obviously will never know if the parents that raised you are your real parents and if they are your real parents, if they willingly or unwillingly signed you over to be handled. So, these handlers will do and say things to keep you under control, deter you from doing and saying things that naturally come to you, down play your abilities and gifts and convince you to hide them. Treat you in a manner that is harsh or patronizing, encourage psychedelic medications to suppress your gifts and entrap your mind under the disguise of depression, anxiety or bi-polar and so on. Allow trauma to happen to you to keep you disconnected from your true self or purposely say things to keep you constricted and restrained.
When I heard this it hit me hard! I know I’ve been through some weird things in my life that didn’t make sense to me. For one, I had a “disease” when I was younger and I had to give blood to monitor my white cell counts twice a week. This started when I was young so these doctors had been collecting my blood twice a week for years! Fast forward to teenage years and my high school cheerleading squad wanted us to participate in a blood drive. My mom tells me, no I can’t and the reason was that “my blood was to special and I needed it more than them. People didn’t deserve to have my blood”. What? Now, knowing who I am and how correct she was when she said that my blood is unique and different, why wasn’t she concerned about this when they were draining me twice a week when I was in elementary school! Sometimes, they slip up and tell the truth!
Another thing mentioned in a different YouTube video but tied into this same subject was the mention of a Great Invasion that no one remembers in 1995. During this event, the Annunaki came to earth to start living amongst us again and started breaking down this wicked system from the inside. Guess what, I completely remember seeing activity in the sky over my house when I use to live in Atlanta, the epic center of this plane. Also, in November 1995 a huge meteor shower happened over Atlanta. I didn’t remember it happening until right now typing this blog. So, I did a quick search and came across articles talking about this meteor shower. The article says that the shower occurred because earth passed through the tail of an unnamed comet…really! Also, states over 400 meteors per hour had fallen to earth. So, they’re calling the Great Invasion a meteor shower. The first time this so called meteor shower occurred was in November 1995 and in November 2019 the meteor shower happened again. How is that possible? The article contradicts itself by saying that this meteor shower happens on a set frequency. Why isn’t this meteor shower documented anywhere before November 1995 then? It doesn’t add up! Do you know what else happened to me during that year, my mom ups and moves us from Atlanta to Pittsburgh. I never understood why, especially when we had family and friends in Atlanta. Why such a drastic move at a very pivotal time in my life, a key transition period for a maturing being. I was 12, right before the transition stage into teenager. A milestone not only in age but in mental and physical development, which stunted me and exceled me at the same time. I was a child that grew up too soon because my childhood was taken away from me. The years that took place after this move broke me completely. Broke my connection to my gifts and abilities, broke my connection to the divine and moved me out of Atlanta that had a bedrock of crystals that I communicated with on the daily and enhanced everything about me. Also, tainted my memories because I only remember that traumatic move and not of what happened in the sky after I saw the activity over my house.
I purposely did a meditation to gain insight from my Higher self while tapping into my inner temple. Below is the insight I gained when I tapped in that I was asked to share:
My Higher self took me and flew me out of the inner temple into the Beginning. The white static space, the binary codes beyond the void. We arrived at a “plane” outside of our universe and landed on this high plateau with a large lake in the distance. This plane exists in a different universe and my Higher self brought me there to show me that I’m from the beyond and this plane is where I’m from. The glow of the plane is purplish pink like a sunset sky. I ask my Higher self to become smaller due to being so tall the entity didn’t fit into my view. So my Higher self began to decrease in size.
My Higher self tells me that I, my current self, am my higher self in the future. My Higher self wanted to experience all that this universe was, so my Higher self had to “fall” into the dimensions to experience, to live beyond what was known and to learn about living/experience. My Higher self tells me that “time” is circular and I quote unquote time because it’s the only word I could use to describe what my Higher self said to me. Was also told that each soul rides a cosmic web and that web represents that’s souls “life” on that dimension during that placement on “times” circle. Each line that makes up the web are the decisions that soul can take. My Higher self tells me that it has come back several times as my current self to try out different decisions, to walk a different line aka timeline on the web. The decisions are countless because each situation has multiple decisions and you have multiple situations over your lifetime to encounter. So my Higher self has tried out different decisions aka walked different lines at different points on my web. Just like there can’t be a problem without a solution, there can’t be a decision without that timeline already existing. All decisions already have a path, that’s what destiny really means. You’re destined to take these paths and your decisions choose which paths you take.
Along with your cosmic web you are pre-destined to intertwine with certain beings and entities during your lifetimes. Either it’s a pack your Higher self makes from the beginning or a pack that develops over lifetimes with different beings and entities. Everyone you have a main encounter with in your life or they play a major part or role, you have a pack with. More importantly, your cosmic webs on each plane are intertwined.
My Higher self goes on and tells me, “You are bigger than this body. You radiate. Like radiation can change the cellular structure but in a damaging breakdown way, you radiate energy that builds up people and their genetics. You influence every one and everything around you and you’ve noticed it. You can create without even trying. So imagine what you could do if you radiated on purpose. That’s why your into genetics because you can easily manipulate it with no effort”.
Then my Higher self says, “This plane we’re currently on is huge, it’s not like earth. The boundaries are limitless here. I’m really not that big here because I’m not held in boundaries. That’s why it’s hard for you to be confined to this body and this world because it’s constricting you and keeping you in boundaries. You’re connected to me so you know what it feels like to be boundless. The lake looks big and very close to us, because you’re use to what you call on earth as perception or particular point of view to explain what you see when it challenges your senses. But actually it isn’t close at all, it just looks like it is because it’s so big. You come from the expanse and this plane is nothing but expanse”.
PS: This message isn’t just for me, it’s for all beings that have an eye to see. Connect to your higher self and learn who you truly are.
A person bumps into you and you have hot coffee in your hands and it spills all over you and it burns bad. Reacting to the pain of the burn is healthy. Reacting to the anger you have towards the person who caused this to happen to you, because it caused physical pain is healthy. Allowing healthy responses to this incident is a must! Acting like no physical pain occurred and you are not angry is unhealthy. People need to understand that allowing an emotional response to occur is healthy. Eventually, being able to break the incident down to the core emotions so you can feel them, react to them, and forgive yourself for reacting to them is a key factor in doing Shadow Work, which I call Subconscious Work. Forgiveness also includes the person that caused you harm or pain, but only if they acknowledge what they’ve done. Because forgiveness is for your healing not theirs. Subconscious work is for the real spiritual people, not the love and light folks, so if they don’t apologize or acknowledge their fault, f*** them and keep it moving.
I included forgiving yourself, because no matter how spiritually adept someone becomes, we will still be human at the end of the day. And being a human being includes being emotional and ignoring our emotions is harmful and unhealthy. It doesn’t help that society frowns upon emotional people, specifically women, and that’s why emotions and being emotional gets a bad rep. But as humans we are composed of 4 bodies, which are the spiritual body, mental body, emotional body, and the physical body. The saying “stand on your square” directly relates to the acknowledgment of these four bodies aka four points.
I mentioned above the term core emotions which correlate to our core beliefs. People only have 5 emotions that we experience on a scale of extremes or as a combination of the core 5 emotions. Disney put out a great movie a few years back that explores human emotions and their complexity called Inside Out. I highly recommend watching this movie if you want to start Subconscious Work and fully understand core emotions and beliefs.
Unfortunately, because a lot of people including myself at one point, see 4 of our core emotions anger, fear, disgust, and sadness as negative emotions, but they’re not. They are absolutely needed and need to be expressed to be a whole and healthy human being. These emotions that are associated with being dark and negative are the key emotions you focus on in Subconscious/Shadow Work. These dark emotions have dark positives, which I see as positive aspects to that emotion when its acknowledged and transmuted. For example, fear can be transmuted into rage when a woman is attacked by an attacker while walking at night. She can use that fear turned rage to defend herself against her attacker. Another example, fear can be transmuted to strength when a mother see’s her child get trapped under a car and she lifts the car up off of her child so she can get them out.
To fully understand how the subconscious works, you must correlate it to how the body does voluntary and involuntary actions. Voluntary actions are conscious actions and involuntary actions are subconscious actions. So, for example, conscious breathing is voluntary breathing. You are purposely making you lungs inhale and exhale air. Subconscious breathing is involuntary breathing which is your normal moment to moment breathing that happens without any guidance or will of your own. Without involuntary actions of the body, we wouldn’t be alive because involuntary actions run our entire body. From breathing to blood pumping to digestion. All actions we don’t have to tell our bodies to do. So, guess what, if involuntary aka subconscious actions run our bodies then the subconscious mind runs our mental and emotional bodies. Need proof, here’s a perfect example, zoning out while driving a car to work. When, you get to work and don’t remember driving there at all. You don’t remember seeing the typical sites you see during the drive in or anything. It’s because your subconscious got you there and your subconscious always gets there but when you zone out and come back to consciousness you become aware of the subconscious actions.
Furthermore, the subconscious is the involuntary mental and emotional actions that drive our core emotions and beliefs. When we push “negative” or “dark” emotions and experiences “deep inside” so we don’t have to deal with the feelings that arise or even acknowledge them at all is unhealthy. When you push those emotions “deep inside” you’re pushing them into your subconscious. Which is where they turn into involuntary actions that attach to core emotions or core beliefs, which the subconscious runs them. So, now you have that one horrible moment that happened when you were 5 years old running and controlling your life when anything that feels like that experience or emotions happen. You’ve created a circular habitual response in your life that will continue till you deal with the emotions attached to that experience. Dealing with those emotions includes revisiting that event in your mind or even the place, allowing the emotions to rise, feeling those emotions play out, releasing the emotions, then forgiving yourself for allowing yourself to feel because “You’re human and you’re allowed.”
The morning of August 19, 2020, 3 days after my birthday, I was visited in my dreams by a deity/orisha. Below is what happened in my dream, written down in my phone as soon as I woke up so I wouldn’t forget anything.
I was in a dark place with water beneath my feet. I could hear the water and see it as if I was seeing clearly in the dark. Like when your eyes adapt to a dark room. Suddenly appears a woman over the water and I look up at her and see the crescent moon above her head and stars in the sky. Her arms out stretched to me in a position of embrace and waiting for me to come into her arms for a hug. Her face is covered by a veil of jewels, she has a white blank expression mask over her face, she’s draped in a bluish colored dress that is puffy-like and she has horns on her head like a large cattle with pearls hanging from them.
She says to me “come child” and I go to her and she hugs me, embraces me, comforts me and all feels better. Like when you hug your mom and she absorbs all your pain from you because that what mothers do. She tells me to tell her about me, so I told her about myself; which was all the pain I’ve occurred over the years. Being made fun of as a kid and having no friends because I was different and in-tune. I tell her about the abuse I endured at the hands of my ex-husband and I burst out crying. Then, I tell her about how my spiritual awakening happened after my divorce.
Then abruptly the scenery changes and we’re sitting at a table eating while I’m telling her these things about me. But now at the table she was a regular woman. She looked like a Black Latino with long curly hair and fair skin. She tells me that she’s come to guide me. At the table there is a Latino man and a woman who aren’t speaking. I ask her why the 2 other people are with her and she says they are support.
Scenery changes again and now I’m sitting on a couch and she’s on the floor sitting in front me. She then asks me how’s my journey with Christianity and I replied harshly with “non existent, I don’t follow that crap”. She replies, we don’t care if people do. I then reply, I don’t because I hate being lied to and religion is one of the biggest lies ever. Plus, the reason for what’s really wrong on this earth.
Then she tells me she’s going to do a reading for me. We were clearing off the couch and I started the recorder on my phone, so I could record the reading. Then she sat back down on the floor then abruptly I was out of the dream and didn’t get the reading.
I’ve never been drawn to any of the African deities or Orishas. It’s always been Egyptian and Sumerian deities that have come to me. But I was told during an akashic reading that one of my karmas is finding my earthly and galactic ancestral lineage. My DNA ancestry has my African lineage in Nigeria, Cameroon, South Africa, Sudan, Ethiopia and so on. Those cultures are Yoruba, Bantu, Kushites, Khoisan, Zulu, Khmer and Fulani.
So it’s about time I started bonding with these ancestors and their deities. This experience opened a doorway for me to learn about Yemaya and the Orisha traditions. I thank, welcome, honor and appreciate her for coming to me.
On Sunday December 20, 2020 I went to spend some time in a priestess temple to prepare for the December 21st ceremony of the Uluru activation. I wanted to go the day before since there is a major time difference between Pittsburgh and Australia. I knew the Australian ceremony would be occurring at 5am on Monday and I wasn’t going to be able to get up for that, so I wanted to tap into that energy beforehand while its rising to a peak at 5am. Before I went, I took some time to understand the importance of Uluru and why the event that was going to occur there was so significant. A course I’ve read post and saw meme’s and 100s of people planning group meditations on Facebook but I didn’t know for myself what Uluru was all about. While researching Uluru, I felt a strong connection and a remembrance. I also read that Uluru is the solar plexus of the Earth and the activation ceremony that was supposed to happen there 1000s of years ago was spoiled. Also, that the energy that rises there is a feathered serpent dragon which hit home for me and really brought everything full circle with all the visions and information I have been pulling into my being this pass year.
When I arrived at the priestess temple and the leader of our sister group asked me what I wanted to do and what I wanted to bring to me, I replied “I want to go to Uluru”. She laughed and said well I have never had someone tell me that they wanted to go somewhere but let’s do this. So, the below is my shamanic journey to Uluru. Enjoy!
Walking towards Uluru, I can see the huge red monument and see the trees scattered around it and the dirt road I’m walking on is a sandy color not red like Uluru. As I get closer my outer appearance changes from regular clothes to me having on grass ankle cuffs, a 2-piece outfit with a grass skirt and a top made of grass or animal skin. I’m looking at this outfit from my point of view, looking down at my feet up to my abdomen. Then, 2 elder women walk towards me from 2 different directions to greet me as I approach Uluru. Elder woman 1 has gray hair in a messy bun on top of her head and has a one-piece animal skin dress, and a tribal white marking like a band on her right arm. The second elder woman I recognized as the elder woman at my new moon ceremony. She has a bone through her nose, dots on her face, a head dress with a feather plume at top of head and a 2-piece animal skin attire on.
We walk up to a secret entrance into Uluru. A holographic door slides open while the physical stone wall is still there. We start to walk down the steps in a narrow passageway and its dark but there’s a glow we’re following. The stairs open up to a cave and we keep walking through this damp cave and get to steps along the side of wall with a huge drop off. You can hear water below that is significantly far away, the area is very damp. When the priestess doing my shamanic journey started doing a 10-step countdown, I come to steps I start to descend downward with each countdown 10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1. The view of a secret chamber comes into view each step as I’m getting closer to the last step. At the bottom of the steps there’s big entry way into a chamber. Inside I see people with grass neck collars and sandy colored grass or animal skin garments with blackish spots, ceremonial attire. As I enter the room and get closer to these “people” I see that they’re all kids. All the kids have blond hair or curly black hair all cut the same length all seated around the fire in a layered seating arrangement like they were on bleachers. There were also older men there that had facial features like my dad. They were in ceremonial attire of bottom clothing but no shirts on and had gray hair or dusty white hair due to the white painting they had on all over their face and body. I can hear drums and see someone banging the drums by the fire but I couldn’t fully see them. Someone is clicking sticks together that are long and look like bamboo but I can’t see them due to the low glow in the chamber.
In this chamber, the kids are around a large fire and the fire is surrounded by rocks and you can see the huge logs supporting the burn of the fire. The ceiling is low and on the walls, you can see drawings of white figures and they look like they’re dancing cause of the flames. There’s a chair in front of the fire and I’m seated there by the elder women. They throw a grass covering on me. Then I started dancing, because in my mind I hear “entertain”. When I start dancing I hear people whispering, “she’s here”, I sense excitement and the kids are ecstatic. When I started dancing the energy builds in me and I start shooting lightning like energy out of me, heart energy would blast out of me hitting the kids and men. The kids were excited and in awe and would move out of the way of the blasts. I see no other women other than the 2 elder women that guided me to the chamber.
After I’m done dancing, a very old woman who is the seer/oracle of the tribe comes walking towards me through the dust using what looks like a walking stick. The elder oracle seer touches her forehead to mine, and we squat very low to the ground while our foreheads are connected. I start rubbing her face and hands because they looked so aged and textured. Her skin was soft like soft tethered leather. As we stand up, I thought she was going to embrace me, but she reached behind me and tapped me hard on the back of neck with her walking stick. That spot on my neck opened and she pulled out a droplet like thread, my DNA. My DNA looks like water droplets on a thread you pulled through some water. She swipes her fingers along it to clear this black stuff off of it. Then she spits on my DNA and wipes the spit up and down it. Then the kids run up and spit on my DNA then run back to where they were sitting. She wipes the spit up and down my DNA. Then the elder picked up some red dirt and spit in it to make mud then she wipes it on my DNA. She wipes up to put it on and when she wipes downward the spit mud comes off and my DNA was crystallized and sparkling. Then she pulls up on my DNA making it retract back into my neck like a pulley string.
The elder oracle seer woman then cuts her hands and my hands down the middle and blood surfaces, but the cuts did not hurt. She then grabs my hands and put our hands palm to palm to transfer blood knowledge. During the blood transfer my actual physical left leg started hurting, then my leg and foot went numb and it scared me. While in my meditative position, I started rubbing my foot and I couldn’t feel anything in my foot, so I wanted to disconnect from the trance because it was hurting, and it was pulling my attention to it. But I stayed in the trance and stayed in the chamber. I had an underlying feeling that something was trying to interfere with the transfer and disconnect me from it. But the pain went away as soon as the blood knowledge transfer was complete.
After the blood knowledge transfer, the elder women, men and kids surrounded me and started marking my face, arms and back with white paint. I had one dot in middle of my forehead at the 3rd eye location with 3 dots on each side of the middle dot. Dots down the middle of my face and nose to below my bottom lip. Then they put 3 lines on my chin, one in the middle and one each side. Then muddy red/orange handprints appeared down my arms. Then the kids, elders, and men started kicking red dirt on me and the chamber got really dusty. Once I’m covered in dirt I start to shake it off then the kids use these huge feathers and blast me with wind removing the dirt off of me. After the dirt and dust clears, my grass/animal skin attire is white, crystallized and sparkly.
Then a crack opens up underneath me and I straddle it to prevent myself from falling in the crack. Then these green vines that turned a sandy color attached to me. Then, the fire energy that’s deep within me starts rising to the surface and expanding and burning painfully. I lift my head and start screaming at the top of my lungs because it hurts and its uncomfortable and I couldn’t hold the pain in anymore. When I stop screaming and start lowering my head I notice a huge dark, black celestial outlined in red but the red looks like lava cracks, is with me now and it says “Cloak her”. The 2 elder women and men wrap me in cloth that looks like mummification cloth as I continue to hear “Cloak her, bury her, rebirth”. After they wrap me up, they push me into a small opening in the wall. I hear in my mind that “I need to dig out. It’s the only way I’ll get out this room”. In this small space I feel the stone wall cutting my skin as I slide through it and I’m determined to get through and out of that small space. I pull myself through the space and start climbing upward because I can see sunlight coming through a small hole up top. I reach the hole and dig the hole bigger with my hands and pull myself out to the surface.
Outside of Uluru after digging my way out, I’m naked and scratched up. I hear in my mind “clean yourself up, dress yourself, you’re in control of yourself now”. I think to myself “clean” and its done. I think to myself “clothes” and I’m clothed in tan cargo pants, a dark colored tank top, and rugged boots. I actually feel rugged, bad ass, tough, a mix of masculine and feminine energy, still a woman but can really do some damage to someone if I had to fight. The person that came out of the small space in the chamber was my spiritual-self transformed. I then walk over to a tree and lean against it with one boot on the ground and one against the tree as I wait. While waiting I become omnipresent because I can “see” myself coming up with the elder women from the cave to the holographic door and see myself leaning against the tree. They hand myself to me in the doorway and I hear in my mind “Take care of her”. The self against the tree that climbed through the small hole is my spiritual self and the self the elder women walked out the chambers is my physical self. My spiritual self puts the physical self inside of her. The roles were now reversed, no longer spiritual inside physical, but physical inside spiritual. Before I leave the trance the message given to me was, “Shed skin like a snake, flow and change like a snake. Don’t be afraid to change, don’t be afraid to adapt”.
After every shamanic journey, astral travel, downloads, etc. I get from my ancestors or guides, I do research because the spirit speaks in ways that are not always clear and comprehensible to the human mind and the information will always have multiple meanings. From my research, I’ve learned the below over the last few days:
The spot the elder oracle seer tapped on the back of my neck is the ancestral chakra aka alta major chakra aka Mouth of the Goddess/God.
The alta major chakra is the 9th chakra and the activation of the trinity chakras moves the monad body into my physical body.
Beginning of this year I had an akashic reading done and I was told that the koala was one of my totems. After communicating and adding my dad’s mom who is deceased to my altar, she told me that we have ancestral links to Australia. So, participating in the Uluru ceremony was destined and my ancestors were proud and it showed.
As this day approaches, I would like to declare myself as in full servitude and gratitude. To publicly accept my purpose and fulfill my role as a beacon of light and a walking portal of truth. To walk my true path as a being of light from beyond this realm and universe.
I will explore and research all that is needed to share truths and reset people’s frequencies to their true state of being. I will incorporate light and sound frequencies within myself so I can set forth these frequencies into others.
My search for my truths has paid off and I’m honored to have been chosen to be a part of this mission. By accepting my true nature, I bring honor, truth and resolved karmas to the ancestral line I’m currently incarnated in. As I fulfill my heavenly and earthly role, I bring back into remembrance the ways of our ancestral past, link our heritage, reveal knowledge, wisdom and practices and awaken the magic within us.
I accept my multidimensional selves that include: Indigo, Priestess of the Serpent, Atlantean, Egyptian, Sekhmet, Regal, Anuba, Sobek, Anuket, Feathered Serpent Dragon, Anubis, Ptah, Yemaya, Lion, koala, owl, snake, Algonquin, celestial, Cygnus, Lyran, Sirian, Centurian, Orion, Russian, Zeta, South African, Nigerian/Cameroon, Sudan, Hebrew, Moor, Turkish, Serbian, Australian, Lilith, Andromedan, emanation of chokmah, elemental worker, revealer, dream maker, mother, sister, daughter, friend, wife.