Shadow Work is Subconscious Work

A person bumps into you and you have hot coffee in your hands and it spills all over you and it burns bad. Reacting to the pain of the burn is healthy. Reacting to the anger you have towards the person who caused this to happen to you, because it caused physical pain is healthy. Allowing healthy responses to this incident is a must! Acting like no physical pain occurred and you are not angry is unhealthy. People need to understand that allowing an emotional response to occur is healthy. Eventually, being able to break the incident down to the core emotions so you can feel them, react to them, and forgive yourself for reacting to them is a key factor in doing Shadow Work, which I call Subconscious Work. Forgiveness also includes the person that caused you harm or pain, but only if they acknowledge what they’ve done. Because forgiveness is for your healing not theirs. Subconscious work is for the real spiritual people, not the love and light folks, so if they don’t apologize or acknowledge their fault, f*** them and keep it moving.

I included forgiving yourself, because no matter how spiritually adept someone becomes, we will still be human at the end of the day. And being a human being includes being emotional and ignoring our emotions is harmful and unhealthy. It doesn’t help that society frowns upon emotional people, specifically women, and that’s why emotions and being emotional gets a bad rep. But as humans we are composed of 4 bodies, which are the spiritual body, mental body, emotional body, and the physical body. The saying “stand on your square” directly relates to the acknowledgment of these four bodies aka four points.

4 bodies: Spiritual, Mental, Emotional and Physical

I mentioned above the term core emotions which correlate to our core beliefs. People only have 5 emotions that we experience on a scale of extremes or as a combination of the core 5 emotions. Disney put out a great movie a few years back that explores human emotions and their complexity called Inside Out. I highly recommend watching this movie if you want to start Subconscious Work and fully understand core emotions and beliefs.

Unfortunately, because a lot of people including myself at one point, see 4 of our core emotions anger, fear, disgust, and sadness as negative emotions, but they’re not. They are absolutely needed and need to be expressed to be a whole and healthy human being. These emotions that are associated with being dark and negative are the key emotions you focus on in Subconscious/Shadow Work. These dark emotions have dark positives, which I see as positive aspects to that emotion when its acknowledged and transmuted. For example, fear can be transmuted into rage when a woman is attacked by an attacker while walking at night. She can use that fear turned rage to defend herself against her attacker. Another example, fear can be transmuted to strength when a mother see’s her child get trapped under a car and she lifts the car up off of her child so she can get them out.

To fully understand how the subconscious works, you must correlate it to how the body does voluntary and involuntary actions. Voluntary actions are conscious actions and involuntary actions are subconscious actions. So, for example, conscious breathing is voluntary breathing. You are purposely making you lungs inhale and exhale air. Subconscious breathing is involuntary breathing which is your normal moment to moment breathing that happens without any guidance or will of your own. Without involuntary actions of the body, we wouldn’t be alive because involuntary actions run our entire body. From breathing to blood pumping to digestion. All actions we don’t have to tell our bodies to do. So, guess what, if involuntary aka subconscious actions run our bodies then the subconscious mind runs our mental and emotional bodies. Need proof, here’s a perfect example, zoning out while driving a car to work. When, you get to work and don’t remember driving there at all. You don’t remember seeing the typical sites you see during the drive in or anything. It’s because your subconscious got you there and your subconscious always gets there but when you zone out and come back to consciousness you become aware of the subconscious actions.

Furthermore, the subconscious is the involuntary mental and emotional actions that drive our core emotions and beliefs. When we push “negative” or “dark” emotions and experiences “deep inside” so we don’t have to deal with the feelings that arise or even acknowledge them at all is unhealthy. When you push those emotions “deep inside” you’re pushing them into your subconscious. Which is where they turn into involuntary actions that attach to core emotions or core beliefs, which the subconscious runs them. So, now you have that one horrible moment that happened when you were 5 years old running and controlling your life when anything that feels like that experience or emotions happen. You’ve created a circular habitual response in your life that will continue till you deal with the emotions attached to that experience. Dealing with those emotions includes revisiting that event in your mind or even the place, allowing the emotions to rise, feeling those emotions play out, releasing the emotions, then forgiving yourself for allowing yourself to feel because “You’re human and you’re allowed.”

Yemaya

The morning of August 19, 2020, 3 days after my birthday, I was visited in my dreams by a deity/orisha. Below is what happened in my dream, written down in my phone as soon as I woke up so I wouldn’t forget anything.

I was in a dark place with water beneath my feet. I could hear the water and see it as if I was seeing clearly in the dark. Like when your eyes adapt to a dark room. Suddenly appears a woman over the water and I look up at her and see the crescent moon above her head and stars in the sky. She her arms out stretches to me in a position of embrace and waiting for me to come into her arms for a hug. Her face is covered by a veil of jewels, she has a white blank expression mask over her face, she’s draped in a bluish cale dress that is puffy-like and she has horns on her head like a large cattle with pearls hanging from them.

She says to me “come child” and I go to her and she hugs me, embraces me and comforts me and all feels better. Like when you hug your mom and she absorbs all your pain from you because that what mothers do. She tells me to tell her about me, so I told her about myself; which was all the pain I’ve occurred over the years. Being mad fun of as a kid and having no friends because I was different and in-tune. I tell her about the abuse I endured at the hands of my ex-husband and I burst out crying. Then, I tell her about how my spiritual awakening happened after my divorce.

Then we abruptly we was sitting at a table eating while telling her these things about me. When at the table she was a regular woman. She looked like black Latino with long curly hair and fair skin.

She tells me that she’s comes to guide me. At the table there is a man and a woman who aren’t speaking. I ask her why the 2 other people are with her and she says they are support.

Now we’re I’m sitting on a couch and she’s on the floor sitting in front me. She then asks me how was my journey with Christianity and I replied harshly with “none existent, I don’t follow that crap”. She replies, we don’t care if people do. I then reply, I don’t because I hate being lied to and religion is one of the biggest lies ever. Plus, the reason for what’s really wrong on this earth.

Then she was going to do a reading for me. We were clearing off the couch, I started the recorder on my phone so I could record the session. Then she sat back on the floor then I was out of the dream.

I’ve never been drawn to any of the African deities or Orishas. It’s always been Egyptian and Sumerian deities that have come to me. But I was told during an akashic reading that one of my karmas is finding my earthly and galactic ancestral lineage. My DNA ancestry has my African lineage in Nigeria, Cameroon, South Africa, Sudan, Ethiopia and so on. Those cultures are Yoruba, Bantu, Kushites, Khoisan, Zulu, Khmer and Fulani.

So it’s about time I started my bonding with these ancestors and their deities. This experience helped me learn that Yemaya is my Ori and is protecting my head. I thank, welcome and honor her and appreciate her protection and guidance.

My personal drawing of how Yemaya appeared to me in my dream
Yemaya dress looked just like this
Yemaya had this same mask on
Yemaya appeared to me in this same position with arms outstretched, veil over her face, over water and the crescent moon and stars above her head

Uluru, Ancestors and Koalas….Oh My!

On Sunday December 20, 2020 I went to spend some time in a priestess temple to prepare for the December 21st ceremony of the Uluru activation. I wanted to go the day before since there is a major time difference between Pittsburgh and Australia. I knew the Australian ceremony would be occurring at 5am on Monday and I wasn’t going to be able to get up for that, so I wanted to tap into that energy beforehand while its rising to a peak at 5am.  Before I went, I took some time to understand the importance of Uluru and why the event that was going to occur there was so significant. A course I’ve read post and saw meme’s and 100s of people planning group meditations on Facebook but I didn’t know for myself what Uluru was all about. While researching Uluru, I felt a strong connection and a remembrance. I also read that Uluru is the solar plexus of the Earth and the activation ceremony that was supposed to happen there 1000s of years ago was spoiled. Also, that the energy that rises there is a feathered serpent dragon which hit home for me and really brought everything full circle with all the visions and information I have been pulling into my being this pass year.

When I arrived at the priestess temple and the leader of our sister group asked me what I wanted to do and what I wanted to bring to me, I replied “I want to go to Uluru”. She laughed and said well I have never had someone tell me that they wanted to go somewhere but let’s do this. So, the below is my shamanic journey to Uluru. Enjoy!

Walking towards Uluru, I can see the huge red monument and see the trees scattered around it and the dirt road I’m walking on is a sandy color not red like Uluru. As I get closer my outer appearance changes from regular clothes to me having on grass ankle cuffs, a 2-piece outfit with a grass skirt and a top made of grass or animal skin. I’m looking at this outfit from my point of view, looking down at my feet up to my abdomen. Then, 2 elder women walk towards from 2 different directions to greet me as I approach Uluru. Elder woman 1 has gray hair in a messy bun on top of her head and has a one-piece animal skin dress, and a tribal white marking like a band on her right arm. The second elder woman I recognized as the elder woman at my new moon ceremony. She has a bone through her nose, dots on her face, a head dress with a feather plume at top of head and a 2-piece animal skin attire on.

We walk up to a secret entry into Uluru. A holographic door slides open while the physical stone wall is still there. We start to walk down the steps in a narrow passageway and its dark but there’s a glow we’re following. The stairs open up to a cave and we keep walking through this damp cave and get to steps along the side of wall with a huge drop off. You can hear water below that is significantly far away, the area is very damp. When the priestess doing my shamanic journey started doing a 10-step countdown, I come to steps I start to descend downward with each countdown 10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1. The view of a secret chamber comes into view each step as I’m getting closer to the last step. At the bottom of the steps there’s big entry way into a chamber. Inside I see people with grass neck collars and sandy colored grass or animal skin garments with blackish spots, ceremonial attire. As I enter the room and get closer to these “people” I see that they’re all kids. All the kids have blond hair or curly black hair all cut the same length all seated around the fire in a layered seating arrangement like they were on bleachers. There were also older men there that had facial features like my dad. They were in ceremonial attire of bottom clothing but no shirts on and had gray hair or dusty white hair due to the white painting they had on all over their face and body. I can hear drums and see someone banging the drums by the fire but I couldn’t fully see them. Someone is clicking sticks together that are long and look like bamboo but I can’t see them due to the low glow in the chamber.

In this chamber, the kids are around a large fire and the fire is surrounded by rocks and you can see the huge logs supporting the burn of the fire. The ceiling is low and on the walls, you can see drawings of white figures and they look like they’re dancing cause of the flames. There’s a chair in front of the fire and I’m seated there by the elder women. They throw a grass covering on me. Then I started dancing, because in my mind I hear “entertain”. When I start dancing I hear people whispering, “she’s here”, I sense excitement and the kids are ecstatic. When I started dancing the energy builds in me and I start shooting lightning like energy out of me, heart energy would blast out of me hitting the kids and men. The kids were excited and in awe and would move out of the way of the blasts. I see no other women other than the 2 elder women that guided me to the chamber.

After I’m done dancing, a very old woman who is the seer/oracle of the tribe comes walking towards me through the dust using what looks like a walking stick. The elder oracle seer touches her forehead to mine, and we squat very low to the ground while our foreheads are connected. I start rubbing her face and hands because they looked so aged and textured. Her skin was soft like soft tethered leather. As we stand up, I thought she was going to embrace me, but she reached behind me and tapped me hard on the back of neck with her walking stick. That spot on my neck opened and she pulled out a droplet like thread, my DNA. My DNA looks like water droplets on a thread you pulled through some water. She swipes her fingers along it to clear this black stuff off of it. Then she spits on my DNA and wipes the spit up and down it. Then the kids run up and spit on my DNA then run back to where they were sitting. She wipes the spit up and down my DNA. Then the elder picked up some red dirt and spit in it to make mud then she wipes it on my DNA. She wipes up to put it on and when she wipes downward the spit mud comes off and my DNA was crystallized and sparkling. Then she pulls up on my DNA making it retract back into neck like a pulley string.

The elder oracle seer woman then cuts her hands and my hands down the middle and blood surfaces, but the cuts did not hurt. She then grabs my hands and put our hands palm to palm to transfer blood knowledge. During the blood transfer my actual left leg started hurting, then my leg and foot went numb and it scares me. While in my meditative position, I start rubbing my foot and I can’t feel anything so I wanted to disconnect from the trance because it was hurting, and it was pulling my attention to it but I stayed in the trance and stayed in the chamber. I had an underlying feeling that something was trying to interfere with the transfer and disconnect me from it. But the pain went away as soon as the blood knowledge transfer was complete.

After the blood knowledge transfer the elder women, men and kids surround me and start marking my face, arms and back with white paint. I had one dot in middle of my forehead at the 3rd eye location with 3 dots on each side of the middle dot. Dots down the middle of my face and nose to below my bottom lip. Then they put 3 lines on my chin, one in the middle and one each side. Then muddy red/orange handprints appeared down my arms. Then the kids, elders, and men started kicking red dirt on me and the chamber gets really dusty. Once I’m covered in dirt I start to shake it off then kids use these huge feathers and blast me with wind removing the dirt off of me. After the dirt and dust clears, my grass/animal skin attire is white, crystallized and sparkly.

Then a crack opens up underneath me  and I straddle it to prevent myself from falling in the crack. Then these green vines that turn a sandy color attach to me. Then, the fire energy that’s deep within me starts rising to the surface and expanding and burning painfully. I lift my head and start screaming at the top of my lungs because it hurts and its uncomfortable and I couldn’t hold the pain in anymore. When I stop screaming and start lowering my head I notice a huge dark, black celestial outlined in red but the red looks like lava cracks, is with me now and it says “Cloak her”. The 2 elder women and men wrap me in cloth that looks like mummification cloth as I continue to hear “Cloak her, bury her, rebirth”. After they wrap me up, they push me into a small opening in the wall. I hear in my mind that “I need to dig out. It’s the only way I’ll get out this room”. In this small space I feel the stone wall cutting my skin as I slide through it and I’m determined to get through and out of that small space. I pull myself through the space and start climbing upward because I can see sunlight coming through a small hole up top. I reach the hole and dig the hole bigger with my hands and pull myself out to the surface.

Outside of Uluru after digging my way out, I’m naked and scratched up. I hear in my mind “clean yourself up, dress yourself, you’re in control of yourself now”. I think to myself “clean” and its done. I think to myself “clothes” and I’m clothed in tan cargo pants, a dark colored tank top, and rugged boots. I actually feel rugged, bad ass, tough, a mix of masculine and feminine energy, still a woman but can really do some damage to someone if I had to fight. The person that came out of the small space in the chamber was my spiritual-self transformed. I then walk over to a tree and lean against with one boot on the ground and one against the tree as I wait. While waiting I become omnipresent because I can “see” myself coming up with the elder women from the cave to the holographic door and see myself leaning against the tree. They hand myself to me in the doorway and I hear in my mind “Take care of her”. The self against the tree that climbed through the small hole is my spiritual self and the self the elder women walked out the chambers is my physical self. My spiritual self puts the physical self inside of her. The roles were now reversed, no longer spiritual inside physical, but physical inside spiritual. Before I leave the trance the message given to me was, “Shed skin like a snake, flow and change like a snake. Don’t be afraid to change, don’t be afraid to adapt”.

After every shamanic journey, astral travel, downloads, etc. I get from my ancestors or guides, I do research because the spirit speaks in ways that are not always clear and comprehensible to the human mind and the information will always have multiple meanings. From my research, I’ve learned the below over the last few days:

  1. The spot the elder oracle seer tapped on the back of my neck is the ancestral chakra aka alta major chakra aka Mouth of the Goddess/God.
  2. The “walking stick” was more than likely an initiation rod similar to the ones used in ancient Egypt by the priests/priestesses on initiates to activate the area by tapping it with the rod. https://soundhealingcenter.com/shrf/wp-content/uploads/2016/12/Vibrating-the-Alta-Major.pdf
  3. The burning in my body was the activation of the trinity chakras; the higher heart chakra, 3rd eye chakra and the alta major chakra; which then expels through the throat chakra; which is why I was forced to scream. https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/9th_Chakra#Thalamus_Complex.2C_9th_Chakra
  4. The alta major chakra is the 9th chakra and the activation of the trinity chakras moves the monad body into my physical body.
  5. Beginning of this year I had an akashic reading done and I was told that the koala was one of my totems. After communicating and adding my dad’s mom who is deceased to my altar, she told me that we have ancestral links to Australia. So, participating in the Uluru ceremony was destined and my ancestors were proud and it showed.
Ascension Glossary
Koala Ancestor Totem

December 21, 2020

As this day approaches, I would like to declare myself as in full servitude and gratitude. To publicly accept my purpose and fulfill my role as a beacon of light and a walking portal of truth. To walk my true path as a being of light from beyond this realm and universe.

I will explore and research all that is needed to share truths and reset people’s frequencies to their true state of being. I will incorporate light and sound frequencies within myself so I can set forth these frequencies into others.

My search for my truths has paid off and I’m honored to have been chosen to be a part of this mission. By accepting my true nature, I bring honor, truth and resolved karmas to the ancestral line I’m currently incarnated in. As I fulfill my heavenly and earthly role, I bring back into remembrance the ways of our ancestral past, link our heritage, reveal knowledge, wisdom and practices and awaken the magic within us.

I accept my multidimensional selves that include: Indigo, Priestess of the Serpent, Atlantean, Egyptian, Sekhmet, Regal, Anuba, Sobek, Anuket, Feathered Serpent Dragon, Anubis, Ptah, Yemaya, Lion, koala, owl, snake, Algonquin, celestial, Cygnus, Lyran, Sirian, Centurian, Orion, Russian, Zeta, South African, Nigerian/Cameroon, Sudan, Hebrew, Moor, Turkish, Serbian, Australian, Lilith, Andromedan, emanation of chokmah, elemental worker, revealer, dream maker, mother, sister, daughter, friend, wife.

Blessed and so it be. Amen!

Epiphany

My spiritual journey has been my higher self, multiple other selves, ancestors or guides giving me the answer before I even know the question or the ending before I know the beginning. They knew how my mind worked and taught me how I learn best before I even knew how I truly needed to learn.

They know I have an inner drive for understanding and learning the whys to life. So every time they give me an answer or an ending, it sends me on a quest for the question to the answer or the beginning to that ending. What I’ve found is there are several pathways and perspectives to an answer and several different forks in the road on a path back to the beginning. Either way, the journey along those paths and the quests to understand is what life is all about.

Love Spell

Being apart of several “witchy” groups, I’ve noticed the main thing girls in these groups want to do is cast love spells on guys. Or hex or curse a guy that hurt them but that’s a subject for another blog. I can admit that I’ve never wanted to “cast” a love spell, mainly because I didn’t know what love really was. My definition of love was completely different from everyone I’ve ever encountered. My definition of love is “Love is a choice, not a feeling.” I’ve never came across anyone that valued the love that I gave. So my perspective on love was that it wasn’t for me and it was nothing but heartache, because I expressed love differently than others.

While dating a guy a long time ago, we was having a discussion on love and commitment and I told him my definition and he got upset. He couldn’t grasp my perspective on love. He was offended that I was saying that I could fall out of love with him. In my defense, I reinteriated my point that my love for someone would be a choice and not based on how I felt towards them, because feelings can change in a blink of an eye. Then to make matters worse, he tried to convince me that it was his job to make me happy and keep me in loving feelings towards him. Unfortunately, he was talking to the new, improved and awakened me and not the old, insecure, didn’t know my worth me. The old me would have soaked those words up and entrapped me, but the new me wasn’t having it. I responded with “I’m responsible for my own happiness and you the same. You should enhance me and I the same to you.” Welp, he wasn’t having that and I completely understood why. Most people base their value on someone else’s value and need of them. Tit for tat relationships, I give you this and you better give me what I gave you back at equal or greater value. I was a culprit of this myself in many of relationships, but the difference in my circumstances was that I was given way too much of myself to try to keep people happy with me. I put my self-worth on how I made others happy in hopes they would reciprocate the same effort towards me and that never happened till now.

After taking time to heal after a terrible marriage, a stressful divorce and converting back into single mommy hood, I focused a lot of free time on my spiritual journey. While on this part of my journey, the universe threw some tests at me to see if I’ve learned my lessons. One was the guy I mentioned earlier, another was an old flame and the last was a really nice guy that I gave a chance because my intuition said do it. The guy I mentioned above tested my ability to stand in my true feelings even when it conflicted with the person I’m dating. The old flame came back to remind me that I was above the bullshit and that it is ok to be better or above someone. To know my worth! The really nice guy was my test to go outside the box of the typical guys I dated to show me there’s more to life when you remove unnecessary boundaries. Also, to test me in my truth of being a magical, gifted being that was no longer trapped in religion. The really nice guy was a church guy that lived a contradicting lifestyle but had a problem with me embracing my spiritual path. It was hard but I chose my true nature over him and it was the final test I needed to past for the universe to show me I was ready to accept my god hood.

In January 2019 I did a love spell and it was nothing like any love spell I came across in groups or doing searches on the internet. My love spell was intuitive and about me accepting my divinity and letting the universe know I was ready to receive the love it had for me. I placed my life in the hands of the universe and wrote my spell to fall within universal laws, even if the love I attracted was me loving myself solo. This spell was so powerful that the notebook I wrote it in disappeared. I tried to keep the spell so I could reference it later but the universe was like “Naw, you gave this to us so it has to leave you to fully be in our hands.” From that day forward I continued to live, explore my spiritual journey and didn’t even think about the work I did with that spell.

Before I even did the spell work, I had arranged a cabin trip within a Facebook group for the end of February 2019. So, the Friday of the cabin trip arrived and I didn’t even pay attention to the date 2/22/19 (222). When I arrived a girl named Amber and a guy I’ve never met before greeted me at the door. The first thing I noticed when I opened the door was this guy with this huge smile stirring at me all googly. I could tell he was “intrigued” by me but I brushed it off because I know I have that effect on guys. So how he was acting wasn’t odd or worth paying attention to. Once inside he offers to take my bag, like he switched from intrigued mode to servitude mode. So I let him take my bag and I followed both of them upstairs. While walking to meet everybody that was already there, I’m videotaping the cabin because it was awesome. So I’m not paying this guy any attention while we’re walking. We get upstairs and he starts to walk up these loft steps to a room he said was mine and I stopped him. I let him know I didn’t want that room because it was too open and noisy and I wanted a room away from everybody. So he takes me around this bin to a whole other part of the house to a room away from everybody. I tell him cool I’ll take this one and he looks at me and this was the first time I made eye contact with him and he replies “but this is my room.” We locked eyes and it was like we spoke telepathically because I was thinking “that’s nice but I want this room” and he responded verbally “ok you can have it.”

After that interaction, I found myself drawn to him. Yes he was cute, had a nice body, gorgeous smile, you know all the physical things opposite sex are attracted to but it wasn’t that I was drawn to. I found myself wanting to be in his presence and had to stop myself from stirring at him. Every now and then I would catch him stirring at me then quickly turning his head or eyes away like he wasn’t too. At dinner I put my glass next to where he was going to sit but a girl moved it and sat next to him not realizing my glass of water was my spot saver. Later that night we were all in the jacuzzi and we were the last ones to get out. He tried to have a conversation with me but it was forced and awkward. I started to take that weird interaction as maybe what I was feeling wasn’t what I thought it was towards him.

Then things took a turn for the better later that night. We created a bond over spying on the weird owner of the cabin we was staying at. To the point I screamed for him to join me at a window and all he had on was his boxers. Till this day I’m shocked that we spent hours together spying on this guy and not once did I notice he was in his boxers. We were so wrapped up in each other’s company, laughing and joking around I never noticed and he never thought to go put some shorts on. Later on finding out what he was working with, I definitely should of have noticed! The most memorable part of the spying was when I was sitting on a chair and he came and sat down on a foot stole to be close to me while we chatted. There was a couch and another chair he could of chose to sat on but he sat on the foot stool. The way he was looking at me when he was listening to me was so adorable. Like I was the most beautiful, intriguing woman he had ever seen. He still looks at me like that and expresses his amazement of me everyday. Once we had enough of spying on the owner, we went to sleep in our separate rooms. That night I ended up having a dream that revealed that he was the one for me, my soul mate. The rest of that weekend we were inseparable, where ever I was he was. When we didn’t know where one of us was we would ask someone where the other is.

We became an immediate couple and been making couple moves ever since. At times I would say I wish I met him in my younger years, but I know all the things I’ve gone through prepared me for having him in my life. The connection and bond we have is what movies are made of. But not the typical love movie, I’m talking about a supernatural, superhuman sci-fi love movie. Our connection is so strong and we’re so intuned that we finish each others thoughts and sentences. We can send thoughts to each other and we will respond via text or phone. We know when one is off and exactly what to do to make the other feel better. During sex this man knows secrets held within my body that he maneuvers like he was the one that placed them there. He completely understands my definition of love and our roles as a man and woman in a partnership. He fully fulfills his role as a protector and I as my role as a nurturer. In regards to our god hood, he is my generator and I am is manifestation vessel. He allows me to be the magical being that am, practice my spirituality as I see fit and inquires to learn more about my practices. The perfect guy for me!

My love spell was open-ended and written to work within universal laws; which released full control to the universe to work on my behalf. I loved myself first and that was the key to attracting someone who loved me too. He is the best person and partner for me based on my authentic, true self. And You can also attract the person that is for you by being who you truly are too.

Dear Diary – Entry #3

6/3/2020 – 2nd day of a 7 day Releasing and Cleansing Bath Ritual

Meditated after finishing immersions. I the wanted to go to zero void, so I seek out the void and ended up at the dark throne outside the universe. My skin was blue black and I was humongous. My body became All. I can see the arm of the dark throne threw my arm and can see the outline of my arm at the same time. My arm and legs body was one with the universe. My body was reflective of the universe. I was the universe and the universe was me….One. Then I decided to get up and walk around the throne to explore the area because I never have. I’ve always come to the dark throne and just sat on it but since I was controlling this meditation I decided to explore. The ground was dark and rocky, like a dessert rocky terrain. Standing behind the throne I could see the explosions happening in the far off distance of the universe. Then I kicked the dark throne and saw that it sat on top of a dark rocky sphere as it moved away from me. The force from the kick forced me backwards into a white space beyond the void that was the beginning point of the universe. In this white space it wasn’t really white, it’s staticky like a black and white tv. As I looked closer the static is 0 1 code moving rapidly. “See through the code”, just like Neo in the matrix. See the space within the space. I started to see my universe body as atoms, the space with the space. The code that creates all. As I pulled myself back into the void I could see the code that made up the universe. The white space behind me appeared as a bright room behind a “curtain of universe”. As I turned away the curtain closed showing me that I got to see behind the veil. I could see the code in the universe explosions. I used my hand to push on the code and thought mountain and out came a mountain. I pushed on the code in another place, thought Eiffel tower and saw the Eiffel tower. I called on the guardian of the dark throne and saw he was made of the “guardian” code. Then I went to earths sun and saw the code that made up the sun. Then I wanted to see the code of earth and saw the barrier around earth and noticed dark 0s & 1s in the code and started to remove them or tap them to turn gold. Then I wanted to see myself and see my code. I came upon myself in the tub and thought “see the code” and I code see dark 0s & 1s in parts of my aura. So I decided to do a scan to remove the dark codes and as I started to remove the dark codes and tap some to turn gold it was like a warning alarm went off. A swirl of dark grayish black spiral swirl of matter began flowing out of me. My body started to tingle and I started to feel fear. So I forced myself to not fall into fear and retreat. As I stayed in the moment I was being forced by this grayish matter to come out of meditative state. The alarm red color started to overcome me as the gray black matter spread so wide it blocked me from seeing myself in the tub. My third eye started to glitch. So I grabbed hold of the gray black matter and started to pull it off of me and slung it beyond the barrier of earth. Then I went back to myself and pulled off a layer of gray matter off my aura and threw it beyond the barrier. Then I started to tap gold the dark 0 & 1 codes, “turn gold”. Then I started to feel tingly in my shoulders and back of neck. I went in and pulled from the back of my neck where the bone protrudes a scorpion 🦂 looking parasite from there. I smashed it in my hands and threw it beyond the barrier. I finished turning my aura gold then I made myself invisible. I checked my invisibility status several times and I could not see myself but could see the bathtub with the water, the candle and crystals there. I left myself and went beyond the barrier, grabbed the gray black matter, gray matter and the parasite and threw it in the sun to dissolve it. Then I went back to the dark throne, checked in on myself and I was still invisible. Could only see the tub and what not. Then I started saying OM internally in the tub to solidify the cleanse, said thank you and came back to.

Birthing Pains

We are going through a birthing. A new Earth is emerging from an old, broken, run down and no longer able to function properly Earth. This is the transitioning of 5D from 3D that so many speak about. The misconception is that it’s an actual new planet earth or a physical new heaven, because it’s not. It’s a higher level of vibrations, a higher view to see the whole picture, which means a higher perspective is dawning. One where the Universal Law of One is honored. One where the respect of duality is honored. One where the roles of humans, animals, plants, dimensional beings, and all things metaphysical are honored and respected. The pain, discontent, and emotional rollercoaster we are all on right now is necessary and a part of the birthing process just like when a woman gives birth. The pain, discontent and emotional rollercoaster she feels isn’t caused by the baby….. it’s caused by the birthing process and that part of the process can’t be skipped.

Old 3D earth has to go through birthing aka the 4D portal to rise up to the new 5D earth

What we should be doing right now is grounding ourselves and helping Mother Earth ground in this new level of energy. Captured in many books written within oppressive societies, humans are made to feel less than and puny among the “gods”. But in reality the “gods” envied humans because we were originally created to be able to navigate the spiritual and the physical realms simultaneously. We are the bridge, the portal between the dimensional realms, the physical and spiritual planes of existence. Through us, I’m specifically talking to melanated people, we can anchor in these new energies. The People of the Sun aka The Sun Kissed Skin aka melanated people are the protectors of this Earth and have the genetics to anchor in the new energy.

*Please take note that all of us have different levels of melanin in our bodies ranging from 100% to 0% and the color of your skin reflects that. So, if you have any melanin in your body you can assist in the anchoring of these high vibrational energies.
Dictionary.com – What is Melanated skin? A dark brown coloring found in the body, especially in the skin and hair. Produced by special skin cells that are sensitive to sunlight, melanin protects the body by absorbing ultraviolet radiation from the sun.

The new energy I speak of is on the higher scale of the electromagnetic spectrum and this scale has radio waves/red as low frequency energy and ultraviolent waves/purple as high frequency waves. The EMF scale also reflects how our chakras are arranged regarding a low frequency/red/root chakra to a high frequency/purple/crown chakra. These higher levels of radiation that are deemed as unhealthy and problematic by non-melanated people is only that way towards them. Our genetic nature, our melanin is activated and energized by the sun and cosmic radiation (higher vibrational energy). We are the righteous, those who can survive under the frequencies on the right side of the EMF Spectrum.

One of the reasons this shift is occurring is because, malevolent beings enslaved this earth and has been able to entrap us and stagnant our spiritual growth by creating an electric, negative ion barrier around earth (electric is the masculine aspect of energy, magnetic is the feminine aspect of energy). This barrier would reflect higher vibrational energy away and allow low vibrational energy through, which caused an imbalance in the energies on earth. This helped keep earth, as a whole, in a very low vibrational state and all things patriarchal/masculine/electric driven started to run rampant on earth because the divine feminine/magnetic was repressed. By doing this, these malevolent beings unhinged the Law of Duality on earth. Wars, famine, dis-ease, a narcissistic society and so on are all created within low vibrational states of being and these malevolent beings feed off the negative, low vibrational energy produced.

Electric barrier around Earth

The current state we are in right now has been talked about for ages in every culture that’s graced this planet because they knew balance would eventually restore itself. They knew the universe would correct the mess these malevolent beings caused. The electric barrier that surrounded earth has been dissolved and the shifting of these dimensional planes is allowing higher vibrational energy to penetrate through to Earth and with the return of the Divine Feminine, Earth’s spiritual imbalance is being restored back into balance. To restore the balance the old earth, the old ways, the current leaders and everything associated with those malevolent beings must be broken down and destroyed to be able to build a new earth with a solid foundation based on balanced universal laws. The establishment associated with those malevolent beings is fighting very hard to try to maintain their control, but out of this chaos will come order.

Based on everything I’ve listed above, remove your human emotions out of the way and think about all the injustice that has been done to melanated people all over this earth, the injustice done to women all over this earth, and the backwardness of society. Where teachers are paid scrapes but a guy that can shoot a basketball gets paid millions, a nurse (who have been predominantly women) is looked at as less than a doctor (who have been predominantly men) when they do all the dirty work, how people can’t afford food or a decent place to live, but politicians can raise millions to run for an office, or how the government can come up with trillions of dollars to fund bail outs to major companies, but there are people in this country trying to live off of minimum wage. Now, open your eye and your spirit and see how over the past decade or so melanated people have risen in positions and in power and women as a whole have risen in positions and in power. Melanated women have embraced their natural power, their natural hair, left religion behind and embraced their ancestral practices. Those steps were the Divine Feminine returning to Earth which helped awaken Mother Earth. This current state and this shift we are in right now has been in the works for a long time. Using our powers to perform grounding rituals, grounding spells, spending time in the sun barefoot and earthing and carrying grounding tools, stones, etc. are the practices we need to be doing right now to assist.

Sister Energies – “Sa Sekhem Sahu”

Ephesians 6:12, KJV: “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

Sister Energies

During a meditation last night, I was told by Sekhmet and Inanna to find their sisters. I’ve been trying to figure out how this information related to me. Being told by both to find their sisters, then pulling oracle cards as an added confirmation gave me the connection I needed. See, I’ve been pulling Work Your Light “Sisterhood of the Rose” oracle card for months now and I initially thought I was being pushed to start a “sisterhood” of like minded women in the 3D and that could be the case. But when it comes to spiritual matters there’s always levels of understanding. The level of sisterhood revealed to me last night has to do with my primordial self, my highest of highs self.

The Rose is the symbol for Venus due to its orbit pattern resembling a rose

To set the scene for this epiphany, I need to take you back to 2018. I was initiated by Sekhmet in Nov 2018 during a meditation and I was initially initiated as her daughter. I’ll write about that experience in a separate blog at a later time, because it was wild! Since that initiation I’ve been trying to understand the next course of action I’m supposed to take with Sekhmet. Then, 2 weeks ago I did a Sekhmet guided meditation and I was taken to the desert, to her temple within the Temple of Karnak. While in her presence I was told that I was her and she is me. We are the same energy, the same blood, we are sisters. A course I was puzzled by this and asked Sekhmet how am I a sister but was a daughter last year. Her reply was that I have graduated to sister because I’ve grown so much into my true self since then. After asking Sekhmet some more questions, she told me to have a ceremony at 2:22am the next night; which fell on May 7th the Flower Full Moon. I was directed to wear a gold jewel over my 3rd eye region, a red dress, the same oil I put in my spiritual bath, to burn the flowers from my spiritual bath and use the same crystals. The next night I woke up at 2:15am, got set up on my back porch in the cold of the night and followed through with the ceremony Sekhmet requested me to do. By embracing Sekhmet, I finally embraced the true me and now I am tasked with tying all of my lineage together.

Temple of Karnak
Pharaohs Temple

Last night during another Sekhmet guided meditation, I as Sekhmet attended a council meeting with the head Kemetian gods and goddesses. Present there was Osiris, Auset, Anubis, Maat, Horus, Thoth, Sebek and a monkey god. The meeting took place on a different plane within the Pharaohs Temple in Egypt. The room setting with myself and all the gods reminded me of the painting “Ancestors in Conference”. While at this meeting, Osiris states that the Anunnaki want to meet then the wall becomes the universe with the Milky Way ban in view. The universe connects with the fountain that is in the room and becomes a “universe” bridge and down the bridge comes Anu and Inanna. I couldn’t fully make out the face or body of Anu but knew it was him and I couldn’t fully see Inanna’s full face and length of her body but I knew it was her. As Inanna gets closer to the room I, Sekhmet, run over to her and yell “Sister” as we embraced in a joyous hug and smiled at each other. The union was as if we haven’t seen each other in a very, long time. Inanna is a beautiful black woman with green fluorescent reptilian eyes, and wavy 3C hair.

Anu begins to speak and states, “We are one in the same, given dominion over different regions. We need to make this known that we are one in the same. No pantheon/cluster of gods are better or greater than the other. It’s time to come together and let them know”. While Anu is speaking I, Sekhmet and Inanna are still holding hands and our outer appearance keep cycling between our original selves (Sekhmet with golden fur to black jaguar fur and Inanna with brown skin to green scaly reptilian skin) to metallic gold bodies. After Anu finishes his statement, I start hearing “find my sisters” over and over. Then as I saw the statement “daughters of Eve.” Then the imagery of the room changed and I was in a circle around Venus/Sun (it looked like Venus and the sun were one, cycling from red to yellow spewing out energetic flames) with my cosmic sisters. We were all holding hands and I had Inanna on my left and a Japanese goddess on my right. When the Japanese goddess first arrived to the room she was in the form of a dragon and I’m thinking how is holding hands going to work with her. Then she morphed into a woman dressed in red attire covering her breast area and a long slit skirt with her belly region exposed, a dangly bejeweled veil over her nose and mouth region, and a fanned out hair piece resembling sun rays. She reminded me of one of the Mortal Kombat girl fighters. Then as she approached the circle her attire turned white. Also, in the circle was Kali, the Jaguar Queen, Aphrodite and 2 others I couldn’t make out. As we’re holding hands, gold energy builds between our palms and in our heart region. Our clothes and hair are moving like we are in a high wind energy vortex created by us and the planet Venus.

After coming out of this amazing experience, I then began my challenge of finding my sisters. We are all one and the same. The same energy expressed differently from the divine creator…..making us sisters. Our sisterhood will tie together how the Anunnaki, Hindu Deities, Kemetic/Egyptian Deities, Aztec/Mayan Deities, Japanese Deities, Grecian Deities, etc are one in the same. A cluster of divine deities assigned to different regions of this Earth to influence, rule, mold, etc. as they saw fit. Depending on the region of “assignment” these deities either created the culture or absorbed into the culture. As we’ve seen in history, humans have a tendency to rename, adopt or eliminate deities to fit their agenda.

Inanna
Sekhmet

Dear Diary – Entry #2

The below drawing is my very first “journal” entry I made when I started writing down my thoughts and documenting my visions, dreams and meditations. I don’t know why I drew it, it was just something that came through while I was doodling trying to figure out what to start the notebook off with. After I was done drawing it made complete sense that it represented me at that moment.

12/4/2016

Drawing Analysis: I was thinking Jupiter but drew Saturn and this mix up happens all the time with me regarding these planets. Later I would learn about the significance of both planets in relation to myself and their interactions with each other. Jupiter being the benevolent planet and Saturn being the malevolent planet. Polarities, Enki and Enlil.

Moon and sun being polarities and very prominent in my being. I’m a solar creature but also a moon child. I gain my power and stability from both the sun and the moon. I absorb the sun for my physical nutrients and the moon for my spiritual nutrition. Moon being feminine and the sun being masculine, magnetic and electric selves represented.

The star is my 3rd eye and I drew both physical eyes and 3rd eye wide open which they’ve always been.

My mind (upper self) on the stars, the universe, the heavenly bodies. My mouth (lower self) in paradise, exploring nature and speaking with the natural orders.

Epiphany – Golden Vibes

Right when you think you know something the universe says, nope think again. This moment I’m about to talk about falls into my constant reminder to myself that “there’s levels to this”. Last night was a new moon, so I wrote out a list of things I would like to work on or come to be during this new moon cycle. For once my list was simple and didn’t have any of the normal things I listed before. For example, I would list financial stability, making new friends or finding my soul tribe. But this time I listed to learn more about myself my true nature, go inner more, and bring balance to my family and myself. After I made this list I felt I should do a new moon oracle deck reading and the urge was to specifically ask my 9D self some questions. The questions that came to mind were “what do I need to know, what do you need me to know”? The cards pulled and the messages with each was not what I expected but once I settled my mind and removed my own subjective thoughts, a greater understanding and communication from my 9D self came through. The overall message was: “That I need to dive deeper. I can’t stop where I’m at in my progress, I have to pull back the layers of myself like a rose and find the core of myself, the deepest meaning of myself. What is at the core of a rose?

So, after compiling that message into something comprehensible I started doing what I always do after an insightful reading, I start googling terms from the message to see where it leads. First I searched the phrase “core of a rose” and came across images of the main center parts of flowers. While seeing these pictures over and over, the number 3 stood out to me. So I changed up the wording of the search to the “center of a rose”, then all these images of the center of the rose popped up and in these pictures I saw a galaxy within the rose. Tiny stars surrounded by cosmic web filaments. I was stunned and in awe and took a moment to admire the beauty.

Then the thought of the Amorea Flame that is in our activated higher heart-thymus chakra and the Threefold Founder Flames came to mind. The only place that talks about these subjects is Energetic Synthesis. So, I moseyed on over to that site but all the links I had already had open in my phone were not to the ES Ascension Glossary where I can read about the Amorea Flame. So, I had to go through the main page to get to the Ascension Glossary and normally when I have to do this it opens to the introduction page of the glossary. But last night it opened to a page I’ve never seen before. The Ascension Glossary opened to a page about the Ra Center and as I read the first paragraph I had to stop because I needed to rub my temples from the overwhelming explosion happening in my mind.

Back in 2017, I was shown a secret about the “golden orb” on a galactic ship. Then I was portaled to the south of Africa in a red dirt bush country to teach the people about the golden orb. While teaching a native, we were in secrecy behind a bush hiding the information I was sharing with him and keeping a watchful eye. After I awakened from that experience, I was on a mission to learn what this golden orb is because how was I supposed to teach people about it if I don’t even know what it is. In 2018, I finally came across some information that started to put the pieces of this mystery together for me but instead of creating a single level picture, it started to create a multi-leveled picture. I eventually learned that the golden orb/golden energy means different things depending on the perspective, dimension or density. Golden energy can be associated with the 8th Chakra, the flame in your higher heart chakra, the energy in your solar plexus area and the gold flame (14th chakra) apart of the Threefold Founder Flames aka God Heads relating to the 13th, 14th and 15th chakras.

Here’s my take on what I read last night, which I know I will have to read a few more times and research certain subjects more to be able to truly grasp it all. So, after reading about the Ra Center and its association with those areas, I had an epiphany. All that I learned about the golden orb/golden energy all intertwined and up to that moment I did not see the connection. The golden orb/golden energy is in 4 areas of the body and each golden energy that I’ve discovered so far all match up to those 4 areas. Each golden energy area needs to be discovered separately so you can work on the area, purge the area and heal the area before they can connect and help to pull your 4 bodies (ego, soul, oversoul and avatar) into balance. At the same time, the merging of your male aspects (electric, negative, father, rod) and female aspects (magnetic, positive, mother, arc) will also begin to merge and bring you into balance. And all of this merging and balancing of the 4 bodies and the male and female aspects will be the beginning of all your multi-dimensional selves merging as well.

“Activate your golden vibes”

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/RA_Center

The Space Between Us

Dark matter, the unseen cosmic web of the universe.

Space is a play on our senses and perception. The shortest distance between two objects is a straight line, a direct path. The area between those 2 objects is called space. From what we’ve been taught in school and generally in society is that space is an empty open area, nothing special about it at all. Air fills the open area between objects on land and in lakes and oceans water fills in the open area between objects. Flat out, we were taught wrong! Not per se on purpose but due to no one ever wondering what the space between us really is. Assumptions were made, majority of the population agreed to them and it became a fact that space is open area. But now scientist have discovered that there is something that makes up the space between us. To better understand this concept of what space truly is we have to look at it in the perspective of “as above so below, as within so without”.

As above so below, as within so without is a very simple way of understanding how we work as humans within this universe. We as humans are a smaller version of the universe. I will not dive into this concept right now, but I will use the general overlay to explain my thoughts on the space between us. The human body is made up of cells and when those cells are differentiated, they create our organs. Those organs then operate off of the nervous system to perform their duties voluntary and involuntary. With each organ, tissue and cell coming together and working in complete harmony, they create a functioning human body. Now, what is holding all these cells, tissues, and organs in place in the body? Why aren’t they moving all freely around in us? Well, the organs in our bodies are held together by a web of connective tissues, which keeps our organs from moving out of place. Cells forming tissues are held together by cell to cell adhesion called gap junctions, which are proteins that bond the cells together. This allows fluidity to occur and the perception of solidarity. The human body doesn’t have space or open areas in it, ever crevice is filled with some type of fluid, gas or connective tissues. Even when we think there’s space somewhere in the body, for example our intestines, it is occupied with gas.

The universe is just like the structuring of the human body, regarding there are no open areas. Scientist called the area outside and surrounding Earth outer space because that’s what their senses perceived the areas as. Through their own eyes and telescopes, they saw long distances of open space between stars, planets and galaxies and assumed that the space was empty. But that perception has changed with the use of telescopes that use higher frequencies of the electromagnetic spectrum that fall outside of the visible light spectrum range.

Electromagnetic Spectrum is the range of frequencies of electromagnetic radiation and their respective wavelengths and photon energies.

Visible light is a very, very tiny section on the electromagnetic spectrum, so any frequency above the color purple and below the color red we cannot see with our 2 physical eyes. When scientist started using frequencies outside of the visible light spectrum range, they started to be able to see the universe in a whole new way. Dark areas of space actual had stars, black holes became visible and the open areas between objects are actually connected by a web of material they call “dark matter”. Since scientists don’t know how it works, what its made of or really anything about it they named it dark matter. Not only is dark matter invisible to our senses, it doesn’t operate like any other material known. Objects move freely through it like its not even there and it doesn’t reflect but absorbs energy like a black hole. Scientist via the CERN project began performing experiments on dark matter and recently discovered that within dark matter is dark energy aka the “God Particle”. These scientist are correlating dark energy to the beginning of All and I agree. Their search for answers is bringing them closer to understanding truth and they haven’t even realized it yet.

While studying the mystical kabbalah a particular lesson stood out to me, the lesson on the decision of Creator Source to start creating and experiencing. Creator Source couldn’t just create from itself to experience because then it would have say so in everything created under it. It would know every move, thought and direction beforehand because that’s what Creator Source is, nothing and everything…..the see all, know all, is all. So, to truly be able to experience, Creator source had to create separately from itself, hence the creation of the void. And how do we know this? Through symbolism and the symbol that holds this magnificent truth (drum roll)…..the Target sign, which is the dot within 2 circles. The information I received during an alpha wave deep thought session explains the symbol as such; the outer circle being Creator Source, the inner circle being the space between Creator Source and the dot represents the void. The space between Creator Source and the void; which all creation was created from, is dark matter the unseen web that connects all.

Target symbol – a dot within 2 circles

The space between me and an object or person or animal is a false perception to make us seem separate from each other. Dark matter connects us metaphysically but separates us perspectively. The unseen web of dark matter is our connection to each other, to all things and to the Creator Source.