Dear Diary – Entry #3

6/3/2020 – 2nd day of a 7 day Releasing and Cleansing Bath Ritual

Meditated after finishing immersions. I the wanted to go to zero void, so I seek out the void and ended up at the dark throne outside the universe. My skin was blue black and I was humongous. My body became All. I can see the arm of the dark throne threw my arm and can see the outline of my arm at the same time. My arm and legs body was one with the universe. My body was reflective of the universe. I was the universe and the universe was me….One. Then I decided to get up and walk around the throne to explore the area because I never have. I’ve always come to the dark throne and just sat on it but since I was controlling this meditation I decided to explore. The ground was dark and rocky, like a dessert rocky terrain. Standing behind the throne I could see the explosions happening in the far off distance of the universe. Then I kicked the dark throne and saw that it sat on top of a dark rocky sphere as it moved away from me. The force from the kick forced me backwards into a white space beyond the void that was the beginning point of the universe. In this white space it wasn’t really white, it’s staticky like a black and white tv. As I looked closer the static is 0 1 code moving rapidly. “See through the code”, just like Neo in the matrix. See the space within the space. I started to see my universe body as atoms, the space with the space. The code that creates all. As I pulled myself back into the void I could see the code that made up the universe. The white space behind me appeared as a bright room behind a “curtain of universe”. As I turned away the curtain closed showing me that I got to see behind the veil. I could see the code in the universe explosions. I used my hand to push on the code and thought mountain and out came a mountain. I pushed on the code in another place, thought Eiffel tower and saw the Eiffel tower. I called on the guardian of the dark throne and saw he was made of the “guardian” code. Then I went to earths sun and saw the code that made up the sun. Then I wanted to see the code of earth and saw the barrier around earth and noticed dark 0s & 1s in the code and started to remove them or tap them to turn gold. Then I wanted to see myself and see my code. I came upon myself in the tub and thought “see the code” and I code see dark 0s & 1s in parts of my aura. So I decided to do a scan to remove the dark codes and as I started to remove the dark codes and tap some to turn gold it was like a warning alarm went off. A swirl of dark grayish black spiral swirl of matter began flowing out of me. My body started to tingle and I started to feel fear. So I forced myself to not fall into fear and retreat. As I stayed in the moment I was being forced by this grayish matter to come out of meditative state. The alarm red color started to overcome me as the gray black matter spread so wide it blocked me from seeing myself in the tub. My third eye started to glitch. So I grabbed hold of the gray black matter and started to pull it off of me and slung it beyond the barrier of earth. Then I went back to myself and pulled off a layer of gray matter off my aura and threw it beyond the barrier. Then I started to tap gold the dark 0 & 1 codes, “turn gold”. Then I started to feel tingly in my shoulders and back of neck. I went in and pulled from the back of my neck where the bone protrudes a scorpion 🦂 looking parasite from there. I smashed it in my hands and threw it beyond the barrier. I finished turning my aura gold then I made myself invisible. I checked my invisibility status several times and I could not see myself but could see the bathtub with the water, the candle and crystals there. I left myself and went beyond the barrier, grabbed the gray black matter, gray matter and the parasite and threw it in the sun to dissolve it. Then I went back to the dark throne, checked in on myself and I was still invisible. Could only see the tub and what not. Then I started saying OM internally in the tub to solidify the cleanse, said thank you and came back to.

Birthing Pains

We are going through a birthing. A new Earth is emerging from an old, broken, run down and no longer able to function properly Earth. This is the transitioning of 5D from 3D that so many speak about. The misconception is that it’s an actual new planet earth or a physical new heaven, because it’s not. It’s a higher level of vibrations, a higher view to see the whole picture, which means a higher perspective is dawning. One where the Universal Law of One is honored. One where the respect of duality is honored. One where the roles of humans, animals, plants, dimensional beings, and all things metaphysical are honored and respected. The pain, discontent, and emotional rollercoaster we are all on right now is necessary and a part of the birthing process just like when a woman gives birth. The pain, discontent and emotional rollercoaster she feels isn’t caused by the baby….. it’s caused by the birthing process and that part of the process can’t be skipped.

Old 3D earth has to go through birthing aka the 4D portal to rise up to the new 5D earth

What we should be doing right now is grounding ourselves and helping Mother Earth ground in this new level of energy. Captured in many books written within oppressive societies, humans are made to feel less than and puny among the “gods”. But in reality the “gods” envied humans because we were originally created to be able to navigate the spiritual and the physical realms simultaneously. We are the bridge, the portal between the dimensional realms, the physical and spiritual planes of existence. Through us, I’m specifically talking to melanated people, we can anchor in these new energies. The People of the Sun aka The Sun Kissed Skin aka melanated people are the protectors of this Earth and have the genetics to anchor in the new energy.

*Please take note that all of us have different levels of melanin in our bodies ranging from 100% to 0% and the color of your skin reflects that. So, if you have any melanin in your body you can assist in the anchoring of these high vibrational energies.
Dictionary.com – What is Melanated skin? A dark brown coloring found in the body, especially in the skin and hair. Produced by special skin cells that are sensitive to sunlight, melanin protects the body by absorbing ultraviolet radiation from the sun.

The new energy I speak of is on the higher scale of the electromagnetic spectrum and this scale has radio waves/red as low frequency energy and ultraviolent waves/purple as high frequency waves. The EMF scale also reflects how our chakras are arranged regarding a low frequency/red/root chakra to a high frequency/purple/crown chakra. These higher levels of radiation that are deemed as unhealthy and problematic by non-melanated people is only that way towards them. Our genetic nature, our melanin is activated and energized by the sun and cosmic radiation (higher vibrational energy). We are the righteous, those who can survive under the frequencies on the right side of the EMF Spectrum.

One of the reasons this shift is occurring is because, malevolent beings enslaved this earth and has been able to entrap us and stagnant our spiritual growth by creating an electric, negative ion barrier around earth (electric is the masculine aspect of energy, magnetic is the feminine aspect of energy). This barrier would reflect higher vibrational energy away and allow low vibrational energy through, which caused an imbalance in the energies on earth. This helped keep earth, as a whole, in a very low vibrational state and all things patriarchal/masculine/electric driven started to run rampant on earth because the divine feminine/magnetic was repressed. By doing this, these malevolent beings unhinged the Law of Duality on earth. Wars, famine, dis-ease, a narcissistic society and so on are all created within low vibrational states of being and these malevolent beings feed off the negative, low vibrational energy produced.

Electric barrier around Earth

The current state we are in right now has been talked about for ages in every culture that’s graced this planet because they knew balance would eventually restore itself. They knew the universe would correct the mess these malevolent beings caused. The electric barrier that surrounded earth has been dissolved and the shifting of these dimensional planes is allowing higher vibrational energy to penetrate through to Earth and with the return of the Divine Feminine, Earth’s spiritual imbalance is being restored back into balance. To restore the balance the old earth, the old ways, the current leaders and everything associated with those malevolent beings must be broken down and destroyed to be able to build a new earth with a solid foundation based on balanced universal laws. The establishment associated with those malevolent beings is fighting very hard to try to maintain their control, but out of this chaos will come order.

Based on everything I’ve listed above, remove your human emotions out of the way and think about all the injustice that has been done to melanated people all over this earth, the injustice done to women all over this earth, and the backwardness of society. Where teachers are paid scrapes but a guy that can shoot a basketball gets paid millions, a nurse (who have been predominantly women) is looked at as less than a doctor (who have been predominantly men) when they do all the dirty work, how people can’t afford food or a decent place to live, but politicians can raise millions to run for an office, or how the government can come up with trillions of dollars to fund bail outs to major companies, but there are people in this country trying to live off of minimum wage. Now, open your eye and your spirit and see how over the past decade or so melanated people have risen in positions and in power and women as a whole have risen in positions and in power. Melanated women have embraced their natural power, their natural hair, left religion behind and embraced their ancestral practices. Those steps were the Divine Feminine returning to Earth which helped awaken Mother Earth. This current state and this shift we are in right now has been in the works for a long time. Using our powers to perform grounding rituals, grounding spells, spending time in the sun barefoot and earthing and carrying grounding tools, stones, etc. are the practices we need to be doing right now to assist.

Sister Energies – “Sa Sekhem Sahu”

Ephesians 6:12, KJV: “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

Root Cause Analysis – Out of Shadows Documentary

This blog will be my thoughts regarding the Out of Shadows documentary

The hot and newly trending documentary right now is the Out of Shadows “disclosure” YouTube video. When I first saw this documentary popping up in all of my starseed and spiritual awakening groups, I ignored it. Solely because I’m not a trend follower and I wanted to observe the traffic around these posts to see how people were reacting. I was intentionally doing what I’ve been taught, which is to transcend to an observer, to be neutral, a revealer and be truth. After reading the comments from people about the documentary, I took some time out of my day to watch it and I must agree it was a good documentary. Majority of the topics discussed I already knew about, but the one that got to me the most and had me like “wow mind explosion” was pizza gate.

When pizza gate was floating around in the mainstream media, I was no longer watching the news or following the ‘happenings” in mainstream media due to distancing myself from hearing, seeing or engaging in anything political due to how it was effecting me. But now I’m beating myself up for not paying attention to that story and the countless other stories relating to the topic of pizza gate. Pizza gate is about the elite’s child trafficking rings and it’s beyond disturbing. These child trafficking rings intentionally and purposely perform sexual and mental abuse, torture and kill these children. Which makes perfect sense when you know what’s really going on with earth and who/whom is controlling it. That’s the part of the documentary I was very disappointed with. I was constantly shaking my head every time they mentioned god and satan, because neither one of those aspects have anything to do with the actual truth of what these people are doing behind closed doors and many times right in front of our faces. Ending the documentary without provoking people to ask critical thinking questions is why I’m writing this blog.

Even though the documentary was very informative, it was still skewed and tainted. They kept the audience focused and blocked from wondering off the path laid out in front of them. The main agenda pushed was that these people are the evil ones and the makers of the documentary are the good ones, because they told us what the evil ones are doing. And how was the documentary skewed and tainted you might ask? Well, they kept your focus on the narrative by pulling religion, more specifically Christianity beliefs into the documentary and even used a cross watermark on the title page. So, why are they making it seem like there’s a war between good and evil going on? That’s what you should be asking yourself and why did the documentary end without exploring why these evil ones are doing what they’re doing.

So, I challenge you to dive deeper by doing a highly effective analyzing technique used in many industries to determine root causes to issues in a manufacturing facility called root cause analysis. So, what is Root Cause Analysis (RCA)? Well, it’s a systematic process for identifying “root causes” of problems or events. There are several processes within RCA that can be used, but let’s go with the simplest one which is the 5 Why’s. The 5 Why’s is an interrogative technique used to explore the cause-and-effect relationships underlying a particular problem. The primary goal of the technique is to determine the root cause of a defect or problem by repeating the question “Why?”. Now that we have the basis of what and how to do a root cause analysis, let’s pull out one topic of the documentary and dive deeper together. Once we’re done, I hope that you will continue to dissect the documentary and do your own 5 Why’s on topics you want to understand better. The topic I would like to dive deeper with you on is “drum roll”….Child Sacrifice.

*Based on info presented in the documentary, they claimed the evil ones served gods so we will continue with that thought process while answering the whys.

Child Sacrifice – 1st Why: Why do the evil ones sacrifice children? Because the gods of the evil ones require blood sacrifices and they prefer children.

Child Sacrifice – 2nd Why: Why do the gods of the evil ones prefer children? Because children are pure and in the molding stages of life, which means the same for their blood.

Child Sacrifice – 3rd Why: Why do the gods of the evil ones need blood? Because blood is an energy source.

Child Sacrifice – 4th Why: Why is blood an energy source to the gods of the evil ones? Because the purest vibrational state of matter energy is in the form of plasma and plasma is the main component of blood.

Child Sacrifice – 5th Why: Why do the gods of the evil ones need energy? Because the gods of the evil ones are actually fear mongering parasitic beings from a different dimensional plan that were accidentally pulled into the earth’s dimension. These particular parasitic beings require energy to survive and not just any type of energy. Fear is the lowest vibrational form of energy and that’s the type of energy these beings need to survive in our dimension. This is why the children are totured and abused prior to being killed. These practices invoke fear; which changes and molds the blood plasma of these children into the lowest energetic vibrational state for these parasitic beings to absorb.

Please continue with asking more whys on this subject because you don’t have to stop at 5 whys if your not satisfied with the answers you’ve received. But if I was you I would ask “what are the fear mongering dimensional beings” or “where did they come from” or “why are they here” or “why do the evil ones submit to them”? *The movie and Netflix series Dark Crystal is a great reference to explore.

“Follow the white rabbit down the rabbit hole” – Alice in Wonderland

The Funk


I’ve been in a blah state of mind lately. I guess you can call it a funk. Now that I’m coming into my true self I’ve been questioning a lot about myself and my life lately. Since I no longer have to do anything I don’t want to do. Since I no longer have to follow the rules and save face towards things and people I don’t care to entertain anymore. Now what?

Is this “funk” apart of my awakening, my journey? Or am I depressed and suppressing things in such a beautiful way it’s being disguised as a spiritual awakening?  Rewriting your present and future from the past 30+ years of rules, beliefs, dreams, etc. that have either been placed on me and I took them as my truth or society had pushed on me as the “ways” to become a successful, highly functional person is lonely and confusing. 

Sometimes I want to be around people than I know I won’t have much to talk to them about because I really want to talk about spiritual, in depth things and no “normal” person wants to talk about that. Sometimes I want to have a love interest than other times I feel like why bother, most men was scared of me when I was just intelligent and witty, now I’m intelligent, witty and awoke in my true self……a triple threat.

I just don’t know how to feel about this process that I’m in right now. I’m glad that I no longer have to be just to be and live just to live but I’m lonely and it’s starting to take a toll on me. I guess it’s time to start searching and “being” in this funk so I can find out why I’m feeling like this. Stay tuned!