The Funk


I’ve been in a blah state of mind lately. I guess you can call it a funk. Now that I’m coming into my true self I’ve been questioning a lot about myself and my life lately. Since I no longer have to do anything I don’t want to do. Since I no longer have to follow the rules and save face towards things and people I don’t care to entertain anymore. Now what?

Is this “funk” apart of my awakening, my journey? Or am I depressed and suppressing things in such a beautiful way it’s being disguised as a spiritual awakening?  Rewriting your present and future from the past 30+ years of rules, beliefs, dreams, etc. that have either been placed on me and I took them as my truth or society had pushed on me as the “ways” to become a successful, highly functional person is lonely and confusing. 

Sometimes I want to be around people than I know I won’t have much to talk to them about because I really want to talk about spiritual, in depth things and no “normal” person wants to talk about that. Sometimes I want to have a love interest than other times I feel like why bother, most men was scared of me when I was just intelligent and witty, now I’m intelligent, witty and awoke in my true self……a triple threat.

I just don’t know how to feel about this process that I’m in right now. I’m glad that I no longer have to be just to be and live just to live but I’m lonely and it’s starting to take a toll on me. I guess it’s time to start searching and “being” in this funk so I can find out why I’m feeling like this. Stay tuned!

This Too Shall Pass….


This world is going to shit and I’m ok with what’s happening. Before I knew what the Age of Aquarius meant, before I knew about the Divine Feminine, before I knew anything about my soul being consciousness inside this body for a reason, I use to fret about the happenings in this world. Christianity tainted and sculpted my view of events as the coming of Christ and the anti-Christ rising but in reality it’s the growing pains of this world changing on a spiritual level. 

The controllers of this world have been using the knowledge most people are just now coming into knowing since the beginning to try to control our lives on this planet. As with most people who come into knowledge and power, they have a choice to use it for good or use it for bad. I think most people don’t intentionally choose to be bad but sometimes the decisions we make can turn into bad one after bad one until they become a “bad person” and that person accepts themselves as being bad. The ego of these controllers is the driving force behind all of their actions. An ego that is selfish and makes them think they’re special because they know something others don’t. 

Now there are so many different theories out there on why Earth was inhabited with human beings. Such as an experiment on a new astral race to see what happens when we put souls in flesh and grant them free will to decide on there own what type of life they want to “live” while human. Erase their capabilities to be able to remember who and what they are and see which souls can find their way back to their true self and the soul source. Sounds like an experiment a scientist or doctor would do on a lower life form to learn how it functions, so the idea of a more knowledgeable supreme being or beings being able to do this on a mass scale really doesn’t sound to far fetched to me. I’ve experienced enough and trust my intuition to not sweep this theory to the side as false.

But trying to understand life through my mind is useless and it’s a practice I have to put into play to stop trying to do. Asking why is very beneficial for my mind and how I function as a person but I need to learn to allow the answers to flow to me by experiencing life. By enjoying nature, my kids and myself. In those moments the answers will come and when I sleep and my consciousness is able to free from this body the answers will come from outside realms. 

So as this world continues down this unavoidable path of destruction, I have stability within to keep calm and at peace with the growing pains. To take notice and keep a watchful eye because there’s nothing new under the sun and so many worlds, nations, empires have come and gone so eventually this world too shall pass.