All About Perspective

I don’t know if you’ve heard about the flat earth theory which has gotten a lot of traction lately. That’s a sarcastic question for those who have heard of the theory. Well, I came across some information today that gave me a new perspective on the credibility of the flat earth theory.

I know my soul isn’t from this planet and I’ve had lives prior to this earth life on other planets in other galaxies. I’ve also lived other lives on earth and when your soul is not of earth you are considered a starseed. But I could never understand how being a starseed was special if everybody and their momma are awakening in record numbers during this age we are living in. See, I thought all people who were being awakened in this time period were considered starseeds. So early on in my awakening process I became disappointed and saddened with my awakening experience because I felt I wasn’t special or experiencing something extraordinary. After researching and finding so many other people going through an awakening too put a sour patch on my spirituality journey. There is website after website, numerous Facebook groups and pages, Instagram pages and followers, conventions, spiritual trips, and man other awakening focused things saturating the internet today and I was feeling late to the party.

I started to completely disregard all the things I remembered experiencing since birth and began locking them back away inside myself because obviously I wasn’t special or experiencing something awesomely extraordinary after all. Over time I got back on my spiritual journey and started exploring ancient Kemet and other spiritual teachings which kind of grounded me with a human understanding and foundation of spirituality. It helped to pull the knowledge I’ve gained into perspective and peel back the layers of the universal plan that I’m a part of.

Today I made a full circle about starseeds which I came across 2 and half years ago. While watching Rebecca Campbell’s soul series video on starseeds, I learned that there are 2 types of awakenings going on on Earth right now……earth souls and starseeds. When I first read it, I was like huh, I thought all souls came from the universe and all souls have been elsewhere prior to coming to this learning planet. But after listening to her video, it all clicked and started to make sense. Here’s the paraphrased definition of earth souls:

Earth souls are souls that were created for humans on earth and they only reincarnate on earth. Some earth souls are clueless, not conscious or aware to agendas and don’t even try to become conscious or aware. Then other earth souls awaken and become aware to the powers over this planet agendas, but these souls only know of earth because they are bound to this planet.

So, after hearing this it stuck with me, swirling around in my subconscious and darn near 10 hrs. later it hits me. Maybe this is why flat earthers have gotten so much traction over the years. These are the earth souls that have awakened and aware of being created to be on this earth. But since they’ve never been anywhere else in the universe but on this planet their perspective is earth bound, just like them. They can’t comprehend there’s an entire universe even macro-verses beyond the earths atmosphere. How could there be when all you know is earth. Some awakened earth souls do know about higher beings coming from the stars and helping mold some of earths greatest civilizations, but the extent of those thoughts seem to stop there because the comprehension of the universal and galactic plan stops at the edge of Earth’s atmosphere for them. Earth souls perspective is earth bound so a course earth is linear to them because their eyes and eye can only comprehend the laws that are over this earth. To earth souls everything not within their perspective is literally alien and can be a threat to their earth-bound existence. 

With that thought, both flat earth theory and global earth theory are correct. But these theories are correct to only that awakened soul and their perspective.

 

Side note: This also makes me ponder if the collective that so many spiritual teachers speak of is also divided into 2. Is the collective of earth souls also only earth bound. Awakened earth souls can connect with nature, the animals and other earth souls but can they fully connect to the universal collective? Because, if they could there would be unity in all awakened souls across all planes and dimensions but there isn’t. Hence, there being different earth theories, fear of aliens, ETs and anything not of Earth.

Reference:

https://experience.hayhouseu.com/discoveryourcosmicblueprint-index2/?utm_source=author&utm_medium=affiliate&utm_campaign=campbell_dycb_plc2&utm_content=8672

 

Rain, Rain…..Go Away!

All those times we said this phrase as a kid so we could go outside and play. Superstitiously, we thought we could control the weather. Trying to influence the weather used to be a wish, now it’s our daily reality. In this day and age controlling the weather is a norm for the powers at be of this planet. They try to push climate change and global warming as the cause of these fluctuating weather patterns, the seasons blending or completely being skipped, glaciers melting, etc. to distract the masses from the truth. The truth is countries are at war with each other and they will use the weather as a form of weapon. Other powers are “playing god” and using the weather to experiment on different parts of the world.

I was listening to Dr. Delbert Blair one day and he commented on the fact that thunder and lightning are no longer a part of the many rain storms we get in heavily populated areas now. After I heard it I stopped and thought about it. Where I live in northeastern USA, we get a lot of rain now without many thunderstorms. Lightning is earths way of purifying the air and with the decline of these thunderstorms the mass particles the powers at be have been polluting the air with and the increase in chemtrails to block out the energy waves from the sun have increased over time. These particles are able to stay in the atmosphere longer because lightning isn’t able to neutralize and clear these particles out of the atmosphere.

As the powers at be continue to control the weather and use it against other parts of the world, the climate change discussions will continue to be pushed to distract us from the truth. The truth is the weather isn’t a natural occurrence on earth anymore, it’s manufactured.

The Magical Pills


Do I continue to be numbed down and have no headaches or migraines or do I ask for a different med and start having the worse side effects or just stop the meds all together and risk getting the headaches and migraines again??? Oh how life sucks sometimes and oh how the pharmaceutical industry works its magic to keep us dumb and numb to the real causes of our dis-ease. I literally have mind numbing pain and yes the medication is working but it also has numbed my senses, slowed my thought processes, has caused tingling in my face and lips that makes me feel like I want to wipe my face off at times. I’ve tried the “holistic” approach and it wasn’t working. I was getting massages, seeing the chiropractor, doing yoga, being mindful of my mental state and my stress triggers and responses and yet still the headaches and migraines would come.

I was hospitalized due to cluster headaches, which are migraines on one side of my face and body. It basically resembles a stroke. The neurologist I saw in the ER says it’s nerve related which is why I was prescribed this medication. After all the tests performed, no pinpoint cause on why these cluster headaches have gotten out of control and happening more often frustrates me.

So the question still lingers, to stay medicated or not? To continue to take the magical pills that calm the headaches and migraines but make me feel tingly all over the place or stick it out and hope for the best that I don’t have any long term side effects.

Well, I ended up answering my own question and stopped taking the pills. Unfortunately, I’ve gain the weight back that I was losing but no more tingles in my face. I occasionally still get migraines but it’s only around my menstruation time or if I’ve completely fell off on getting bi-weekly body alignments and massages.

See this is how those doctors get you. Put you on a drug to mask your ailment without addressing the real cause or dis-ease that is going on with your body and/or mind. Then scare you with the “what could happen” without reviewing with you the compete list of side effects and down play your symptoms of a side effect because it falls in the less than 5% margin.

Moral of the story is…..take your health and the knowledge you need to learn about your ailment or dis-ease into your own hands. Don’t heavily rely on doctors and their modern medicine to cure you.

Complacency: Reflections of Self

After achieving what I thought I should as an adult, all those “accomplishments” lead to deep heart ache, pain, unhappiness and finding myself feeling empty, unsatisfied and alone.

After several months of being stuck in a void and I’m using the word void because I wasn’t sad or depressed, but I was in a state of emotionless. While in this void, my mind was on constant repeat, thinking the same thoughts over and over again. What am I doing wrong? How am I 34 and I don’t have anything together? Why do I feel so lost? While away on a trip I discovered several different topics and articles on Facebook that kept catching my interest. Figured if something keeps popping up I need to start paying attention to it. This began my journey into the unknown….. so I thought.

This journey of self-love, inner-peace, becoming spiritually in tune to my real self. The real Me and not who I think I should be, or who I thought I should be as a child or even when I thought I was in college, and definitely not who society says I should be. More importantly, not who my mom or my family think I should be or should have been.

My mind works differently from most, I noticed this at an early age. Always questioning life, rules, nature, adults and authority. Never took answers at face value and always wanted to learn beyond the surface. My mind sees disorder, chaos, things out of place and automatically starts analyzing and correcting them. I always thought it was my OCD until it enhanced my career by finding the flaws in a facility and their programs and on a personal level giving great advice. Unfortunately, it also gives off the persona of a “know it all” or always having something to say. Had to learn with maturity when to speak my truth and when to let people figure it out on their own. More importantly, not beat myself up when they fail or don’t figure it out. I’m a fixer by nature but everything and everyone doesn’t want to be fixed. Sometimes its best for things and people to stay broken. Can’t save the world by draining myself in the process. Learned to pick my battles so I can have successful wars.

Good vs. Evill

Religions has us convinced that there’s a good vs evil scenario going on in the world. Movies have us believing that there’s a good vs evil war going on in the universe. All thoughtfully done to control the masses. As some people focus on trying to be so good that they can’t be seen as evil and other people so hell bent on being so evil people won’t consider them good. These unspoken people have been directly affected by the cat and mouse game of society to keep our minds focused on one over the other rather than on both.

How does a person even know the difference between the two if the other didn’t exist to compare it to? Light couldn’t exist if there was no darkness, good couldn’t exist if there was no evil. Life is about balance. The issue with the universe and our world is they are out of balance. Evil has been “winning” at keeping this balance out of whack. Poisoning and distracting our souls and minds from what’s important in life. Controlling people through every aspect that can come to mind to keep us divided and at war with each other. Old vs new, iPhone vs Android, breastfeeding vs not breastfeeding, Black vs white, Hispanics vs non Hispanics, girl vs boy, Democrat vs republican and so on. All this division keeps us distracted as the balance in our world continues to stay out of whack.

Love the good and evil inside each of us, the light and the dark because we are made of both. This is why evil and good things happen in the world and the acceptance of both is why free will still exists.

Xtina

Looking at the moon and knowing there’s more to life than what’s on this planet  helps to keep me going. Looking up at the sky always calmed me and helped me keep all worries in my mind at bay. Looking up instantly brings a “home” feeling to my soul. 

I always wondered if the universe was just one big brain because the galaxies look like nerve ends and synopsis connections. So many of the astral forms in space reflect cells and connective tissues like in our bodies. Is the universe a living organism just like us?! Can this be a question or a statement?! 

The moon feels like love when I see her and sun warms me like an embrace from a man that I’ve been desiring for like ever. My heart and soul lies with the stars. I’m drawn to the X in the sky and have been drawned to it ever since I could remember. In high school I named the X in the sky Xtina. Never knew my X in the sky was a constellation,  pointed to Sirius A or housed the Orion Nebula. First time I saw this nebula I fell in love and was submerged in a feeling of wonder. Being drawn to the X in the sky was finally making sense. Home are we?!


Poker Face


I cracked through my ego last week and it was a very emotional, high anxiety experience to say the least. Seeing the face you’ve worn for so long for what it really is is scary. Then your true self finally being able to be seen and heard for the first time is terrifying. I don’t know the true me and that’s scary and that’s what caused the high anxiety. Being able to finally distinguish between my egos voice and my real voice is a great feeling but my real voice is so soft spoken. Calming my ego and telling her to chill out and back off is tough. It’s like yelling at or reprimanding your 2 year old daughter. She’s your mini you and you never want to hurt her feelings in any way because it hurts you so much  when you have to discipline or correct her.

I have to keep telling myself that I am not my ego and I have to break the cycle of doing what I use to do because someone told me I should do it, should like it, should say it, should wear it, etc. I’ve never realized how many of my life choices were really somebody else’s choices that I took on as my own to either please someone, or didn’t want go against their beliefs or opinions, or I respected and looked up to so I never deared to question their choices and influence over me. Now as an adult and looking at my life choices and analyzing them against my childhood dreams, they don’t align and I really need to know how I lost my way. Finally finding my true voice will be able to help answer these questions. I don’t want to go along just to get along anymore and I’m definitely tired of the poker face. So if it’s going against the norm, disappointing others to stay true to myself, or whatever I’m going to do that because I done not being me for the sake of others. I will no longer let my ego trap me in a life of conforming.